Christianity, Personal Journey

PRAISE Report for The Glory of God!!! ♥ †

Good morning, WordPress readers and the whole world!
Glory to God! I have a praise report to share with all of you!
That’s why we are here! To LOVE Him, to KNOW Him and bring Him GLORY!
 
I am blown away at the Nature and Character of my Creator…and how I encounter Him every day!
I praise HIM for supernatural healing and our relationship.
I never thought I would ever experience GOD like this!
I truly taste the Mercy and Grace of God every day and in this season of healing especially.
I have never been so ALIVE!
 
John 10:10 King James Version (KJV)
 
10 “The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.”
 
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There’s this lyric that someone special shared with me, it goes like “Because of You, I desire reality.”
Well…these days, my reality is like a fantasy… I feel like I am dreaming all of the time. I am soooo happy.
Praise THE LORD!
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The Lord is truly nigh to the broken-hearted and saves those that are crushed in spirit. I love feeling His Fire all over me. He embraces me so tenderly!
The LORD sets us FREE!
Psalm 34:18-20 Amplified Bible (AMP)
 
18 “The Lord is near to the heartbroken
And He saves those who are crushed in spirit (contrite in heart, truly sorry for their sin).
19 Many hardships and perplexing circumstances confront the righteous,
But the Lord rescues him from them all.
20 He keeps all his bones;
Not one of them is broken.”
 
2 Corinthians 3:17 Amplified Bible (AMP)
17 “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty [emancipation from bondage, true freedom].”
 
 
 
2018 has been, is currently, and will continue to be the greatest year (so far) f change for me in my life. It was prophesied to me over Facebook through an obedient servant of The Lord! Like night and day, brunette vs. blonde, The Lord, my God has transformed EVERYTHING in me and my life. It’s an ongoing process, just saying that He’s on the move and not leaving any stones unturned.
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Yesterday I came to my Papa in tears and bore my soul before Him. He watched me hurting.
Psalm 30:11-12 Amplified Bible (AMP)
 
11 “You have turned my mourning into dancing for me;
You have taken off my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,
12 That my soul may sing praise to You and not be silent.
O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever.”
 
 
The timing of the answered prayer is the kicker for me.
A prayer was answered yesterday that I have waited on for a while. On the SAME DAY….
He loves to show off in all of HIS Majesty!!!
He TRULY is MERCIFUL. He KNOWS!
Yeshua understands all about our broken hearts and souls… He caught all of my tears. He cherishes all of our tears! He is my BEST Friend and I love Him soooo much!
 
 
Psalm 56:8 Amplified Bible (AMP)
 
8 “You have taken account of my wanderings;
Put my tears in Your bottle.
Are they not recorded in Your book?
Not one of them is broken.”
 
 
It’s all because HE IS SOOOO GOOD! God loves ALL of His Children! He LOVES the whole world! HE TRULY fights for us! He will never leave us nor forsake us! My life is a testimony of this verse as well. How GREAT is our GOD!!!
Thanks to all of my friends/family that have been praying for me. You guys are amazing! Praise The LORD for all of you!
 
I am FREE INDEED!!! So are you!!!
 
John 8:36 King James Version (KJV)
 
36 “If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.”
 
 
 
“Free Indeed” by JJ Heller with lyrics
 
[Verse 1]
On the days, when I’m stuck​ in the mud
When I don’t, feel worthy of love
With the weight, of the world on my back
I’m never alone, remind me of that
 
[Chorus 1]
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I’m coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
 
[Verse 2]
I work hard, but the harder I try
I only fall, farther behind
I’m done with the game, I’ve kicked of my shoes
With you by my side, how can I lose?
 
