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Praise Reports From Sister Cindy

Jesus blessed me to connect with a really cool Sister in The LORD this month named Cindy. She loves praise reports and wanted to exchange some with me. God put it on my heart to share them here so you can be blessed as well, Beloved Readers! ♥


Cindy Magliolo added a new photo to the album: My testimony — feeling loved.

October 11 at 11:26 AM ·

Good Morning!! There are so many awesome testimonies of God’s goodness and glory and it occurred to me that I haven’t shared ours in a while. I say “ ours” because in the Bible, when Jesus saved one, Many Times, He saved the whole household!! And He is the same yesterday, today, and always!

I grew up in a small Town in Louisiana and came from parents that divorced when I was 4 or so. I have an older sister and a younger brother that I love very much. We went to our dads house every other weekend from Friday evening to Sunday evening, then he’d bring us home. I remember a lot of fussing and fighting each time we went. We had two stepsisters there; so that made five children. I guess it was hard on them and stressful. We weren’t the best children. I remember not feeling welcome there and I overheard My stepmom tell her sister one day that she couldn’t stand raising another woman’s kids. This was so wrong to me!! I would cry at night in the bed and wonder why I was born. I remember saying “ It’s not fair!! I did not ask to be born!!” And I felt so violated that because I felt like my dad was ours first!! He was with my mom and had us children then he, for what ever reasons, decided to he out, ok! But to marry someone that did not like us or welcome us seemed so unfair!! There was even one awfully horrid argument and I cussed at her and said something so mean and hurtful! I told her I hated her ( only I used a curse word too) she said the feeling was mutual. It had gotten too bad. I remember liking to wear black and listening to a lot of hard rock music for a time.- Being really rebellious and partying. Anyway, I graduated high school with a less than desirable GPA and had begun working my junior year. I was taught that a good work ethic is so much more important than grades and to amount to anything, we needed a good paying job with benefits and the opportunity for advancement. So shortly after graduating, I went to work at Delchamps warehouse on Pride Avenue. I mention this because God has allowed me to see since then, that I was on my way to becoming more and more prideful each day that I worked there!

I started out part time and made great friends. I liked the job and worked hard and moved up over time.. There was one lady I met that I used to hang out with after work. She was a lot older but so handy! She could work like a man and knew how to take motors apart and do mechanic work even! I loved hanging out with her because there was almost nothing she couldn’t do!!She had a barn with horses and worked hard and was always doing something at her house. I would go to her house almost every day and help work on things and hang out. I learned a lot- and drank a lot, smoking pot, and cigarettes and riding horses and cussing, living carefree. She had a nephew that was younger than me. He would hang out there and helped work. I was so gullible and did not know it at the time, but I think there was some coercing and encouraging privately for the two of us to get together. He was a good ole boy and was very kind and caring to everyone. I had bought a trailer and moved it to the area while I worked. He told me he loved me and after a time of dating we moved in together. We lived together for a couple years then made plans to marry. We set a date and started planning. I found out I was pregnant. So, when I was four months pregnant, we were married. I loved him – or so I thought- and our baby girl was so very beautiful! She was the most bubbly and happy child!- and so very loving and friendly!!

After maternity leave, I went back to work at the warehouse, while my husband worked as well. We grew and quit partying. We went to the family church and did fun things. Things were great at first but over time, like most things I guess, the newness wore off and the love faded. I met a man at work that would soon become my second husband. He had two boys- 7&8, by a marriage that he was still in and I had Jessica, that was 3. He was so very handsome and made me feel loved and appreciated. I fell in love with him and split up with my daughter’s father. We moved in together, went through the warehouse closing and losing our jobs, and both got divorced. We lived together – ( did not even hesitate – even with small children!) and after two years we went to the justice of the peace to get married. I had met the man of my dreams! He was tall, dark, and handsome and made my heart race! I loved his boys and Jess. They all seemed to be happy. Two years after we married we had a beautiful little boy together. He was healthy and so sweet and tiny!

Have you ever been around anybody that truly loves children? The kind of person that lights up when kids are around and wants to hug and talk to them? Even more than the adults or parents? I have such a deep love for all children! I had stopped the warehouse work and started a daycare at my home. I set up a schedule and had a learning and outside time. I loved the children and our time together and they taught me as much as I did them.

