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Daily Devotional with Mr. Jeffrey A. Hale ♥

🎶If I had a ruby for every drop of blood you shed
And if I had an emerald for every single debt
Had a piece of silver for every sin you took
And if I had a diamond for every beautiful truth in your book I’d be the richest…the richest man in the world🎶

So you want to be the RICHEST ONE?….After listening to this great tune by The Rez band, we should not be envious of the prosperity of the ungodly, their day is fast approaching. Riches and wickedness seem to go together in this world. Riches simply let you go further down the road you were already on. This reminds me of a story I once read a few years back. Chief Tamihana, of New Zealand’s Maori tribe, was known for his faith and his deep love for YeHoVaH/God’s Word. In 1850, he visited England and was presented to Queen Victoria. He was then taken to a luxurious mansion. Surprisingly, the chief didn’t seem to be amazed or overwhelmed. So his guide began pointing out how beautiful the mansion was. Tamihana listened without saying a word. Then finally he said, “Ah, my Father’s house is better than this.” The Englishman, who knew that his father’s house was a poor mud hut, was confused. But Chief Tamihana began to rave about the house of his Father in heaven. He had no envy when he walked through this English mansion because he knew who his Father was. A child of the King doesn’t have to be envious. When you know who you are, whether you’re in a mud hut or whether you’re in a mansion, you don’t envy. How could you? You’re a child of the King. You truly are the “Richest One.” So rejoice in your Father and that you’re His child. And with your eyes on Him, your mud hut will become as the greatest mansion. Amen?

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Personal Journey

No Matter Who You Are!

The depth of God’s Love and Mercy is too much to keep to myself. My heart is overwhelmed at how The Creator and God of all could forgive me, even me..how He pursues me!!! When we are faithless He abides faithful because He cannot deny Himself! How can it be! Praise God it is so! The Creator of This Universe and all LOVES YOU!!! The one reading this! He wants a relationship with you which can and will come only through His Son, The Lord Jesus Christ. The Sacred Blood that was shed 2,000 years ago still atones today. Come ye, all who thirst! There’s room at His table, no matter who you are or what the world considers you to be.You are loved in such a way you can never imagine. I love you too. Be blessed in Jesus Name.

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Human-beings. Things that Shimmer.

Flesh melts like wax.

Cars bend and fall apart.

Houses need new roofs, plumbing…repairs.

Careers are solid until/if your health declines.

Money is hard for most to come by, yet so quickly it goes.

The things of this world will never truly make anyone happy.

We can’t ever completely catch up. The madness is endless.

We see the richest of rich having affairs, plastic surgery, sex changes, and all sorts of things because even having it ALL on earth is not enough (Just being very wealthy doesn’t mean that you are doing these). There’s always going to be a longing for something more, no matter what your place in society concerning money and all else.

It’s amazing how the majority of what’s on television today is reality t.v. & It’s also amazing what passes the approval to become a reality show. People seem to eat it up. Human beings are very much caught up in the things of this life while missing the point. What happened to classic sitcoms-fictional characters facing everyday life stuff? The world is all grown up now, and far less censored than when I was a kid.

How much further can we take it?

The person most dedicated to his or her faith is not immune. It is very easy to become distracted by the things that shimmer, the things the flood our homepages and Facebook News-feeds.

Human beings are silly little creatures. I mean, we really can be. It is so mortal, so fleshy of us, and so carnal to become envious, and eat jealousy. To hate people for things they’ve done to us, when the truth is, we are just as capable of doing the same stuff to them, whether we believe so or not. Forgiveness.

Nobody is better than anybody else in this world. I don’t see reason for one mortal to be great and another small. It doesn’t matter what your life looks like to someone else, its what it feels like to you.

What are you living for?

You may be in a place of peace, happiness, any of all sorts of points across the spectrum. Perhaps the opposite end, severely depressed, and even suicidal.

This is another thing about us human beings. We experience sadness or darkness, and deal with our circumstances in our own ways, but the thing is, there’s more than just what we think or believe. I suppose when you are asked what you are living for, the question of why are you here may arise. It’s because these 2 things are tied together.

You were given life because you are supposed to be here. It may not make sense. Ever. But it is truth. Your life matters. Wherever you are, and whatever you believe or consider to be that makes up your very identity.

There’s so much more to think about than what we have here. Look at the headlines of the news, via paper or online. Anybody at least 20 years old can tell things have really taken a dramatic turn around in the last…years. Point is, we mustn’t take anything for granted, nor get too comfy here in this crazy world that is growing crazier day by day.

