Personal Journey

Consequences…

Parts of me are twitching, sore, burning among other things. I am talking about the effects of the demonic oppression on my body. Medical Science calls these things “symptoms.” The wages of sin is death. I am NOT posting this to give the enemy any glory, but for it to serve as a SERIOUS WARNING. If you’ve followed my blog for a while this year you can see that I have been dealing with serious demonic oppression, sexual in nature. These days porn is free, but not really. Your credit card may not be charged, but your body and sanity will be. Especially if you are a born again Christian, God will chasten you. Also, If you return to the sin(s) after your deliverance, they will come back…

John 5:14 (KJV)

Afterward Jesus findeth him in the temple, and said unto him, Behold, thou art made whole: sin no more, lest a worse thing come unto thee.


 

KNOW YOUR BIBLE! So many Christians don’t get into The Word these days! I did not know about this verse and I let my flesh lead me back into the same sins after JESUS CHRIST HIMSELF delivered me at my desk in my living room with a simple prayer. This is why I am in the position I am in right now. Constant torment in my female areas. Even after The Lord has blessed me with some major deliverance this past week. It takes time. This stuff doesn’t happen over night. I do have 32 years of acquired spiritual junk. However…

Through it all, He has been faithful. My God has blessed me beyond measure. He reached out to me using a Sister in Christ and led me into a deliverance ministry fellowship group. I hadn’t been going to Church regularly for a very long time so this was such a blessing and very much needed! He never left my side. Because I am saved, I was chastened and not cast away. My Father is now restoring me and our relationship. As these demons leave the voids are filled with The Holy Spirit.

Hebrews 12:6-11 (KJV)

For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.

If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?

But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.

Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live?

10 For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness.

11 Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.


You hear the phrase “count the cost” sometimes. It’s in The Bible:

Luke 14:27-28 (KJV)

27 And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.

28 For which of you, intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he have sufficient to finish it?


SIN costs you EVERYTHING!!! Jesus is the only way out of Hell and messes like these. My attitude now is that I praise HIM that I am blessed to suffer in Jesus’ Name because it shows I am a daughter and not a servant. I am an heir and co-heir with Christ. More updates on my journey to come later. God bless!

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Christianity, Personal Journey

The Worth of The Cross

Lying in bed last night as I was thinking about how terrible this demonic torment has been for months, it came to me: Look at Apostle Paul! Look at all he went through for the sake of Jesus and The Cross! He ENDURED so much! What patience and perseverance this Brother had in The LORD! After so many pity parties and begging God to take this thing away…how much am I willing to go through for Jesus and for The Cross? How much does He matter to me? Am I going to serve Him through the dark times also as I have so boldly proclaimed many times before all this happened? It’s so much easier to boast about my dedication for Christ than for me to walk it out with Him in patience when things get so tough.

All my life I’ve been quick to give up when things don’t go my way easily and quickly. I haven’t had much patience in all my 32 years on this planet.


Check out what Apostle Paul went through for Jesus’ sake.

2 Corinthians 11:16-33 (KJV)

16 I say again, let no man think me a fool; if otherwise, yet as a fool receive me, that I may boast myself a little.

17 That which I speak, I speak it not after the Lord, but as it were foolishly, in this confidence of boasting.

18 Seeing that many glory after the flesh, I will glory also.

19 For ye suffer fools gladly, seeing ye yourselves are wise.

20 For ye suffer, if a man bring you into bondage, if a man devour you, if a man take of you, if a man exalt himself, if a man smite you on the face.

21 I speak as concerning reproach, as though we had been weak. Howbeit whereinsoever any is bold, (I speak foolishly,) I am bold also.

22 Are they Hebrews? so am I. Are they Israelites? so am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? so am I.

23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft.

24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one.

25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;

26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;

27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.

28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.

29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not?

30 If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities.

31 The God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which is blessed for evermore, knoweth that I lie not.

32 In Damascus the governor under Aretas the king kept the city of the damascenes with a garrison, desirous to apprehend me:

33 And through a window in a basket was I let down by the wall, and escaped his hands.


Trusting in Him and submitting to Him. Surrendering to The LORD… This video really speaks to me right now.

One day at a time. I believe God is cleansing me and purging me of the world and my carnal desires for the things of this world, known or unknown. I have fasted and done many deliverance. The demons are coming out but at a slow pace. The sexual demons are still violating me anytime 24/7 and I’m still having nightmares and annoying physical torment, but you know what… This morning I actually thank Him for what He is doing in me. I am not fully submitted to God. I am not fully dead to self. I am not truly surrendered to Him. I plan on seeking surrender to Jesus now more than ever. One day at a time. I must get into prayer alone with my Father in the quiet. It’s so easy to get caught up in this world as we are living in the technological age with so many distractions. Impatience is hard to shed when everything comes so instantly in this period of humanity. I confess I am impatient and need to surrender to God.

James 1:2-4 (KJV)

My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;

Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.

But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.


So, God bless you all. I hope this helps someone. Glory to God! He revealed this to me last night before falling asleep. Praise His Holy Name! He has NEVER given up on me! He will NOT give up on YOU either!

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