After a time, when all my daycare babies started school I applied with the parish school board office and local schools to substitute teach. So I was able to work around the schedule with our children. The children grew and I thought were happy. My ex had remarried to a lady much older that seemed to have insecurities. There were issues at his house for my daughter and suddenly she told me she wanted to go live there and go to school. I could not wrap my head around it. I’ve always been very close to my mom and when my daughter she would never call me or talk to me if she was at his house. I could not figure out why. We went to therapy for a year and I made a contract stating she could stay there for her 7th grade year and come back for high school. The therapist assured me that if I kept her from moving there, it would be catastrophic for her and my family. So, she left. At first she would visit but I would constantly nag and could not understand how or why she wouldn’t call. I cried and prayed in desperation. “ Lord please bring my daughter back! How can I be a good mom if I don’t even know where she is?” He would not. I did not even see her. The days went by and I got crazier it seemed. Redundantly I would cry and cry with no help and it got so terribly bad that I felt people would run from me. I saw her once and asked her why she did not return my phone calls. She told me “ because I didn’t want to talk to you.” It hurt so terribly bad. My heart was broken and I wanted to die. I had tried suicide once before and it failed. It had made me sicker than I’ve ever been in my life! So that was not an option. I thought about murder. I thought “ I could go kill that stepmom and my baby would be free. Even if I go to jail, the stepmom could not control my baby anymore or brainwash her to keep her from loving us or us seeing her.” These awful thoughts would come into my mind and I even had a day planned to go do it. Suddenly I began to hear a still small voice in my mind “ if you don’t forgive her I will not forgive you!” 😱 and each time I entertained those wicked thoughts this voice would come!! I knew it was true. I knew the Bible says this and somehow, even without the word in front of me, I knew that the Lord says vengeance is His when someone wrongs us. For each day that I did not think about doing these aweful things His voice got louder.. after a bit I discerned it was the voice of God. Only He says that right? Meanwhile, I’m still praying “ why won’t you bring her back to me?” I started seeing my husband and son roll their eyes and clench their teeth when I would cry. They were tired and missed her too!! In my selfishness I was not thinking of them at all!! Two beautiful men God put in my life and blessed me with that I should be so grateful for every single day!! He showed me they had unforgiveness in their hearts. When she left, she left them too- without a word- and they were hurt too- but because they are men – they didn’t cry like me! – they kept it inside! And I was making it worse because they wanted to help me but couldn’t. They’ve always helped me! And here I was so very inconsiderate and consumed by the one thing I didn’t have!! Instead of looking at all the good things Gods blessed me with! I was focused on the bad!
Meanwhile, I’m searching for answers, I open my bible. I pray and there before me – the words jump out of the page! – “ Trust in the Lord with all of Your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways, acknowledge me and I will make your path straight.” Prov. 3:5-6.
To trust is to lean on something!! To put your faith in something or someone! God wants us to do that!! With ALL OUR HEART!! And do not consider what we think is right to be the way things are! ( our understanding) but in all ( every single) way in Our Life!!- acknowledge ( admit and CONFESS ) ME ( the Great I AM !!OUR LORD AND CREATOR OF ALL THINGS!!! The BOSS! The HEAD AND BEGINNING! The FIRST AND THE LAST!!) and I will make your path straight! Meaning that’s what I was supposed to do to get through this!! Wow!!

The next time I prayed and opened His word- I was led to this verse! : I have plans to prosper you and not to harm you! Plans to give you hope and a future! Jer. 29:11. “
So Lord, if you have these plans for me then surely You have the same for my daughter and husband, son and step-children!” You love everyone!!

The following time I prayed and opened the word- my eyes were looking at “ Many are the plans in a persons heart. But it is the Lords purpose that prevails” Prov. 19:21.
That night I went to our room crying, and told God I was sorry. I begged Him to forgive me for thinking I knew what is best for my children He gave me. For ignoring the men in my life that mean so very much to me. For nagging my daughter and wanting to control everything! For not trusting in Him and His guidance and word! For not seekers no Him more or even thinking of Him or others but always thinking of myself!! I poured my heart out to Him in what would be the first of many confessions to Him since then!! And do you know what Our Heavenly Father did?

The next morning I woke up and I had a beautiful tune in my heart!! I had a smile!! I had a freedom to laugh and to think about things! With a lightness and a carelessness that I had not experienced In So very long!! I went two weeks without a tear!! Before I started thinking “ I have not cried!! 😨🤔🤗!! Wait!! When was the last time I cried?!?!” I got to figuring the days and HALLELUYAH!!! That was the very night I cried out to Jesus to SAVE ME?!?!? “ I went four more years without seeing my daughter. And although I missed her— I knew full well that OUR GOD WAS TAKING CARE OF IT!! Cause His word says HES GOT A PLAN FOR OUR LIVES!! And He loves us!! He’s real and His Spirit is here!! It came at Pentecost into the believers and it never left!! And He binds up the brokenhearted!! The truly does give the garment of praise for the spirit of despair and the Oil of Joy for heaviness! Just like Isaiah 61 says!! ❣️💕 and He is no respecter of persons!! He did it for me – and all those others in the Bible- He will do it for You!! All you have to do is ask!! My chains are gone I was set free!! Delivered!! And He absolutely gets all the glory!! 😍❣️

That was the beginning of a Beautiful journey with Him❣️ My daughter is back in our lives and I realized- I had been worshiping her! Both of my babies! We should not expect so much from our babies or people here on earth!! There’s only one perfect and worthy of WORSHIP!! Every other person or thing is created! We are sinners! We all fall, we all have messed up and let down our parents at one time or another!!We all need help and forgiveness! Daily even! But when we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive and deliverance is so beautifully freeing!! ❣️🤗❣️🤗❣️💕 Thank You Jesus for setting me free! Whom the Son sets free is free indeed!