[Chorus 1]
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I’m coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
 
[Bridge]
If You have set me free
Then I am free indeed
If You have set me free
Then I am free indeed
 
[Chorus 2]
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I’m coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I’m coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
 
[Outro]
I am free indeed…
 
 
 
Christianity, Music, Personal Journey

Slip Sliding Away. Daily Devotional with Mr. Jeffrey A. Hale ♥

🎶Whoah God only knows, God makes his plan
The information’s unavailable to the mortal man
We’re workin’ our jobs, collect our pay
Believe we’re gliding down the highway,
when in fact we’re slip sliding away🎶

“Slip Sliding Away” was originally written in 1975 and was considered to be on the Paul Simon Album of that years “Still Crazy After All These Years” it was decided not to release the song that year. The song was eventually released in 1977 and appeared on the album “Greatest Hits Etc…” It was also released as a single in October 1977 and instantly became a hit. The song has a number of possible meanings. One possible meaning is that the song is about how we reflect on life passing us by, and the regrets we have in that life for the choices we’ve made. First verse: a man’s overpowering love for the (wrong?) woman causes him to “lose” his identity. Second verse: a woman who “became a wife,” whose “good days” aren’t so good, and who’s “bad days” are spent wondering how much life has to offer, and how she made the wrong choice in a husband. Third verse: a father who abandoned his son and traveled far to tell him why, to explain, only to leave, knowing he couldn’t ever make his son understand why his dad left him. Last verse: we think we’ve got it all figured out, but ONLY in the moment. When we look back, we’ll wonder why we didn’t do things differently. The song has many meanings and is written in that way, to prompt reflection on life. Paul Simon is a expert lyricist and know how to weave a good song. The song indeed is about life passing us by and the regrets we have for the choices we make. The feeling that kind of reflection engenders is that of life sliding away from beneath us and we are powerless to do anything about it. Facebook friends, once you have experienced His love I’m not sure how you can feel content living outside that love once more. We must be on our guard daily as apathy and the world’s values have a creeping effect and before long we have slidden. If you recognize this morning that this is where you are at, ask YeHoVaH/God like David did in his sliding away “Restore to me the Joy of My Salvation”. May you know today a living relationship with Yeshua/Jesus that sustains you and may you resolve to not slip away. Amen

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Personal Journey

Multiple Personalities After Midnight…

Jesus has put so very many things on my heart, speaking to my spirit tonight, just what I’d call “Holy Spirit downloads” if you will.  I praise Him that I am more able to process them and handle more information now that Jesus got me off of the Lithium *led by professional medical supervision* for my good. There was a time in my life when God used Lithium to stabilize me before I was Holy Spirit filled because I was highly demonized and out of control, trying to jump out of moving cars, uprooting a yard full of newly planted flowers, cutting myself, writing Satanic things on the walls and doors of our home, etc… I admit I am still ashamed and not proud of what I have done in my body, but it’s not my body so much that He’s interested in. This flesh will surely pass away. It’s our spirit that lives on forever, whether sealed by The Holy Spirit of God or not. Heaven or Hell. It’s a choice we all make.

Godly sorrow overtook me tonight with a very heavy heart in my chest. My Lord revealed so many things to me. It’s not to condemn me or make me feel guilty but to convict me, build my character and conform me to the image of His Son.

Romans 8:29 (KJV)

For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.


The God of Abraham, Issac, and Jacob has truly brought me into a new chapter of the live He’s given me. We are entering into one of the most supernatural times in history. It is now common for me to see things happen in my home that are not of the reality I’ve known these past 32 years, but I see it’s real. Experiencing things changes everything ya know? That is when we are blessed with lessons we don’t have to write down but change our lives and thinking for life. For example, I believed deliverance ministry was not of God when I first heard of it. I grew up in a very religious church and it being all new to me and deviating from the norm was beyond difficult to digest. Have you ever noticed how we like to put things in a box? That’s happened to me lately. I am guilty of casting aside things, people and situations that do not fit inside what I consider my box to be. However, there’s more. Just like how the deliverance ministry God blessed to be a part of for months doesn’t teach inner healing along side it. I know it is the work of the Holy Spirit alone and we as Christians can be called into that sort of ministry as simple vessels for The Lord, but they just don’t deal with or acknowledge it. I was the only one vocal about such a thing that I am dealing with in my heart and broken soul and the wicked way it all came about for me. It’s not all demons. There are parts of us that need healing. Jesus came to set the captives free and bind up their wounds. I think that means my heart needs healing. He restoreth my soul in Psalms 23. The soul or heart of man (mind, will and emotions) can be fractured and broken into many pieces (this is where what the world calls multiple personality disorder comes in–and by the way, mental illness is demonic).

Check out Isaiah 61:1. That’s our King! He came for so much more than the most Precious Gift of Salvation which is most important for eternal life of course. Many churches aren’t teaching this so tons of hurting people have no idea what was made available for them to take care of these things. I praise God for leading me into all Truth by His Spirit.

