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Daily Devotional with Mr. Jeffrey A. Hale

🎶If I could hold your hand one more time

And hear your lullabies just like before

I know that I did wrong, so I’m singing you this song

Mother, I won’t see you anymore. Son, I wish you knew how much we’re missin’ you

I saw them cry their tears from up above

I try to tell them, but the words aren’t getting through

I didn’t mean to hurt the ones I love. Mother, father, I hope to see you soon

And things will be just like they were before

I’m sending all my love, I’m watching from above

And I’ll be in their hearts forever more🎶

When this song came out in 1991 by “The Scream” it really hit home. I lost my best friend at age 19. It’s been nearly 27 years since he passed. I often wonder what kind of family he would have had. I think about all the good things which life has to offer that he got cheated out of. There are many situations in life which can cause a person to feel overwhelmed to the point of wanting to commit suicide (the death of a loved one, being arrested and imprisoned, a spouse leaving, getting caught doing wrong, peer pressure, teenage pressures) In the Bible, in Judas’ case it was guilt, his evil was exposed and he was overwhelmed with guilt. Judas could have been forgiven, but he instead foolishly hung himself. There is always a right way and a wrong way to deal with anything. Just lay everything out on the table before YeHoVaH/God in prayer. He promises to forgive you and to help you get your life together. You don’t need to feel overwhelmed with sorrow and fear, just beg Him to forgive you and then you do everything in your power to make things right. If there’s nothing you can do about it or it is too late, then you must put the situation into His hands and free your mind of something you cannot change. Forget the past, it is gone forever. Don’t worry about the future, it may not be yours. Rather, lay up for yourself treasures for the new heaven and earth by living for Yeshua/Jesus and the gospel’s sake. You don’t have to kill yourself. You can have “a life” in Yeshua/Jesus (John 10:9-10). Some of you know I suffer in physical pain everyday from problems in my back, knees and wrists. Not a day has passed since 2004 that I don’t have aching constant toothache like pain. Facebook friends, I have never thought of killing myself. Suicide is not the best way to make the pain go away. Life is full of problems, emotions, miseries and frustrations. Life can be better friends, but the first step is to never give up on yourself! Trust me, time does heal ALL wounds. I know from experience. If you’re at the end of your rope, then get a longer rope. If you’ve received the straw that breaks the camel’s back, then get a stronger camel. Don’t quit! Don’t give up! You can make it! Suicide not an option. No one should ever even talk about something so foolish as killing one’s self. I hope these few words have encouraged someone today. I’m always willing to listen and pray for you.

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

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Mood Music… ♥ † ♥

According to Merriam-Webster,

Definition of marionette

: a small-scale usually wooden figure (as of a person) with jointed limbs that is moved from above by manipulation of the attached strings or wires.

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Have you ever felt controlled like a Marionette?

Perhaps you have been in an abusive relationship or had a rough upbringing as a child?

All of the emotions that follow abuse are so consuming… Soul consuming.

This is why it’s so important for us as Believers to renew our minds

Reading The Word of God regularly purges our hearts…

Hebrews 4:12 King James Version (KJV)

For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

So here’s the song… Marionette.

“Marionette”

I wanna cut me free, you wanna clip my wings
I’m made of flesh and bone, you wanna take control of me
You wanna dress me up, I wanna feel the sun
You wanna play pretend, I’m not about to bend, you’ll see
This is not a game
You want the strings so you can
Pull at my soul and tear me down
You want it all, I’m not your marionette doll
So let me go, oh
I’m taking back the day you tried to steal from me
I’m going to make my voice, you’ll never get my choice to breathe
This is not a game
You want the strings so you can
Pull in my soul and tear me down
You want it all, I’m not your marionette doll
So let me go, oh
Let me go, oh
So let me go, oh
Let me go, oh
I wanna cut me free but you wanna clip my wings
This is not a game
You want the strings so you can
Pull in my soul and tear me down
You want it all, I’m not your marionette doll
So let me go
You want the strings so you can
Pull in my soul and tear me down
You want it all, I’m not your marionette doll
So let me go
Songwriters: Dave Bassett / J. Culpepper / Jared Hartmann / K. Seals / Kristen May / Sameer Bhattacharya
Marionette lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

 

I’ve been listening to Flyleaf a lot lately.

