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How The Satanic Illuminati Destroyed My Life (And How Jesus Christ Redeemed Me)

Published on Jan 9, 2019

Growing up in an occult family has detrimental effects on the fragile human psyche. It tears the human soul into pieces with the devastation and fear. Here is my story of the abuse perpetrated against me in my own home, and how Jesus Christ redeemed it. Growing Up In The Satanic Illuminati:…
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About Me: Hi my name is Beth 🙂 I am an ex witch and new ager, who came out of satanic ritual abuse in the Mormon church. I am saved by the love and grace of Jesus Christ, and I blog and vlog about my past experiences, what I have learned and where God is leading me. I am also a stay at home mom of 4 boys, and married to a wonderful man.
Christianity, Love, Personal Journey

First Kiss.

I had my first kiss in the back row of this movie theater when I was 16 years old. Very late for a first kiss, but memorable none the less.
My first love took me to see The Princess Diaries starring Ann Hathaway. Right at the part where her makeover is unveiled, My then first boyfriend took me by The cheek, turned my face into him and pulled me in for my first kiss. It was very surprising. I loved him so much. He broke my heart.

My boyfriend broke up with me because I wouldn’t fornicate with him. He was blown away that I turned him down for Yeshua. It was a first for him.

Not every first is good.
Praise God for His Grace and Mercy and the extra chances He gives us in life and in love.

I really love the popular quote by Alexander Hamilton
“If you don’t stand for something, you will fall for anything.”

In my case at 16 I obviously stood for Yeshua/Jesus.
Therefore I didn’t fall for this dude’s flattering tongue.

Just walking down a literal memory lane brings lots of creative writing ideas.

Praise The Lord that He can make Beautiful things with our pain and hurts!

The difference between life and the movies is that our actual existence never ends. After we die we can continue existing on Fire in horrific pain in the eternal damnation of hell for all eternity, or we can live forever in Heaven in peace with God through Yeshua our Messiah, The Son Of God.
I choose Yeshua.
This life is so short.
Don’t let the pain and sufferings of this world get you down. You were made for more. Seek The Lord!
God has a Plan for your life!
It’s real! He’s waiting on you in the secret place…


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Daily Devotional with Mr. Jeffrey A. Hale 10.5.18 ♥

🎶It’s alright
There comes a time
Got no patience to search
For peace of mind
Layin’ low
Want to take it slow
No more hiding or
Disguising truths I’ve sold
Everyday it’s something
Hits me all so cold
Find me sittin’ by myself
No excuses, then I know🎶

This song came out in 1994, I was at the hight of my alcohol and drug use. “No Excuses” off of Alice In Chains album Jar of Flies was written by Jerry Cantrell for Layne Staley about his drug use. As I listened to this Alice In Chains song again today, I can see it being more universal than that. I think everyone has a time in their life that they just don’t have the motivation and patience to deal with others. Even family and friends. Depression and addiction is a B#tch. But if you tell people “I’m depressed” most won’t understand. They’ll take it as just an excuse to get out of doing something, or an excuse to isolate, or an excuse to get drunk and high. I think the lyrics definitely seem to fit Layne’s attitude towards the last years of his life. He knew he was depressed and a drug addict. He knew he was throwing his talent away. He didn’t want to lie and give some bullcrap excuse for his bad behavior. He, unlike most people in that position, was honest. There was “No Excuses”, so he didn’t give any. In many many ways I was just like Layne in my old life in this fallen world. The difference is I didn’t die in my depression and addiction. Today thanks to YeHoVaH/God, I’m sober, strong in my faith and even writing a book (hope to have it out soon friends) YeHoVaH/God is calling me to make an impact with my book and He has provided me the means to fulfill that calling. Even Moses didn’t feel he was qualified to do what YeHoVaH/God had called him to do. All Moses could see was his own unworthiness. To YeHoVaH/God there are “No Excuses” for not fulfilling the calling that He has put on our lives. When He calls us we can say, “I’m not ready, I’m not worthy, I can’t do it, and so on. But listen, there are “No Excuses” that matter to YeHoVaH/God. When He gives us a calling in our lives, He already has a plan for us to fulfill that calling. The only thing that holds us back is US! Facebook friends, if your fighting addiction, depression, illness or a whole host of reasons your not fulfilling your calling and making an impact. Please remember, if you have given your heart to YeHoVaH/God through Yeshua/Jesus, there are “No Excuses.” You have been given everything you need to make an impact. All you have to do is step out in faith and do it. Have you given your heart to YeHoVaH/God through Yeshua/Jesus ? Have you accepted Him as you savior and accepted His forgiveness of your sins? If the answer is yes, then make an impact for the Kingdom. If your answer is no, then give Him your heart today and join those who are making a positive impact on our world. Amen?

Personal Journey

Prophecy: God is Unlocking New Identities and Giving Out New Names in This Season. October 2017

Jennifer prophesies God is unlocking new identities and giving out new names, then unpacks this teaching and prays over you in this powerful video. You can find Jennifer online at or sow into the ministry at

Glory to God! If you’ve followed this blog for a while, or if you’ve known me for a little bit, you can see that this Prophecy was spot on for me. My name has literally been changed and so has my Calling. God Anointed me as a Prophet on March 15th, 2018. I have yet to receive and yet to give  The Prophecies God has for me. Amazing Word! ♥

Personal Journey

Inner Healing… 8/2/2018 ♥

Glory to God.