Broken parts aren’t a license to sin, just like grace shouldn’t be either/taken for granted or advantage of. Education on the matter is power. God said His People perish for lack of knowledge and they really are…and will if we don’t do something as led by The Holy Spirit. It was God Almighty Who even put it in my heart to ask Him over a year ago if there was a spiritual connection to the Bipolar Disorder I’d been struggling with for over a decade. Sure enough…there is. It’s taken time, heartache, and painful lessons from The Lord to come to the revelations He shares. Praise Him for it though! God uses the result of our sins, the chastening of those He loves which are His Children (see Hebrews 12:6-7) to correct us and mold our character to become like Jesus! Therefore, no pain and suffering is wasted if you are a Believer and Child of God through Jesus alone. Check out Romans 8.

Man, I could go on and on. So many blessings of convictions, knowledge, wisdom and guidance in the prayer closet tonight. I wasn’t in there long, but He met me where I was in all my restlessness and despite my hard time being still, He worked with me and had mercy in that hour. Tonight’s lesson was about intercession, bearing the burdens of others and making their needs and wants my own etc… The commandments of Jesus!!!

Matthew 22:36-40 (KJV)

36 Master, which is the great commandment in the law?

37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.

38 This is the first and great commandment.

39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.

 

I praise His Holy Name that The Lord Jesus opened my eyes to the fact that my broken soul wasn’t fully committed to Him and following His ways, not loving others as myself also. This is not a stumbling block, just something to ponder. We are all at different places in individual callings from The Almighty. If we seek Him, He will surely answer so be encouraged tonight 🙂

I love you guys and want you to feel better and be encouraged. Some days some of us are barely hanging on and the rest of us help carry that load, then the next day or not long after, we’re doing the same for them. It’s The Kingdom of God. We are Family. No matter where you are, if you have absolutely no friends or family at all, ask The Lord and He will lead you to like minded Believers! Christians are Family worldwide! Praise Jesus for all the Benefits of Almighty God! Psalm 103 is amazing too ♥

Sweet dreams, precious ones. You matter and your suffering is not in vain.

Should you not know this Precious Jesus that we speak of as The Son of God and the only way to Heaven in eternal life, He is waiting with open arms to hear you out and accept you as you are but not leave you there in the dark. Fall apart in the presence of God. He’s not there to put you down, but lift you up out of your mess. He meets us in the darkest of places and carries us into His marvelous Light! Praise His Holy Name!

Night for now 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

Personal Journey

Demons & More Demons

Leviathan, Arrested Development, Double-Mindedness, Vashti, Jezebel, all the Spirit Husbands, and my rock hardened heart… Must be like billions of demons eh? They don’t operate alone. It is my understanding that they operate in groups. I’m not an expert yet, but you think I would be by now! I have no idea how the networking of demons is orchestrated inside of me. Sometimes I get mad because I see other Christians walking through life just fine…they have demons too. It’s just their demons aren’t exposed. Once you ruffle their feathers, the whole bunch acts up. My demons were uncovered this year as a result of sin. Oh what a learning experience…

It’s amazing how sin really hardens our hearts. Not only sin, but the defense mechanisms we put up when the warning lights come on that something potentially hurtful lurks ahead. Like this summer for me. My 92 year old Grandma moved hundreds of miles away and I knew I wouldn’t see her as much… The walls went up. I felt nothing. Two days before her flight I actually felt like I was in another zone in my body. Weird.

Trauma. How much trauma have you experienced in your life? For me, it began with my birth as my Mother had a Cesarean. Then the house fire at age 2 where I watched everything we had burn to the ground in the family van. The frightening nightmares that I had as a result of watching the movie Child’s Play with my teenage sister were rough… I mean, Kid Sister was tossed out in no time. I tried to give my dolls away because I just knew they were plotting against me, or just plain wicked. What a mind warping experience. Major spirits of fear and phobias.

