Love, Personal Journey

I Don’t Have To Make Believe.

JJ Heller Lyrics

“Make Believe”

“You said you couldn’t keep me when you were seventeen
Too young to be a father
You kissed my hand and took your leave
And you taught me how to make believe Make believe I was a gift to you from heaven
Make believe that you would take me as your own
Make believe that you would set the mark of what a man should be
You taught me how to make believe

And now that I’ve grown older
I long for us to meet
I have a million questions
But most of all I want to see
If all of it was make believe

Another year has come and gone
I am living with your family
And I feel right at home
In the place where I always wanted to be

I’m going out this evening
I check the mirror twice
You stop me on the staircase
You kiss my hand and say that I look beautiful tonight

And I believe I was a gift to you from heaven
And I believe that you would take me as your own
I believe that you set the mark of what a man should be
Now I don’t have to make believe”

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Glory to God!
Thank you, Jeff ♥
Personal Journey

Bible Verses About Overcoming Rejection

Romans 8:28 – And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.

John 1:11 – He came unto his own, and his own received him not.

Romans 8:31 – What shall we then say to these things? If God [be] for us, who [can be] against us?

Luke 6:22 – Blessed are ye, when men shall hate you, and when they shall separate you [from their company], and shall reproach [you], and cast out your name as evil, for the Son of man’s sake.

Isaiah 53:4-6 King James Version (KJV)

Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.

But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.

Matthew 10:14 – And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear your words, when ye depart out of that house or city, shake off the dust of your feet.

Psalms 27:10 – When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.

Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Isaiah 49:15 – Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee.
Matthew 18:10 – Take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones; for I say unto you, That in heaven their angels do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven.

Matthew 13:54-58 King James Version (KJV)

54 And when he was come into his own country, he taught them in their synagogue, insomuch that they were astonished, and said, Whence hath this man this wisdom, and these mighty works?

55 Is not this the carpenter’s son? is not his mother called Mary? and his brethren, James, and Joses, and Simon, and Judas?

56 And his sisters, are they not all with us? Whence then hath this man all these things?

57 And they were offended in him. But Jesus said unto them, A prophet is not without honour, save in his own country, and in his own house.

58 And he did not many mighty works there because of their unbelief.

Personal Journey

What About Me…

What I’ve learned about the enemy (or Satan’s kingdom of darkness) is that they hit you hardest at your weakest and most vulnerable points. For example, one of the worst situations is when they come at you using rejection if that’s something you’ve always dealt with. If you have spent your whole life comparing yourself to others before coming to Christ, you can be sure the devil will use that even among the Body of Christ. Before you know it you will find yourself bitter and envious toward a Brother or Sister because they are hearing from The Lord and you’re not. They are growing in their walk with Jesus and things just remain dark in your world. Your trials seem never ending. Why is it that everyone else is getting their breakthrough and not you? Those of us who have struggled with rejection our whole lives can easily find ourselves in this spot.

It’s painful when Satan uses old tactics from your life when you were in the world now in your life as a Christian. It’s something we need deliverance from. Praise God for deliverance ministry. Also, it’s been my experience that the enemy attacks the hardest when you first get out of bed. Your feet hit the floor and a billion sneaky fiery darts come rushing toward your mind. Anything to get you in a bad mood or set you on a bad course for the day. It’s so important to pray spiritual warfare in the morning and at night I think. If Satan’s going to start early, we should too.

We just have to remember and know that no two people are alike in their walks with Jesus. We all have different places in God’s plan and in The Body of Christ. God has unique trials and roads for us all to take, carefully designed for us individually. It is so very important that we do not compare ourselves to other Believers or what God is doing in their lives. Yes, we bear each others’ burdens, but I am talking about in an unhealthy way. Just because your Brother or Sister is on the mountain and you’re in the valley does not mean that God doesn’t have a mountain for you coming in due time.

We have the ability to choose what we accept in our minds. We have the ability to monitor our thought life and dismiss the ones not of God and to cast down imaginations contrary to God and His Word. We can choose to not entertain wicked thoughts and not act according to our emotions or our flesh. He’s given us free will. It’s up to us to die daily, pick up our cross and follow Jesus. Life may not make any sense at all to us right now, but we can’t afford to give up. We must remain faithful to Him in all things. If you’re like me, count how many sentences you begin with “I feel” or “I don’t feel.” It’s not about how we feel. We are supposed to be dead and it is Christ that lives, not us. Dead people don’t take offense.