I have really been relating to the lyrics like I’ve never related to lyrics before…

So, The Lord is leading me to share some songs that have been on my heart lately with the lyrics, by different artists.

Image result for flyleaf*Image via Google.

While we’re on the subject, check out Lacey Sturm‘s amazing testimony below for The Glory of God. I pray it really moves you, especially if you’ve ever dealt with suicide or the darkest of dark…

 

From the video description box:   Singer Lacey Sturm, who was once suicidal, shares how she found purpose in her life. Watch and share. If this story of hope has touched your heart visit: http://www.findingmyhope.org


This morning, this is the song I am feeling the most… Praise God.

Check out this song!

 

“Fade Away”

Hey, don’t wanna run no more
Hey, must find an open door
Hey, ask him to step inside
Hey, I’m tired of this life

I don’t wanna waste away
Like I saw myself fading yesterday
I don’t wanna feel the shame
I don’t wanna waste away
Like I saw myself fading yesterday
I don’t wanna feel the pain
I don’t wanna waste away

Hey, walk on but don’t come forth
Hey, find what I lost before
Hey, must change the shape I’m in
Hey, never go back again

[Chorus]

I’m coming to know
I’m coming to see you now (see you now)
I’m coming to go
I’m coming to see you now,
Believe you now

I don’t wanna waste away,
I don’t wanna waste away

[Chorus til end]

I recently wrote another post about this band. Check it out here.


 

More Mood Music…

Ephesians 6:13 King James Version (KJV)

Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

 

“Fire Fire”

Almost thought we made it home,
But we don’t know this place at all,
That’s enough now dry your tears
It’s been a long eleven years

Fire, fire, fire!
Fire from the tongues of liars,

You’re ashamed of where you’re from,
Crying ’cause your father’s drunk
We can’t die because we’re young
At least that’s what we heard in a song

Fire, fire, fire!
Fire from the tongues of liars,
Fire, fire, fire!
Fire from the tongues of liars

You’re ashamed of what you’ve done,
Crying ’cause your father’s wrong
Trying to be something new,
You’ll feel that you were something to prove

What you confuse for glory’s fire
Is fire from the tongues of liars.
What you confuse for glory’s fire
Is fire from the tongues of liars.
Oh send your rain

Fire, fire, fire!
Fire from the tongues of liars,
(oh send your rain)
Fire, fire, fire!
Fire from the tongues of liars
(oh send your rain)

Fire, fire, fire!
Fire from the tongues of liars,
(oh send your rain)
Fire, fire, fire!
Fire from the tongues of liars

You’re afraid of who you are (you’re ashamed of where you’re from)
Crying ’cause your father’s gone (fire from the tongues of liars)
Dreaming ’til you hit the truth (we can’t die because we’re young)
You’ll find that you’ve nothing to lose (fire from the tongues of liars)
You’ll find that you’ve nothing to prove.

 


The Lord will bless you by bringing you to a place or a point where you are just READY to STAND for His Namesake. You are just READY to fight BOLDLY for The TRUTH. Only GOD can bring us to this place where we, by HIS Strength, take a stand against the accusers, the tongues of liars. How do we do that? Simple. Speak forth The Truth in Love… ♥

Ephesians 4:11-15 King James Version (KJV)

11 And he gave some, apostles; and some, prophets; and some, evangelists; and some, pastors and teachers;

12 For the perfecting of the saints, for the work of the ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ:

13 Till we all come in the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, unto a perfect man, unto the measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ:

14 That we henceforth be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive;

15 But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ:

 

God has a calling on your life. Whoever you are. You are reading this blog post for a reason. He is speaking to you. Are you listening? Can you hear the voice of The Holy Spirit? Do you feel a tugging on your heart? Are tears welling up inside you in a way they have not before? The Presence of God makes us cry because of HIS Overwhelming LOVE. I praise HIM for that… Only God can help us to feel in a world where man easily becomes jaded… Just pray and ask Him to help you… I prayed this verse over myself and it is manifesting day by day. I am just blown AWAY at what GOD is doing in my own life everyday. I know HE CAN and WILL do it for you too! Check this out! ♥

Ezekiel 36:26-27 King James Version (KJV)

26 A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.

27 And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them.

Image result for heart with bandaid

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In the midst of raw emotions like angst and rage, are personal wars. On the Shoulders of The Son of God, I am on the Brink of Vindication.