Do you know Jesus?

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There’s more than this. The Fountain of Living Water is outpouring, free of charge to all who ask.

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.99 Cents in My Bank Account

It is both the choices and changes in my life that have led me to where I am now. If things had gone smoothly as planned ten years ago, I would be heading to a mental health facility or office in the morning to counsel and help support individuals dealing with mental illness, perhaps in crisis. Instead tomorrow I’m  headed out with my husband to take my mother to the best hospital in the city where we currently live. Tomorrow afternoon we will find out the results of the biopsy she had done around a week ago when a blood vessel was cut to see into what was going on with this new blindness in the left eye. Tonight my mom and I are anxious, but feeling a little better knowing that God is in control and He has great plans for ALL of us! See Jeremiah 29:11. So, I know it’s going to be okay.

Now that family has become an even bigger priority and responsibility in my life, I know that now is not the time for me to make a career or education move. I’m right where God needs me to be. I’m living out my calling-and this calling may change and twist and turn throughout my life as things change and to everything a season, but I am trusting in God. 

Whether I have 99 cents in my bank, 99 dollars in my wallet, or a 99% on the MCAT for getting into medical school, it’s all the same. I am who I am. I am where I need to be. I’m going to take my kind of 99 and make the most of it 🙂

Personal Journey

God, I Am Listening…hello?

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I’ve faltered again and again lately with my addiction to Caffeine. This addiction is not physical, but my allergy to this stimulant is, as well as more importantly being psychological. I am mentally allergic to the stimulant that you find in things like soda, chocolate, and coffee. Normal people consume things such as these everyday in our world. However, when I do it, its very much a sin. I know for a fact of this allergy and the effect that Caffeine has on my thoughts, moods, behaviors, and it all. Yet, I’ve gone and done it again. Why? Why would I pick something up that I knew would hinder me from God’s best, and bring pain and difficulty into my life as a result? I suppose my response might kind of be like that of a drug addict or Alcoholic or anybody in similar shoes. Caffeine is a bad coping strategy for me. As a result of emotions that seem too big for me to handle, I drink down my sorrows, or gobble them down in chocolatey chunks of ice cream…all for a few moments of escape, and to be numb.

Most of my posts are not dark like this one.

I am dealing with a major issue in my life right now. This problem is something that deals with my daily life, and overall well being. Its a key thing. Many of you may already know what it is, depending on how long you’ve been following this blog.

Anyways, I’ve been praying about the matter, but I’m too distracted and messed up because of that drug to make the best decision. Same ole song and dance. I just cannot live in limbo, and anger, so much of the time. Maybe its just all in my head? I have therapy in a few days. I will be making notes for her and stuff this weekend.

I did something big today. I sold my diamond, solitaire-18 kt white gold ring. I’ve been wearing it for 4 years as an engagement ring in front of my white gold wedding band. It was not from my husband. I bought it. I just grew sick of it. So, I headed down to a local pawn shop and got ‘er done. I pocketed 300 dollars. Gold is worth more than gems these days…

What to do with the money? So much could be done.

Tonight, as I had no plans of doing whatsoever, my husband and I wound up going out and spending much of it on improving our house-decorative things, functional things and some groceries. He’s working on a shelf right now.

I am so tired of the wait. I need to hear from God now. I cannot handle this. Sometimes things get to be almost too much, and I haven’t the slightest clue whether directions right or left will bring my soul peace. I am so puzzled. Both sides to my situation make so much sense and different times. I do not see a way out of this limbo. Ever. As long as I live. It will take a huge miracle of some sort. Maybe my faith is very poor? It was strong for so long. I don’t know what is going on…

I think I am clinically depressed again. I’m dealing with this stuff again:

  • A significant increase in appetite and a weight gain & weight loss yo-yo.
  • Feelings of hopelessness.
  • Insomnia or hypersomnia
  • Loss of energy or fatigue
  • Feelings of worthlessness
  • Complaints or evidence of an inability to focus or concentrate
I just need to cut the Caffeine out completely, beginning now. I will be sleeping a lot the next 2-3 days. I must try and get back on track with my healthy eating and exercise, and just trying harder to better myself all around, and draw as close as I can to God. He is the Highest Physician.
 
My mood is somber. Listening to Sarah McLachlan’s “Angel” I’m preparing for bed.
God bless everyone tonight.
 
Amanda