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15 Quotes to lift your spirits when depressed. I love this website overall period! 🙂
My favorite one on the list:
“What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.” — Richard Bach
Have a great day, friends! God bless you always!
WARNING!!! IF YOU ARE BIPOLAR AND ARE TAKING STIMULATING MEDS, AVOID CAFFEINE ALL TOGETHER UNLESS YOU CAN PROVE OTHERWISE. (sorry for the caps, I just used them to intensify the effect 😛 )
<—– Does this look familiar or appealing to you, friend? It does to me.. I consumed 4 of the 13.7 ounce Fraps in 12 hour sand now I cannot sleep…No, I am not Anti-Starbucks, this just happens to be one of my most favorite beverages.
I can’t sleep at ALL. Its 2 a.m. and my husband is in bed, but I am too restless to drift off. Plus, i had a nap from 7-10 p.m. a few hours back. The fact that I had nearly 450mg of Caffeine yesterday is not helping any. What am I going to do with this insomnia? Probably finish the laundry. Problem is, 90% of the house is already clean from my being so highly Caffeinated yesterday, so that leaves me with little to do. I’m not very inspired tonight to write, and that’s primarily because of the way the Caffeine warps my mind for like a day or two after dramatic consumption. It may seem strange to you, you know, how Caffeine affects me, my mentality and behavior with my Bipolar Disorder. It baffled me for the longest time. I’ve learned to accept it, but up until now I hadn’t learned to stay away from it-which I really regret now. All of the time lost to anger, frustration and pure discontent, which all result from drinking or eating stuff with the drug in it, cannot be brought back. I must just learn from these experiences and move on with my life, never to consume the drug anymore as it is a guaranteed way to destroy everything in my world.
Like doctors and many patients or people dealing with Bipolar Disorder, I am very aware that consuming too much Caffeine can keep you awake at night, or even all night. One of the factors that can lead to a manic episode is the lack of a good night’s sleep. Also, an actual symptom of hypo-mania or mania, is the lack of the need for sleep, having endless energy, kind of like the Energizer Bunny.-you keep going and going and…Well, I realize now that I have very recently had an extreme hypo-manic episode. I would call what I have experienced for the last few days an actual manic episode, but I was actually in control of my mind and actions, as I chose not to harm myself and stay away from Alcohol. Tonight…I’m wide awake. I don’t feel the need for sleep. I am not manic, I just still have a crap-load of the Caffeine drug inside of me. In fact, the affect this drug has on my body is so intense that It even affects me hours and hours later after being taken in. Why???
Physicians have long been aware that bipolar patients are adversely affected by caffeine. Caffeine-created insomnia can help trigger or escalate a mania or hypomania, and can make bipolar patients more anxious and panicky.
A 2009 Italian study by C. Baethge and several colleagues, “Coffee and cigarette use: association with suicidal acts in 352 Sardinian bipolar disorder patients,” examined the effects of smoking and coffee drinking on bipolar patients and uncovered an even more disturbing effect of caffeine. Bipolar patients who drank coffee were 2.42 times more likely to attempt suicide than patients who did not drink coffee. Bipolar patients who smoked were 1.79 times more likely to attempt suicide than nonsmokers.
The Italian study is the first report suggesting that caffeine can cause bipolar patients to attempt suicide. The co-authors of the study warn that even legal substances that affect peoples’ moods and energy levels may have harmful effects on bipolar patients. Bipolar patients should avoid caffeine consumption and should give up smoking.” –Whether you agree with any of this is up to you, I am not so sure about the smoking part. I mean I know its bad for your lungs though.