I have The Favor of my Father. As a Born Again Believer, you can count on GOD having your back!  See Psalm 105 here. Read below…

Psalm 105 King James Version (KJV)

1 O give thanks unto the Lord; call upon his name: make known his deeds among the people.

Sing unto him, sing psalms unto him: talk ye of all his wondrous works.

Glory ye in his holy name: let the heart of them rejoice that seek the Lord.

Seek the Lord, and his strength: seek his face evermore.

Remember his marvellous works that he hath done; his wonders, and the judgments of his mouth;

O ye seed of Abraham his servant, ye children of Jacob his chosen.

He is the Lord our God: his judgments are in all the earth.

He hath remembered his covenant for ever, the word which he commanded to a thousand generations.

Which covenant he made with Abraham, and his oath unto Isaac;

10 And confirmed the same unto Jacob for a law, and to Israel for an everlasting covenant:

11 Saying, Unto thee will I give the land of Canaan, the lot of your inheritance:

12 When they were but a few men in number; yea, very few, and strangers in it.

13 When they went from one nation to another, from one kingdom to another people;

14 He suffered no man to do them wrong: yea, he reproved kings for their sakes;

15 Saying, Touch not mine anointed, and do my prophets no harm.

16 Moreover he called for a famine upon the land: he brake the whole staff of bread.

17 He sent a man before them, even Joseph, who was sold for a servant:

18 Whose feet they hurt with fetters: he was laid in iron:

19 Until the time that his word came: the word of the Lord tried him.

20 The king sent and loosed him; even the ruler of the people, and let him go free.

21 He made him lord of his house, and ruler of all his substance:

22 To bind his princes at his pleasure; and teach his senators wisdom.

23 Israel also came into Egypt; and Jacob sojourned in the land of Ham.

24 And he increased his people greatly; and made them stronger than their enemies.

25 He turned their heart to hate his people, to deal subtilly with his servants.

26 He sent Moses his servant; and Aaron whom he had chosen.

27 They shewed his signs among them, and wonders in the land of Ham.

28 He sent darkness, and made it dark; and they rebelled not against his word.

29 He turned their waters into blood, and slew their fish.

30 Their land brought forth frogs in abundance, in the chambers of their kings.

31 He spake, and there came divers sorts of flies, and lice in all their coasts.

32 He gave them hail for rain, and flaming fire in their land.

33 He smote their vines also and their fig trees; and brake the trees of their coasts.

34 He spake, and the locusts came, and caterpillers, and that without number,

35 And did eat up all the herbs in their land, and devoured the fruit of their ground.

36 He smote also all the firstborn in their land, the chief of all their strength.

37 He brought them forth also with silver and gold: and there was not one feeble person among their tribes.

38 Egypt was glad when they departed: for the fear of them fell upon them.

39 He spread a cloud for a covering; and fire to give light in the night.

40 The people asked, and he brought quails, and satisfied them with the bread of heaven.

41 He opened the rock, and the waters gushed out; they ran in the dry places like a river.

42 For he remembered his holy promise, and Abraham his servant.

43 And he brought forth his people with joy, and his chosen with gladness:

44 And gave them the lands of the heathen: and they inherited the labour of the people;

45 That they might observe his statutes, and keep his laws. Praise ye the Lord.

 

This AMAZING, Beautiful Psalm reminds me of another Favorite…

Romans 8:31

“What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?”

The above verse is a banner over my life. I am living proof of It’s TRUTH. Everyday.

Praise THE LORD all the earth!

It is in the darkest of hours and in the fiery furnaces of this life that we can literally see that GOD is ALL we need. GOD is The ONLY ONE Who can be there like THAT...and hold you like that… Praise His Holy Name!!!

Psalm 62:5-6 (KJV)

My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him.

He only is my rock and my salvation: he is my defence; I shall not be moved.


 

Many are the plans of a mans heart, ya know.

