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A Prayer For The Broken and a Conversation with The Church.

Father God,

Tonight I’m crying out on behalf of everyone in the world who is hurting. Everyone who has no idea of how precious they really are in your sight. For the dear souls that Jesus bought back with His Precious Blood on The Cross at Calvary, who have no idea that they are made in The Image of The LORD God Almighty.  Lord, it is written in Your Holy Word,

Psalm 51:17    The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

Psalm 34:18   The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.

God, we come to you brokenhearted tonight and just lay it all on the Altar. You have shown me today God that there is a pain so heavy we cannot bear it and are not able to process it. Especially at a very young age. Trauma. It is my minuscule understanding that there are places someplace inside of our being or our mind where these particular events are hidden away so that we can function.

I do not believe as some do that these are alters, but places of refuge that the demons take advantage of when they have ground to torment us. Your Grace is Truly Amazing, Lord God. The peak I’ve gotten of Your heart brings me to tears. You are so Beautiful. I love you. You know I want to love you with ALL of my heart. This is why you have exposed the brokenness in me. What the world calls Bipolar Disorder or Multiple Personality disorder is just a term in Satan’s Kingdom of Pharmaceuticals and money to deal with the problem at hand.  The suffering is all too real for too many. Tonight I plead on behalf of the whole world for an awakening and revelation because You said in Your Word,

Hosea 4:6  My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge.

The Churches today are not teaching The FULL GOSPEL, Lord. They cut Jesus off in Mark Chapter 16 at verse 16 (when He was STILL TALKING) in Your Description of The Great Commission to ALL Believers-NOT just the people back then. So much false doctrine and craziness going on today. Not many are walking in Power, signs and miracles as you gave us the Authority to do so, with Your Precious Holy Spirit living inside of us.

Mark 16:15-20   And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature.

16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned.

17 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;

18 They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.

19 So then after the Lord had spoken unto them, he was received up into heaven, and sat on the right hand of God.

20 And they went forth, and preached every where, the Lord working with them, and confirming the word with signs following. Amen.

The Church is unaware of Her Identity today, Lord.

The reality is found in Luke 10:19 Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.


If we as The Body of Christ knew Whose and Who we are, we would truly be walking in power and love with signs and wonders following our witness and preaching. Perhaps the world, or at least some of the world would come to saving faith in Jesus. Our identity is in Christ, we are not ourselves anymore after getting saved. So, tonight, we cry, ABBA, Father! Please wake up Your People and let them know just how much they are worth and how You Love them! Let’s reach the entire world with our testimonies for your Glory and the saving of souls!

God, give us the healing and deliverance we need to feel your love and overcome the pain we have acquired over the years. You will bind our wounds and wipe away our tears…oh, how you really do love us. In Jesus Name, Thank you, Amen.

Brothers and Sisters, let’s  go back  The Cross and remember our First Love. Let us remember WHY we started this journey. I know so many of you feel like quitting right now or maybe just don’t see a way out, but know this:

Isaiah 61:1   The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;

This is FOR THE WORLD. Discouraged Christians. Sobbing sinners. Hurting, broken people in a dark and dying world.

This is not a message of condemnation but of a heavy prayer burden. Child of GOD, You are the Light. We just have to use it and shine for them all to see! Shine for JESUS ♥

IF we share the Truth…If we seek His Face in our prayer closets, we will surely find Him and He will share His heart with us. Let us pray for one another in this dark hour, and for the soil to be tilled, and for The Laborers to bet sent forth to The Harvest. I pray this encourages you. If it blesses you in any way, it’s The HOLY SPIRIT. I’m just writing what’s on my heart. God has been showing me things lately…like how the wall of my pride has to come down. We don’t have to worry about what in the world we are going to do right now because He said He’d finish what He started and NEVER leave us nor forsake us. Sweet dreams, Beloved. Rest, knowing it’s okay to be broken. You do not have to stay that way… Jesus Christ paid for your debt and with all 39 Stripes He paid for your healing and hurt.

1 Corinthians 1:28

And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are:

“God, my life sucks.”

You are NOT FORGOTTEN! You are LOVED! No matter how dark it is, call upon JESUS!

Words of Encouragement by Charles Lawson

2 Timothy 2:13  (KJV)

13 If we believe not, yet he abideth faithful: he cannot deny himself.

Can’t Get Out of Bed?

If all you got left is a whisper, praise HIM, for HE is worthy!