How loyal are you going to be to God today? Did you count the cost?

I pray this blesses you somehow and glorifies The Lord today in Jesus’ Name.

Personal Journey

I Got Something to Say…

It’s like after 6 a.m. and I’m sitting here sippin on some Cappuccino. On the drive home from the gas station so many thoughts were running through my head. Many emotions too..I shed a few tears as I sang along to some Miranda Lambert and reminisced with some Taylor Swift on my Spotify app. Needless to say I took the long way home…

It’s not like me to revert back to my old ways and musical tastes like I did this morning, but after losing a major spiritual attack after waking up and feeling so defeated, I just didn’t care. I threw it all away. I didn’t know I would mess up today and so early, but God did. I got so much deliverance last night. I just knew that was it. I just knew that the molesting and raping demons were going down forever. I was so excited because the desire to masturbate from their stimulation would be gone completely forever! Not so…yet. Christians (and everybody else) do not engage in watching pornography not matter what. The cost is far too high-especially if you are a Christian, a Child of GOD seeking The Lord. There are demons that can attach themselves to your body and live inside of you. They can be so stubborn to get out as I am finding out. Doing this stuff is a WIDE OPEN DOOR FOR THE DARK SIDE! Not many want to talk about this but it needs to be addressed!

So today God has had mercy on me. Even after blowing it this morning, still yet I began burping and yawning and coughing. These are all manifestations of deliverance. God was delivering me and still kicking demons out despite my actions. I haven’t prayed since.

As I was listening to songs like I Knew You Were Trouble, Red, and Bad Blood, I thought about all of the rejection I experienced in romantic relationships growing up and in early adulthood. It didn’t matter how beautiful I was or how talented. I was always rejected by the men I so desired. Even in the relationships I was involved in, they never lasted too long. NOW it is SO clear to me WHY! Having received all of the revelation this year in my trials I see that we live in a spirit world and all is spiritual. I recognize the mishaps. Most people have heard that God has a plan for your life. Well, the truth is…Satan does too! The kingdom of darkness is always at work in your life as well carrying out assignments against you to suit their purposes and plans against God. Good news tho! That’s what spiritual warfare is for!

All of my romantic entanglements were a part of Satan’s plan against my life to destroy what God had for me/God’s purpose for my life. I believe the enemy can catch a glimpse of the future but only God knows everything. Satan can speculate, I mean, after all he’s been around for a very long time! Whatever happened, I know the enemy was at work. Maybe not in everything. We have been given free will, just know that the kingdom of darkness has plans for your life too. I tell you this in wisdom, not to scare you. I tell you this from experience. There were major assignments against me in my young life with the spirits of rejection, self-hatred, fear, and so much more.

So if you’re going through something like this (you can apply this to everything else too), just know that it’s nothing personal. Remember that these spirits operate in people to get to us…and we war not against flesh and blood. Man, what an awakening this year has been for me!

Seek The Lord in prayer and ask for wisdom. God bless!

Personal Journey

What Must I do to be saved? Where Can I do it? And Where Must I Go?

From Brother Chad’s YouTube Channel:

Most people when you ask them claim to be Born Again..Most people claimed to be saved..but what does that Truly mean????

As we race toward the soon coming of the Lord Jesus Christ….the deception is ramping up….

This Is My Most Important Video I Have Ever Done. Time is truly Short…The Prophetic Superstorm is gaining speed like never before as we approach the Glorious Coming of the Messiah Jesus Christ . The Most Important Message that needs to go out is the only Truth that matters….That Truth is Jesus Christ…Him and Him alone is the only entrance into the Kingdom of God…Just as it was in the Days of Noah…there was one door into the Ark for safety…everyone aboard the Ark was spared from the horrors of the flood that destroyed everything else….Jesus Christ is that door! You must enter into that door for eternal safety! The door is still open but it is closing fast….the best decision of your eternity can be made right now! Right where you stand! Jesus Is knocking at the door of your heart! Will you let him in???? Help me share this with as many friends and family members as possible…because truly the Day is Approaching! The King is coming!