Here are some awesome lyrics about that (I just saw them on another amazing post by Mr. Jeffrey A. Hale, which I will be posting next, Glory to God!) ♥

*Image via YouTube

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We have our own ideas of how we want things to go. The LORD is so good to us! He wants to hear our hearts as we pray, but we must keep in mind, as I am learning…

God is God alone. God is Sovereign. He knows best. His Timing and Ways are The Best.

Proverbs 19:21 King James Version (KJV)

21 There are many devices in a man’s heart; nevertheless the counsel of the Lord, that shall stand.

 

The LORD sees The WHOLE picture. Past, present, and future.

So, do not be discouraged if your prayers aren’t answered EXACTLY the way you anticipate… His ways are so much higher! Be of good cheer!  🙂

You are loved by someone who died to know you! ♥

Thank You, Yeshua! ♥

 

 

Just one more…. As led by The Holy Spirit!

For The Glory of GOD! In The Name of The SON! †

“Call You Out”

How can you act like you know
When all you know is to lie?
Another truth to expose,
Freedom will capture their eyes.
We find this truth
We fight. You lose.

Your time’s up now.
That’s enough now.
Shut up, get out!
Truth called you out.

I know this language of yours
–
I used to speak it so well.
A fire meant to be pure
Is now the fire of Hell.
It is written
Long before you.

Your time’s up now.
That’s enough now.
Shut up, get out!
Truth called you out.

I hear your claims,
And I know your name;
I hear your claims,
And I know your name:

Liar.
Liar.

Your time’s up now.
That’s enough now.
Shut up, get out!
Truth called you out.

Your time’s up now.
That’s enough now.
Shut up, get out!
Truth called you out.

 

If this blog post blessed you, I feel led by The Spirit of God to ask that you would share the music on this page. The world needs Yeshua/Jesus like never before. The Antichrist system may be set up and the kingdom of darkness may be doing their thing, but THE CHURCH IS STILL HERE, so let’s shine! ♥ I feel like The LORD has really been speaking to me lately about SHINING.  †

Hearing The Gospel in different ways and different types of music can really make a difference. I pray you have a wonderful day in The LORD!

Jesus loves you! ♥

 


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My Favorite Song in The Whole World! “The Dark Hills” by Day of Fire

This is my most favorite song of all time EVER, in the whole world!

This is RAW EMOTION. The human soul crying out for his Creator like NEVER before! This is pain and pure anguish crying out for LIFE, which is Jesus Christ alone. Yeshua!

This song means everything to me and The LORD wants me to share it with you all tonight. It was shared with me by a very special person. This person is very dear to my heart. He knows Jesus. I never knew a man could be kind. Christ manifesting in someone is a Marvelous thing. The Spirit of God blows my mind. I have personally had bad experiences with men all my life. It starts with my testimony which I’ve yet to share. The Lord has revealed a lifetime worth of new information about everything. I never thought possible. To God be the Glory for all this!

Anyways, Father God wants you to receive this HOPE tonight!

Salvation in Jesus Christ ALONE is only one breath away. Cry out, friend. I pray these lyrics stir your soul with a longing like you never thought possible. A longing for LOVE. A longing and a yearning for Jesus Christ. Yeshua.

Praise THE LORD!!! 🙂

Day Of Fire Lyrics

“The Dark Hills”

[Verse 1:]
Sittin in the dark shakin in a cold wind dyin to get well keep trying but I’m broken
A kiss on my lips that use to thrill me, if I go another day it’s gonna kill me
Slipped into a dream woke up in a nightmare scars on my skin don’t know how they got there
How heavy was the crown of thorns? I wonder if I’m to far gone?

[Chorus:]
They say Jesus walked the dark hills He broke bread with beggars and thieves
If I cry out in this darkness, if I fall down on my knees
If He walks the dark hills, will He come for me? Will He come save me?

[Verse 2:]
Searching for the truth through stained glass windows covered up in shame things that only I know
Strike a match and light another candle, raise my hands a sing a pretty song.
If anybody knew this ugliness inside me would they throw a stone would the crucify me?
How Heavy was the crown of thorns? I wonder if I’m to far gone?

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
How Heavy was the crown of thorns? I wonder if I’m to far gone?