This is the first inner healing journal entry I have ever shared with the world.

Yeshua has been healing my broken soul this year like never before. He leads me through the darkest of valleys into His Marvelous Light each day. I am more whole day by day. More to come later about the sensitive topic of inner healing and what it means to be truly broken before God…


Inner Healing 7.16.18


Eye doctor appointment is an eye opener for sure.

Filling out the paperwork was both humbling and sobering.

Praise God for resurrecting me…

This is huge.

From Beauty to Ashes. All pride is exposed.

Sitting here under this bright, white overhead fluorescent light makes me feel naked-just completely exposed.

The Lord is bringing me to places of confrontation where I have to look at and deal with things that make me seriously uncomfortable.

However, in the midst of it all is a greater intimacy and walk with my Creator-which is what Jesus/Yeshua died for. God wanted Complete Reconciliation between Himself and His Creation. This is The Revelation of The Cross. This is what The Lord used to show me my brokenness. I hadn’t seen The Passion of The Christ in like 15 years. I remembered the movie really wrecked me emotionally.

I was having a terrible 2017 so I tried to press into God like never before. One way I felt led to try was to watch the movie about Jesus/Yeshua. I had no emotional response.

Today, I expound.

August 2, 2018…

At the doctor’s office, I had to update my patient information. It had been so long… I took my clipboard and sat down, ear buds in my ears. I was blaring my personal playlist on Spotify-Particularly, Roots and Wings by Miranda Lambert as I pondered my Testimony and developments underway at The Very Hand of God.

This song is so personal for me. It’s like 2018 has been my year of Breakthrough and I am blown away at my Lord… The Miracles keep unfolding with The Truth!



Lyrics to “Roots and Wings” by Miranda Lambert

Roots And Wings
I got red dirt stains
On my boots and jeans
Calloused fingers
From my guitar strings
Wild like the wind
In the tall pine trees
I got roots
And I got wings
I raise my glass
On a Saturday night
I thank the Lord above
On my Sunday drive
For Daddy’s hands
And Mama’s dreams
He gave me roots
She gave me wings
He said run on love
And run on life
And plant some seeds
Until you’re tired
Don’t take anything at all for granted
She said raise your hands
And raise your babies
Be yourself
And never change it
Be everything you ever wanna be
He said run on love
And run on life
And plant some seeds
And take your time
Don’t take anything at all for granted
She said raise your hands
And raise your babies
Be yourself
And never change it
Be everything you ever wanna be
I saddle up
When I get down
Sing every night
In a different town
And I’ve got a man who wears my ring
And I got roots
And I got wings
Yeah I got roots
I got wings
Songwriters: Miranda Lambert
Roots And Wings lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC


Back to the doctor visit…

The Lord pulled back the curtain of my heart as my eyes scanned the black and white form.

Emergency contacts. Diagnoses. Previous surgeries, family history, etc…

I could see my ashes all over the place. I am resurrected with Christ, far more than I ever thought. I had no idea just how dead I was.

The enemy tried to completely rob me of my identity. The Lord has intervened.

I am no longer cursed, but blessed, and the things that God is doing just takes my breath away… ♥

Praise The Lord! He is The God of The Living and not The God of the dead! ♥

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Also, on another beautiful note for The Glory of God, while I was there in the waiting room, I met this lovely couple named Danny and Anna Conn. They are amazing People of God and I praise The Lord for this Divine Appointment. We shared our thoughts about the current state of The Church and had a nice little fellowship. Praise The Lord! I shared God’s Awesome Deliverance Fellowship group with them, then around a week later I ran into Anna at work! We took a picture! Praise The LORD!


Hallelujah!  ♥

In other news…

The LORD blessed me with a new hairstyle today on August 3, 2018.

I went for the Marilyn Monroe look.


She was known for different reasons and remains an icon…but God knows why I chose this hairdo. He led me to as part of His story. I relate to Marilyn, like many other women. She may have been involved in darkness and living in sin, but she was a real woman, and she was broken. I praise God for healing my brokenness. It is through Yeshua/Jesus ALONE that ANYBODY can be made WHOLE. ♥

Praise GOD!

Christianity, Personal Journey

In The Chapel.

Revelation 12:11 (KJV)

“And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.”

The LORD God Almighty of Israel led me back on campus today at UPIKE, formerly Pikeville College. He had me share my testimony on a prayer tag and hang it on the Chapel Prayer Wall there. It was a very fun trip. So much has changed since I was there last. At 33 my circumstances and goals are like night and day to those of years passed. I Praise Him for it…. This is how we overcome. By The BLOOD of The LAMB and by The Word of our TESTIMONY.

Personal Journey

As Long As I Shall Live, I’ll Give Thanks To God Above…

This is an awesome song of praise to God our Father that was written for and featured on an episode of the old show Touched by an Angel. Wynonna Judd performs this song-on that episode of the show she was about to lose her son, but gained faith. It was awesome!

Hope you’ll give this remarkable song a listen!