Romans 10:9-10King James Version (KJV)

9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.

John 3:3King James Version (KJV)
3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.

John 10:9New King James Version (NKJV)
9 I am the door. If anyone enters by Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture.

1 Timothy 2:5King James Version (KJV) 5 For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus;

Acts 4:12King James Version (KJV) 12 Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.

John 14:6King James Version (KJV) 6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

Romans 3:23King James Version (KJV) 23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;

Romans 6:23King James Version (KJV) 23 For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

1 Corinthians 15:21-22King James Version (KJV)
21 For since by man came death, by man came also the resurrection of the dead.

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A sharp sting and dull ache at the same time.

Earlier today, while looking through the guest bedroom, I happened to glance up at an old, framed family photo. A thousand memories flooded my mind. The contrast between everything I know today…and who and where we were back then…is just jaw-dropping. Oh, how everything has changed. I’ve heard that my whole life, but this morning it really sunk in.

Of course, people change throughout their lives, one stage to the next. A sharp sting and a dull ache at the same time. The troubles we knew then were nothing compared to the ones to come. Gazing at myself in the picture, my tiny 16 year old body…frail inside and out, I recalled all I was dealing with at the time in high school. Rejection. Bulimia. Becoming a Christian. The successes in extracurricular activities. My broken heart. Comparison, comparison. I can’t imagine what it’s like to be a teenager attending public school in today’s world…

Now, here I sit a strong woman of God. I’m no different than any other Christian, just trying to live the rest of my days faithful to Jesus, to God. My heart goes out to that confused and broken girl. In the end it was all in my head. Yes, I had some real issues to be tended to, but so much deception by the enemy himself as I chose Jesus. I didn’t know about spiritual warfare. At least not how real it really is.

Choosing Jesus is the best thing you could ever do. People won’t always understand why you’ve changed…how you changed. Your lifestyle, goals, worldview. Following Jesus means walking the straight & narrow road, traveled by few. Sometimes you feel alone, especially if you have no support at home. But you see, in this wilderness...you are transformed. In what seems to be the darkness, something beautiful happens. You find out who you are. That you were made for more. You are a Child of God.

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2015, addiction

Looking For Answers

When nobody understands.

Feeling invisible, broken & used up…

Everyone matters.

The world wants to hide the truth and shut it down, pointing everyone’s eyes in another direction. Distractions. Spouting half-truths. Things that are believable but yet lies.

Its slandering Christians, people who follow Jesus or God, and the Bible.

If people could truly see the lies with an awakening inside…to see this deception for what it really is…

They would realize that no matter what, you can still come home to your Heavenly Father, God-Who in this moment, is waiting with open arms. God in Heaven is not just God. He’s a Father to the fatherless. The love you never had. A love like you’ve never ever felt before, contentment & peace that won’t come from anything else. You see everyone matters. No matter what you’re crawling through, no matter how heavy the load…relief, freedom, Love, and Eternal Life can still be yours. All things are possible with God. So many people or families are going through horrible situations in these perilous times we’re living in. No matter how diverse the chaos, the solution is the same. And that’s Jesus.

All addictions are/can be conquered and wiped out with God. The power is amazing. You can’t change the past, but the past does not define you. When you choose Jesus and decide to follow Him, upon your confession that Jesus Christ is the Son of God, you die in the water of Baptism. You arise a brand new creature in Christ, like in His Resurrection. Your name is now added to the Lamb’s Book of Life. This means, it is actually written in Heaven Whom you belong to! You’re His…and given guardian angels to look out for you along your new walk with Jesus, they go before and behind you.

Being Baptized into Christ and living as a Christian is the only way to Heaven, Eternal life. It doesn’t stop at getting Saved & becoming a Christian. Because we are still living in the flesh down here on earth, we will still mess up or sin, even after giving our lives to Jesus. But that’s why His Blood was shed on the Cross. We’re covered eternally, but when we fall, we pray for forgiveness. Realizing what the sin or sins were, we repent or turn away from the sin asking for forgiveness before our Father in prayer, in the name of Jesus. After the Baptism, we must still do our best to live faithfully for God the rest of our days. We are not saved by what we do, but by His Grace, the debt paid by our Lord Jesus on the Cross.