I also experienced a lot of rejection by the opposite sex in dating/having relationships. I would fall for the wrong guy (at the time I didn’t know it was a spiritual set up against me by the enemy). At the end of junior high I pushed myself to lose so much weight. I did that and I was still not accepted the way I desired. It didn’t matter how beautiful I was, or how talented…there was an assignment against me in the spirit realm. You see, everyone hears that God has a plan for their life. I’m here to tell you that the devil has a plan for your life too. Ask God to open your eyes and reveal things to you. Only God knows the future but Satan can sniff out or sort of catch a glimpse of the blessings God has for us around the corner. This enrages him. Satan and the kingdom of darkness hate human beings because we are all created in the image of God-whether we are living for Him or not. Lately I’m beginning to see how my heart has been hardened over the years. Many experiences brought different types of pain, and with the pain emotional wounds. Only The Holy Spirit can heal your deep wounds, the ones in your very soul. It’s called Inner Healing. Google it. He’s beginning a new work in me right now, healing me up, taking down the walls ever so gently.

Being able to cry is a blessing, don’t take it for granted. One thing you can do if you’re struggling with feeling numb and the hard heart, as a Born-Again Believer you can just ask The Holy Spirit to break your heart and He will help you feel again, give you the ability to cry.  The Holy Spirit bringing you to tears is freedom, Hallelujah!

No matter how many demons, It’s gonna be okay.

Falling apart is okay cuz God puts us together in new ways xoxo

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Faith, God, lifestyle, reading

It’s Good to Seek Wisdom

Liz Curtis Higgs By LIZ CURTIS HIGGS

“When the queen of Sheba heard about the fame of Solomon and his relationship to the LORD, she came to test Solomon with hard questions.” 1 Kings 10:1 (NIV)

Lysa TerKeurst

Anytime my mother wanted to put me in my place — let’s say I was flouncing around the kitchen in some dime-store costume, wearing borrowed makeup and putting on airs — she shot me a stern look, one eyebrow arched: “Who do you think you are? The queen of Sheba?”

If she meant to scold me, it didn’t work. Sorry, Mom. Being the queen of Sheba sounded positively delicious. To my way of thinking, she was Delilah, Nefertiti and Cleopatra all rolled into one — an exotic beauty from a foreign land with wealth, power and appeal beyond anything a small-town girl could fathom.

Is that how you’ve imagined her too? Then it’s time to meet the real queen of Sheba and leave the Hollywood version behind.

A leader of uncommon boldness and vision, this real-life queen traveled from the ends of the earth to seek wisdom, drawn to King Solomon’s doorstep because of his bond with the One true God, who was wisdom Himself.

This remarkable woman journeyed for two months across an unforgiving desert — on a camel. All we have to do is cross the room, reach for our Bibles and God’s wisdom is ours for the taking.

Maybe that’s the problem. His Word is so convenient, it’s conveniently forgotten. I’ll read it later. I’ll start tomorrow.

Or we wait until we’re desperate for answers, then don’t know where to find them. We aimlessly flip from one chapter of the Bible to another, looking for a verse that will magically solve everything.

The queen of Sheba took a different route. As we see in our key verse, she put her royal life on hold and made seeking wisdom her number-one priority. Here’s what she teaches us about wisdom by her good example:

1. Wisdom requires time.
We say, “Time is money,” but the truth is, time is worth more than money. It can’t be bought, sold or bargained with. Each minute ticks by, never to be seen again. If we can spend 10 minutes each morning bathing in a hot shower, we can spend at least 10 minutes being cleansed by His Word. “Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom” (Psalm 90:12, NIV).

2. Wisdom requires sacrifice.
When I first embraced the grace of God, He clearly instructed me to unplug my television and start reading the Bible. Do what?! It was hard at first, but as the months went by, I forgot about what I was missing and rejoiced in what I was learning. “The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding” (Proverbs 4:7, NIV).

In case you’re curious, the television eventually returned, but with greatly diminished appeal. God’s plan, absolutely!

3. Wisdom requires humility.
I hate admitting I don’t have all the answers, yet that’s what seeking wisdom is all about. It’s saying, “Lord, I haven’t a clue, but You do.” Admitting, “I don’t know, but I know the One who does.” Only then will God’s wisdom be revealed for what it is: His and His alone. “When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom” (Proverbs 11:2, NIV).

As the queen of Sheba discovered, information is interesting and facts are fascinating, but wisdom is world-changing. Wisdom is the resource we bring to the workplace, the encouragement we offer to our friends, the gift we give to the body of Christ, the legacy we leave for our children.