[Chorus 3:]
They say Jesus walks the dark hills He breaks bread with beggars and thieves
When I cry out in this darkness, When I fall down on my knees
When He walks the dark hills, I know He’ll come for me. I know He’ll come save me.

Personal Journey

“Still Haven’t Found What I’m Lookin’ For…”

Still Haven’t Found What You’re Looking For? C.S. Lewis, Bono and the Argument from Desire via crossexamined.org

by Ted Wright

For better or worse I was a child of the 80’s, and during that time a new rock band came on the scene that changed pop music, both in Britain, America and eventually the world. I immediately loved their sound as soon as I heard it. Their style was unique, and the lyrics had a real message. Their songs resonated much deeper than the typical pop tunes being played on the radio. That band was U2 from Dublin Ireland.

In May of 1987 the band released their 5th studio album titled “The Joshua Tree.” The second track on that album is a “gospel-esque” song that producer Danny Lanois encouraged Bono to write.[1] The song is “I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For.” The song has been acclaimed by many critics and publications as one of the greatest songs of all time.[2]

What makes this song so unique and timeless? Sure it’s Bono’s excellent vocals, Adam Clayton’s chilled-out bass, and the Edge’s astral guitar licks, but I believe that it is also something more, something much deeper. The song touches on a truth that is embedded in all people – a deep sense of longing and desire for something that this present world cannot fully satisfy. Here is the second refrain.
“I have kissed honey lips

Felt the healing in her finger tips

It burned like fire

(I was) burning inside her.
I have spoke with the tongue of angels

I have held the hand of a devil

It was warm in the night

I was cold as a stone.

But I still haven’t found

What I’m looking for.

But I still haven’t found

What I’m looking for.”
The song is written in the style of a gospel-lament which has it roots in the Psalms, the Lamentations of Jeremiah and later, African-American Spirituals. So, what is the singer lamenting?

He is lamenting that no matter what he tries or what he does, ultimate satisfaction isn’t found in this world. His satisfaction must come from somewhere else. He was made for something else, for somewhere else, or perhaps for someone else. He is a pilgrim and a sojourner on this earth, “just a passing through.”

In his book Mere Christianity, C.S. Lewis articulates an argument for the existence of God based on our dissatisfactions as well as our deepest desire, which sounds a lot like the lyrics of U2’s song. I would even argue that the core idea is the virtually the same.

Lewis’s argument goes like this:

…A baby feels hunger; well there is such a thing as food. A duckling wants to swim; well there is such a thing as water. Men feel sexual desire; well there is such a thing as sex. If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world[3]

Philosopher Peter Kreeft has done us a great service and re-formulated Lewis’s argument from desire into a syllogism that might be a little easier to follow.

Every natural innate desire corresponds to some real object that can satisfy that desire
But there exists in us a desire which nothing in time, nothing on earth and no creature can satisfy.
Therefore there must exist something more than time, earth, and creatures which can satisfy this desire.
This something is what people call “God” and “life with God forever.”[4]

Premise 1 – Every natural desire corresponds to some real object that can satisfy that desire

The key here is that every natural desire has a corresponding reality. The implication is that there is a distinction between two kinds of desires – natural desires and artificial desires. Everyone has natural desires, like the desire for water, food, sleep, friendship (companionship), etc…, but we also have desires for things that are artificial, or conditioned by society – like the desire to be famous, or the desire to possess superpowers (like one of the Avengers), or the desire to own a Ferrari.

However, with the artificial desires we don’t recognize a condition called “Ferrari-lessness” which corresponds to, say a natural desire like the desire for water (thirst), or for food (hunger).

Premise 2 – But there exists a desire in us which nothing in time, nothing on earth and no creature can satisfy.

This premise is existentially true, and either one senses it or not. It can’t be forced. It may be pointed out, however, that even though one might not sense a desire for God, it doesn’t mean that the desire is non-existent, just buried under the concerns, the worries and the busyness of life.

The Southern novelist Walker Percy commenting on “the search” in his classic novel The Moviegoer (1961) touches on this idea:

The search is what anyone would undertake if he were not sunk in the everydayness of his own life. To become aware of the possibility of the search is to be on to something. Not to be onto something is to be in despair.