Everyone matters.

Godssalvation

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Soul Carrier

My body was never good enough as a teenager and into my early twenties. I had this poster of Britney Spears I held as my high standard. As close as I got…even being able to buy a single digit size 2 piece, It did NOT look like the poster! I absolutely did NOT look right. I shed so many pounds! I even did some toning and kickboxing and still no.

The fact is, not everybody’s body is gonna look like the 18 year old Britney Spears centerfold that I kept as a measuring tool!

I would NEVER accept the reality that only a small percentage of women have the physical makeup capable of pulling off a bikini look like hers.  But now, looking back as a 30 year old woman, I feel like a caged bird set free!!!

I found Recovery from my eating disorder at 22, but it was when I finally considered myself as my own unique type of beauty that things began to change. My stubborn self-criticizing mind fought it so hard. I resisted this new way of thinking to the max and then some.

Basically, to sum it up.,..

Through years of Bulimia, depression, therapy, Bipolar hospitalizations, eating disorder outpatient groups, and constant comparing myself to other women (famous and non-famous) I have learned that I am enough. I am okay. You see, for me it was all about rejection. The lies of the Devil himself led me to constant negative thought patterns, 24/7. I hated my life, my body…i hated myself. I was going against myself. My own worst enemy.*

*Note: I was NOT my own worst enemy. Satan, the devil himself was…and is now for everyone.

One day I had an awakening. This body of mine that I hated, the very cause of my unhappiness,  that I even self harmed over the years, was more than my body.

This is my Soul Carrier!

My flesh that I walk in and live in every day of my life contains something so delicate, so precious, so much more…

My Soul! My TRUE Being is operating from inside my now plus-sized, unique body. Becoming a Christian makes this the Temple of God. I am not my own. I was bought at a price. Though I didn’t believe that for years, the freedom I have NOW within the knowledge that I was believing lies…is priceless. Yes, ultimately it is

Jesus = freedom. You know in the Bible there’s a verse for this feeling.

“And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
-Philippians 4:7

It is possible to absolutely hate yourself, what you look like & think your life is over…and still overcome it all to find peace that is out of this world. I’m here to tell you it can be done, no matter what the circumstances. Everybody has their own personal story and journey. All of the clothes I bought in debt, gym memberships, and all other attempts to perfect this look i had in my head, totally don’t have to have ’em! I am beautiful, fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of God Himself, just as you are! Shopping sprees, binging on sweets and stuff only puts a Band-Aid on the pain. There is relief. Peace, out of this world.

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God Didn’t Need You, He Wanted You.

This truth is beyond beautiful… ❤

Something to think about.

abuse, addiction, Anorexia, Anxiety, Bipolar Disorder, Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Bulimia, Christianity, coping, Depression, Diabetes, divorce, Eating Disorders, Faith, God, Inspirational, Jesus, Personal Journey, prayer, PTSD

Game Over

 

Game vs. Journey

According to Webster, a game is a physical or mental activity or contest that has rules and that people do for pleasure. 

According to Webster, a journey is an act of traveling from one place to another.

  • It is truth that life is a journey, not a game.
  • Life in this realm is a one time shot. There are no extra lives or bonuses. Game Over is permanent.
  • Like in games, you can quit…but the consequences are not worth it… After all, you cannot see for yourself waiting for what’s around the corner. I know first hand how major depression & Bipolar depression can darken our minds to such a degree where hope seems dead. Truth is, it’s not. No matter what somebody did to you, said to you, or who it was…you were made for more.
  • We all know that in games there are winners, and there are losers.
  • You only lose if you accept defeat. It is really & truly possible to rise above your past, overcome your deepest pain or great obstacles, if you desire…with all of your heart. The path has been laid before you.

 

Where are you going?

Jesus heals all the brokenness inside.  Check out my story.

Peace, healing, deliverance, and Salvation are free…in Jesus Christ, The Son of God. The only way to God, The Father. You don’t have to be perfect to come to Him. We come to Him and He cleans us up. Empty is made whole in Jesus.

 

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