Ask JESUS for the will and ability to get out of bed today. Maybe you want to go back to bed when you finish your cereal after reading this. Believe me, I understand that. Maybe you have grown to hate the sunlight and just can’t face the days anymore. You don’t have it in you to go to the mailbox much less the gym…

But there is hope! JESUS CHRIST is The Answer! He is The Way, The Truth and The Life! No one comes to The Father but by Him. Why don’t you surrender this day, let it all out in a prayer. Maybe you can’t leave your house, but you can cry out to Jesus. He will never ever fail you. You will NEVER be alone ever again because The Holy Spirit of God will come to dwell inside of you and He will quicken you to a new Life in Christ.

It won’t be easy, but it’s beyond worth it and it is the best decision you could ever make. Jesus said in   Matthew 11:28-30,  

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

The benefits of Christ are INFINITELY BEYOND THIS LIFE. The point of it all is truly the salvation of your soul! Don’t put it off another day. You don’t have to hurt alone anymore in this life. Jesus changes everything. And If your circumstances don’t change, you will have Someone AMAZING to help bear your burdens. There is life in Christ. Without Jesus you are dead. Your worst day as a Christian is incomparable to your best day as a lost sinner in a dark and dying world. Find ETERNAL LIFE and rest for your souls in Jesus alone, Beloved. God bless you dearly. Take it from someone whose been there.  ♥

Come To Me…

Soothing sounds for the weary soul. Life can be so very troubling nowadays… But we don’t have to carry the load all by ourselves. This song is so special.

Lyrics below:

“Come To Me”  by Jamie Grace

I had a dream I was standin’ on the shore
Two feet planted in the sand
Soakin’ up Your glory yeah
Saw You walkin’ from a distance
Without a hint of resistance
Had Your arms open
And a warmth in your eyes
You took my hand and You whisperedCome to me when
You’re weary and
I’ll give you hope when you’re hurting
I’ll give you rest from your burden
Come to me when
You’re weary and
I’ll give you hope when you’re hurting
I’ll give you rest from your burden now
I woke up to the weight of the world
Right back into reality
And all that’s goin’ wrong
Cuz in the midst of this chaotic life
I try to find peace of mind
But You’ve been there all along
And even now I hear You whisperCome to me when
You’re weary and
I’ll give you hope when you’re hurting
I’ll give you rest from your burden
Come to me when
You’re weary and
I’ll give you hope when you’re hurting
I’ll give you rest from your burden

I feel the weight, I feel the weight is slowly liftin’
As you close the distance
And I know, it’s gonna be okay when i hear you say
Come to me when
You’re weary and
I’ll give you hope when you’re hurting
Oo I’m gonna carry your burden
Come to me when
You’re weary and
I’ll give you hope when you’re hurting
I’ll give you rest from your burden now

The weight is lifted now


*Check out the Where I Found My Healing link at the top of my Blog for something even more uplifting….



Go Get My Children…

Brothers & Sisters, do not grow weary. We must keep fighting the good fight until He returns. Jesus, coming in the clouds will be a terrifying shock for some, and a long awaited, sigh of relief for God’s children. So much hate, evil, and war in this world… It can’t be very long now, but only God knows the hour…Lets thank Him for blessing our country with the freedoms that we have, and pray that our nation will not fall—that He won’t give up on America, though it seems to really be giving up on Him. God bless everyone today.

Just Can’t Take Anymore?

You are not over. You have work to do with that beating heart, and the very breath you breathe.


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Eating Disorders…& Hope

divein justbelieve kindnesstoself lifeaftered morethandisorder motivation1 motivation2 motivation3 motivation4 recoverydiagram remudafearrecover resttoweary scalestoffish selfcareGood morning, dear friends! These images are to inspire all of you today. Especially those of you who are struggling with eating disorders and Body Dysmorphic Disorder, or any self esteem issue—whatever it is that your very being is wrestling with right now.

I want you to know that, as someone who has found recovery and been living it out for over 7 years, you can overcome the darkest of times, the worst of situations, and the struggles that you think there is no way out of–there is. There are tools & peer support to make it through. If you aren’t able or don’t feel like facing people in real life for support or groups, there are ones online, and forums for you 🙂

Here is my favorite website for our struggle. Its full of awesome things to help you through this. There is much to see and do:

Click below,

The National Eating Disorders

This organization has: campaignd for prevention, improved access to quality treatment, and increased research funding to better understand and treat eating disorders. We work with partners and volunteers to develop programs and tools to help everyone who seeks assistance. *via the website

On the home page of this blog, at the top, there is a parent category called Eating Disorders & Recovery. There you will find my personal Recovery story, and maybe some things you can take with you on your own personal journey.

I hope this post inspires you in some way. That is my prayer.

God bless you in every way. You can do this. Remember, you are not over. Your heart is beating, and you are breathing, full of life. Your mission for this world has not yet been carried out. There are great things ahead for you beyond that wall… 🙂








































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