Something is missing, so we despair. Indeed, as Thoreau writes, “…most men live lives of quiet desperation” (Civil Disobedience & other Essays), or like mythical, Greek Sisyphus, we “feel” the futility and the endless drudgery of work & life and deeply sense that there must be “something more.”

If God is the ultimate source of joy and fellowship, then nothing but Him and Him alone (& life with Him forever) will satisfy the heart of every person.

This truth has been articulated by many different voices throughout history.

“For He [God] has set eternity in the hearts of men…” – King Solomon (Ecclesiastes 3:11)

“Thou, O Lord hast made us for Thyself, and our hearts are restless until they find their rest in Thee” – St. Augustine (The Confessions)

“There is a God shaped vacuum in the heart of every man which cannot be filled by any created thing, but only by God, the Creator, made known through Jesus.” – Blaise Pascal (Pensees)

“Not to be onto something is to be in despair” – Walker Percy (The Moviegoer)

“I still haven’t found what I’m looking for” – U2 (Bono)

Peter Kreeft brilliantly summarizes premise 2 this way:

The second premise requires only honest introspection. If someone defies it and says, “I am perfectly happy playing with mud pies, sports cars, or money, or sex, or power,” we can only ask, “Are you really?” But we can only appeal, we cannot compel… Even the atheist Jean-Paul Sartre admitted that “there comes a time when one asks, even of Shakespeare, even of Beethoven, ‘Is that all there is?’”[5]

Premise 3 – Therefore there must exist something more than time, earth, and creatures which can satisfy this desire.

Premise 4 – This something is what people call “God” and “life with God forever.”

Admittedly, the conclusion of this argument is not an “air-tight” case for the God of the Bible, but it is certainly a stepping stone. When the argument from desire is placed alongside of other arguments for God’s existence, such as the cosmological argument, and the teleological argument, then I think it makes a pretty compelling case worthy of serious consideration.

Kreeft says, “What it proves is an unknown X, but an unknown whose direction, so to speak, is known. This X is more: more beauty, more desirability, more awesomeness, more joy.”[6]

Our lifelong nostalgia, our longing to be reunited with something in the universe from which we now feel cut off, to be on the inside of some door which we have always seen from the outside, is no mere neurotic fancy, but the truest index of our real situation. ~ C.S. Lewis (The Weight of Glory, pg. 42)

Truth, Goodness & Beauty

It may be that beauty, and our desire for infinite beauty and truth and goodness is where we feel the unfulfilled longing[7] the most, as Kreeft brilliantly explains:

There are three things that will never die: truth, goodness and beauty. These are three things that we all need, and need absolutely, and know we need absolutely. Our minds want not only some truth and some falsehood, but all truth, without limit. Our wills want not only some good and some evil, but all good, without limit. Our desires, imaginations, feelings or hearts just want not just some beauty and some ugliness, but all beauty without limit.

For these are three things that we will never get bored with, and never will, for all eternity, because they are three attributes of God, and therefore all God’s creation: three transcendental or absolutely universal principles of all reality. …Truth, goodness and beauty are ‘patches of Godlight’ here in the ‘Shadowlands.’ Their home is Yonder.[8]

Christianity teaches that the only way to truly KNOW God is through Jesus Christ who came to reveal Him for Who He truly is.

“Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent” (John 17:3)

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“Flawless”

There’s Living Water at the Fountain of Christ for all!

No discrimination. Everyone’s welcome.

Awesome and inspiring video, listen to the song below.

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You Can Overcome Anything!

This is sure to boost your mood, no matter what troubles in life you are facing…

God bless you, dear ones!

It’s gonna be a great day. You can be happy, even now. Listen to the words in this song!

 

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The 2 Great Things I Learned in 2014

This year I have learned 2 major lessons to life.

No matter who you are, where you are. This applies.

  1.  There is one Universal Answer to every question we have or will ever have. It is “God’s grace is enough.” (2 Corinthians 12:9) So all of the things that come up in my life, that confuse me, cause me pain, and I want them gone…God does not have to take them away because His power that rests on me is enough. God doesn’t have to move the mountain, He may simply give me the strength I need to climb my way to the top.