***This came from an article from Livestrong.com, and the URL to visit the entire article is:
I also found this in my research: http://bipolarhappens.com/bhblog/bipolar-disorder-anxiety-and-coffee/ -If you check this link out you will read that the author states that Caffeine exacerbates the effects of many Bipolar medications-especially those that are ‘activating’ like Abilify and anti-depressants like Prozac, Effexor, and Zoloft. If you are like me and do not know what the word “exacerbate” means, I looked it up and found it to be this; The definition of exacerbate: To increase the severity, violence, or bitterness of; aggravate: (In a sentence) a speech that exacerbated racial tensions; a heavy rainfall that exacerbated the flood problems.. So, that means that for a person with Bipolar disorder, consuming this drug while being on an anti-depressant or drug like Abilify, the effects are amplified, making the patient at high risk for a manic relapse. This is my understanding using that definition, if I am wrong or if it is out of context please correct me, because this is a very important issue, and I really want to educate my fellow peers with this disease about the effects of Caffeine usage on them, being medicated for Bipolar disorder. Even my own psychiatrist has never told me this. I think I need to educate him, and he’s even a neurologist as well…gosh.
I am sure there is tons of other literature/facts online to back me, and I am sure there are even ones to contradict what I have said as well, as this is a big world, very diverse, with all kinds of people, experiences, and situations. Basically, I just want you to please reconsider your Caffeine intake, like ANY of it if you have Bipolar disorder and are taking stimulating medications as mentioned. I am not a medical doc, psychiatrist, or any professional with a substantial background in mental health. I am just like you, a patient, relying on the care and input of my medical team to keep me stable. Please look into this yourself, friends. I only wrote this out of love. God bless everyone…
Love you guys…
I was the first one out the door at my high school graduation. For real!!! Too bad there wasn’t a reward for that! ha ha…I took no photos, period. I went straight to the car, and sat in the hot car with leather seats that really sucked because it was in June. I have no clue how I made it through high school.
Then, there was a little college….
However, a little after the beginning of the second semester at my local University, I slowly fell apart…I had to withdraw…
I died at 18. Not physically…something happened though. I experienced my first mania…I lost my grasp on reality…and I began to slowly slip away into the darkness. Maybe you’ve been there before…very, very bright lights, laughing faces, flashing colors, fast cars/90mph in a 55, a high that no drug could ever give anyone-and that’s whether you’ve ever used or not…You know, I could feel my blood pressure drop and I could not get enough sleep at one time a couple days prior to the mania…its almost as if my body was preparing itself for all of that.Then BAM! It hits. The agitation, the upset, the anger, the rage, the acting out and lashing out at those who matter most…and myself…Oh at the frustration when you wind up on a med or two that causes you to really gain weight. What if you already have an eating disorder like I did? Being a Bulimic put on Depakote was a total nightmare…for me. Its all so blurry now, and in some ways I am glad……
This Spring is the ten year anniversary of my first mania and the diagnosis of Bipolar disorder for me. March 2004 it went down.
This has been a decade of learning-the hardest way I know how. So much has happened…all the way from me losing my mind to my dad losing his legs to losing a few of our own family members…its gone though. I am ready to move on. Nobody likes to look back at their days in the psych. ward when they felt emotionally abused by others while sick and confused…and it was just bad…nobody likes taking meds, especially if they are liquid and taste bad. Nobody likes having a ‘weird’ roommate when you are so insecure and coming back from your short lived vacation on Manic Cloud 9, hating on yourself, or just numb. Nobody likes 5am blood draws while you are still in bed, being rudely awakened at 7am…going to breakfast at 8 am in line, group therapy 4 times a day, being hated on for hogging the pay phone and carrying around a sack of quarters because you are homesick…none of that feels good. And every day when its your turn to see the doc, without fail, you always ask when you going to be discharged first before anything else is discussed…And the population—you are in there with all walks of life…so watch out
I may end up writing a book…but you know, in the end, when I drive by that place now, I no longer tremble in a slight PTSD manner. Now, I look to the sky and thank God that the place that I was so afraid of and hated so much turned out to be the very place that stopped the madness and ended the chaos that fell upon my life and our family. That hospital saved my life. I am thankful for it and the fact that it is continuing to save lives…and that I have been blessed to have been working with the same pdoc for a decade now. I hope he never retires! hehe. God bless all of our caretakers and medical teams…
I am truly blessed to be here tonight typing this blog out at 3:30 in the morning. I am in violation. I need to go to bed! Maybe I will develop something later on using this, cuz I just can’t finish it right now. I just had to get something down though 😉
Love you guys -night!