However full our schedules, adding just one more line to our to-do list can make all the difference: Open God’s Word. Find wisdom there today.

Father God, help us never take Your Word or the wisdom it contains for granted. Give us a passion for learning and a thirst for Your Truth. Fill us with the courage to ask hard questions and seek wise answers from You alone. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

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TRUTH FOR TODAY:
Proverbs 2:6, “For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.” (NIV)

Colossians 1:28, “He is the one we proclaim, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone fully mature in Christ.” (NIV)

RELATED RESOURCES:
Liz Curtis Higg’s new book, It’s Good to Be Queen, explores how you can become as bold, gracious and wise as the queen of Sheba. Pre-order your copy today and receive an exclusive collection of 4×4 Queen Cards that will put God’s wisdom front and center in your life.

Visit Liz’s blog for more encouragement.

REFLECT AND RESPOND:
More than 3,000 years ago, the queen of Sheba sought the wisdom of King Solomon and discovered its Source, making her a worthy role model for her modern sisters. Solomon likely penned most of the book of Proverbs in the Bible. Consider reading one chapter a day, starting today. If you do, you will have read the entire book of Proverbs in a month.

Of the three needs mentioned here in our quest for wisdom — time, sacrifice, humility — which one is the most challenging for you? What step could you take this week to help you begin to overcome that obstacle and grow in wisdom?

© 2015 by Liz Curtis Higgs. All rights reserved.

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Christian Encouragement, Life, motherhood

What’s it Like on the Other Side of Me?

Nicki Koziarz By NICKI KOZIARZ

Did you know it’s possible to get demoted from Room Mom to Assistant Room Mom?

It is.

It all started at the school open house. My little pig-tailed daughter and I walked into her new teacher’s classroom. She greeted us with a warm smile and told us to look around the room and check out all the papers that were on her desk.

I knew what papers were on the desk, so I quickly made my way there.

And there it was …

The purple sign-up sheet, listing all the volunteer roles for the year. And with a blank line next to the most coveted spot for all the moms at this school.

Room Mom.

Room Mom seemed like a Pinterest dream come true for me. The chance to be at my daughter’s school for all her important events and to unleash my DIY skills!

I couldn’t believe the space was blank. It was never, ever blank by the time I got to the open house each year. So I quickly wrote my name down and went home to get my party-momma hat on.

This is going to be the best year ever!

And it was … for about four weeks.

In the midst of all the Room Mom excitement, several doors of opportunity opened up for me in other areas of my life. I took on a part-time job, began speaking at events and my afternoons were spent shuffling kids to this activity, and then to that activity.

Before I knew it, I was completely overloaded. I was desperately trying to fulfill all the commitments I had made, including Room Mom. However, returning emails in a timely manner became hard and my availability to help cut out crafts became limited.

And after my Fall FAIL party craft [Pinterest lies. Oh how it lies!], one of the other moms began to get frustrated with me.

Soon after, I got an email from my daughter’s teacher explaining that she felt like this other mom might have “more time” to fulfill the Room Mom assignments and suggested I assist her.

Well then.

To be honest, the teacher was right. The other mom could do this Room Mom thing in her sleep. She was great at it! And she did have more time to offer than I did.

Still, something inside me ached in knowing people had become so frustrated with me, and I had no idea. Pride had clouded my vision. I couldn’t even see how my overloaded schedule was affecting the people around me. I just kept telling myself I was doing the best I could.

In reality, I needed to admit my overload and ask for help.

So now, when I’m sensing my schedule is overwhelmed, I ask myself the best reflective question I’ve found:

Right now, what is it like to be on the other side of me?

After I ask that question, I take notice of the commitments I’ve made and adjust them to avoid frustrating the people who are depending on me to fulfill my obligations.

Right now, what is it like to be on the other side of me?

This question helps me pause, pray and ask the Holy Spirit to show me anything I need to change.

Right now, what is it like to be on the other side of me?

It’s the question that helps me step into conflict and see the perspective of the person I’ve offended or frustrated.

Yes, this question leads to a hard-humble place. But it’s also a grace-filled place, like James describes in our key verse today.