No one Else’s prayer is any better than yours. It doesn’t take a long line of intellectual dialogue to communicate with God. He is listening for words from your heart. Cry out and tell Him what hurts. Tell Him what you need. Tell Him how thankful you are for the very breath you breathe.

2. My life was dramatically, forever changed when I not only spoke to the Lord, but I started listening. Signs began showing up in my life. I received hints from Heaven.

You might ask, How does one listen to God?

Of course I agree with my brothers and sisters in Christ that we hear by the Word. The Truth of The Bible is how God speaks. It’s also…in being open for these great signs, blessings, and miracles. Let your faith be wide open, like the sky. When you are open to God you are able to understand, to hear Him…and receive all of these things.

Personal Journey

So, I Got A New Guitar.

I am not entirely a guitar virgin. I had a class in high school, and played my Fender Acoustic DG7. Don’t let that sentence mislead you, I really didn’t learn anything. Now that I am actually interested, I’m rocking something that is a lot more ‘cool,’ to me at least, lol. I got a new, black Fender Stratacoustic from a man off of Craigslist. Its awesome. I love the fact that I can have an amp now. I am definitely not a campfire guitar kind of girl. I was born to shine. 😛  How’s that for a dose of confidence? Nah, I am just overly excited, with big dreams like everybody else.

There are billions of guitar players in the world. So, what makes one special? What does it take to get to play at a county fair? How can you make it on a musician contest show? How can you even win the auditions to make it even bigger? I’m not even sure if I would be coordinated enough to play and sing at the same time LOL! This may sound a bit grandiose to many of you. Especially you guys that have followed me for a long time and know that I’m Bipolar and get a little excited now and then… 😛

My fingers hurt. I don’t remember this part. I’m just shocked at how enthused I am about this instrument and learning something new again. Using my brain for something other than social media or gaming! I’ve been collecting dust for 6 years. Now, here I am. I’m ready to give something a try. I am not ready for a career though. I have much experience for 29 years of age, a lot to say, and a lot to write about, so I am going to do just that.

I promised my husband that I wouldn’t take a photo of me WITH my guitar until I could actually do something decent, lol. This was all in fun, but I’m sticking to it.

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This one is more than a prop. I actually care about this. I have a strange, strong attraction to my new hobby. It feels like it could be more than that. I don’t mean The Voice or getting signed. I sure hope my future involves music. I am somewhat talented in that area. I was always too anxious to perform. Maybe that’s why I am not the best singer. I hope that’s it. I hope that I just need practice, and that the fact that I hid my voice for so long is why it isn’t the greatest it could be…

So I guess I’m just going to focus on the intro to Nothing Else Matters by Metallica for now. I am learning at a better pace than I anticipated. Metallica is one of my husband’s favorite bands of all time-if not favorite. I admire them as well. I want us to have more things to share. He can sing. Me..I am not sure. I know I can sing as in keep a tune or melody going well. I’m not a diva though. No Celine, Mariah, or Reba. I suppose I just have my own thing going. I don’t know.

Since I was little I have been in love with music. From playing the blues, goofing around on kiddy my harmonica at age 3, to singing in the talent show sophomore year in high school while drum major of the marching band…I want my song to carry on. As I say all the time, I am not over. Having a teenage sister as a child was a plus because I got into music a lot more. I think my sister had a lot to do with it. Its always been there.

I feel something coming on. There’s more to life. What God has planned for me is more than I can see

So, I think I am going to get back to practicing. This was my break. It didn’t help my fingers any though, lol.

God bless, guys!

 

Amanda

Personal Journey

Wake Me Up Inside!

Wake Me Up Inside!

“How can you see into my eyes, like open doors? Leading you down into my core where I’ve become so numb…”

-Bring Me To LIfe, by Evanescence

I’m really feeling this song this morning, so I made this image.
I’ve made many mistakes lately and feel dead to the world.
I’m not my typical self, and its gonna take some time to heal.
All of this, I brought upon myself.
And I should not be surprised, for my weaknesses are forever the same weaknesses.
Does the life I so desire exist?
Can I be “fixed”?
I am so broken inside, and its affecting the outside me. Smiles fading, and I’m hanging on with a slipping hand.