When I pause to ask what its like to be on the other side of me, God gives me a perspective that is beyond what I can see. And no, I’ve never checked that Room Mom box again. [smile]

Lord, thank You for the grace You bring to us through humility. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

TRUTH FOR TODAY:
Proverbs 11:2, “When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.” (NIV)

Proverbs 15:33, “Wisdom’s instruction is to fear the LORD, and humility comes before honor.” (NIV)

RELATED RESOURCES:
For more wisdom on making wise choices with your schedule pick up a copy of The Best Yes by Lysa TerKeurst.

For a chance to win a copy of The Best Yes visit Nicki Koziarz’s blog today!

REFLECT AND RESPOND:
What is an area of your life where pride has slipped in and clouded your ability to see things for what they are? Tell us in the comment section today.

Pray and ask God to help you answer the question Nicki posed today: “Right now, what is it like to be on the other side of me?” Then walk humbly in His grace by apologizing to someone and seeking to make amends.

© 2015 by Nicki Koziarz. All rights reserved.

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Bipolar disorder, Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Christianity, encouragement, end times, Faith, God, Jesus, religion

And It’s Okay Now…

Child of God, are you growing weary?

Are Spiritual attacks growing in frequency and intensity like never before?

Personally, I am weary. I feel the pressure of the enemy against me more than ever.

The worse the earth does wax, the closer to the end, the tougher the journey, right?

Putting my own flesh to death in order to live and walk by the Spirit completely is very agonizing. Stepping out of years of Lukewarmness and choosing to take Jesus’ hand means surrendering everything. Giving God 100% and not 25%. This past year I finally got it. My life isn’t for me. This thing is not about me. I was created by the Lord and for Him. Everyone has a unique purpose in life given by God, and I am not ugly because my midsection is not flat. I finally accept myself for who I have become… For the things I didn’t finish. For failures. For my struggles with Bipolar disorder and Bulimia. I finally accept the truth that we all function at different levels with our mental illnesses and whatever else we are battling.

I am so relieved to say that by the end of my twenties (I turn 30 in May) I’ve finally stopped trying to be the person I planned to be, and have offered myself to God completely. May He refine me, mold me, sculpt me, and let me work for Him. I have become ready to be the person God has called me to be. The woman I was designed to be. His personal creation.

And it’s okay now.

*Image via Google, lyrics by Matt Maher (Everything and Nothing) added

Personal Journey

The Man with No Legs…My Dad.

The Man with No Legs...My Dad.

Sometimes its the most unfortunate that are the most generous. I don’t know…perhaps there are many things to be said and interpreted about and from this image. It really hits home, hard because of my dad. My father has no legs as I have mentioned in previous posts. He is permanently confined to the bed, and every time I go to see him, my heart breaks as each visit there is less and less of him as he is slowly fading away both physically and mentally. Back when my dad could get out, he would always take my family out to eat or cook, and pushed people to eat which not everyone enjoyed, hehe…but he was so giving then and even now. He’ll ask you if you are hungry yourself when he gets a meal plate at the nursing home where he is being cared for. I am nearly in tears.
So many memories of special days. Bulimia, Bipolar, pain, hurt, and anxieties aside, all that matters is love. Recovery is love. Self-love, and more. Dad is proud of me for how far I’ve come. It hurts though that he always said before he lost his legs that he and I would go to eat at the I Hop (his most favorite restaurant) to celebrate me graduating from college with a B.A. concentrated in psychology. Despite my not completing that task, and that meal never being had, I..just forget where I was going with that thought.
I could be negative and say that my daddy has no quality of life…but he is still with us for a reason. All things connected in God. No coincidences in my world. If my religion offends you, I am not trying to, I am just so faith-oriented. It keeps me sane.
Dad still has a sense of humor on his good days and makes us laugh, and I just smile, ear to ear…dimples that he passed down to me deep and all. Though I think I look mostly like my mother, I have my father’s lips, dimples, and some mannerisms.
(This image was in my Facebook News Feed…not sure of the source, but I am not taking credit nor am I affiliated with its creation in anyway.)
I know that there are millions of others in the world who suffer with issues like my dad, and my heart goes out to every one of them, and their loved ones or families. Everyone alive has some sort of major issue. Its a fact. “Normalism” is myth, and you don’t have to be a psych major or psychologist to figure that out.