Praise THE LORD!

He is FAITHFUL! Try HIM out and see for yourself 🙂

Personal Journey

Romance At The Reef…

Romance At The Reef...

Just an update. I am far too exhausted to post much.

In picking up where my last post left off: All has been resolved or is being taken care of.

Marriage isn’t just about falling in love.

Relationships must be nurtured to last.

I think the American Divorce Rate is like 50/50 now? Wow…

I am blessed. I have acquired so many wonderful attributes in all of the trials of my young life. There is something good to come of everything.

It was 3 a.m. and I planned last night to begin packing today. He woke me up to tell me to turn over because I was snoring. I did, but then all of a sudden I wasn’t sleepy. I was wide awake. I was just pulled from a dream. I told him what I was dreaming about and in that moment, facing opposite walls, we shared a laugh, a smile, and an I love you, despite what we both knew was coming.

I got up at 3 a.m. last night. I did some online research regarding legal stuff, and then he got out of bed as well. So, I went ahead and began bagging up all of the clothes in my closet-totaled around 10 lawn trash bags, I think. I boxed up other sorts of things in plastic totes, so many of them. I worked without stopping, and without breakfast from 4 a.m. until 9:30 a.m.
Things were intense and awkward to say the least. I mean, I went for a few hours without speaking to the one I’ve been with for five years. Not a word…

Long story short…
All is good. Life is good!
I am happier!
We did some hardcore communicating, lots of dialogue!
Our growth as a married couple is back in motion!

Successful marriage is about falling in love over and over again with the same person. I’ve not only read and heard that at multiple places, but I agree. We cannot let special things become ‘common things’. Its easy to get into the routine of things and forget why you fell in love to begin with. We must remember WHY we fell in love, always.

I believe everything happens for a reason, and that I’m still here in our home for a reason. I’m in love, and am bound spiritually, and emotionally to this man, not just in the flesh.
This is not my photo. However…my husband and I are very interested in taking a bunch of shots like this during this coming summer and maybe even later on this spring, somewhere.

Don’t give up.

No matter what you’re facing. Nothing is too difficult if you just open up.

Make yourself vulnerable.

Make yourself vulnerable to God.

-Amanda

*Image source: Google Images.

Personal Journey

Happy Birthday, Little Bit! :)

Happy Birthday, Little Bit! :)

Its after midnight, which makes it the 19th of February, so I suppose I can post this now since its official. Twelve years ago, this day, one of my closest best friends was born. However, I didn’t meet her until she was six months old in August of 2002, I’m pretty sure. This dog was sent by God above to me, personally. This is not the first time I’ve posted about my four-legged best friend on this blog. I have mentioned her several times as well in various posts.

I have never had a pet this long in my life. Little Bit is a family member, a human in the form of a furry, four-legged creature made by God. Like all other animals, she has a soul. I hope to one day see her in Heaven. Spending forever with Little Bit would be very Heavenly! She was there for me from the troubled end of my high school experience, through my college mania, diagnosis of Bipolar disorder in 2004, and the years of depression and continued Bulimia that followed.

I don’t know how much longer Little will be with our family, even one of our human members could go first though as far as that is. No matter what happens, she truly changed my life. Little Bit is proof that our Living God gives us everything we need. I didn’t know then just how amazing she would be for me, and looking back, Little is one of the most major blessings in my 28 years.

The photo I am sharing was taken many years back before her eyebrows and all the brown on her body turned white with age. She is still beautiful, with a soul that radiates her deepest love and kind heart.
In prayer tonight:
Thank you, Heavenly Father for sharing this ever precious, little angel with me. I love you. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

*Blessings*

Amanda

Personal Journey

Counting My Blessings & Becoming One.

Looking over my life, with every year comes change, with every moment comes feeling, and every person, a blessing or a blessing in the form of a lesson. We can make each other feel better with an action as small as a smile, as warm as touch or a hug, and as sweet as a compliment. People aren’t always aware of things that are positive about life, so if you notice something, tell them!

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Below I have written a bunch of stuff, its a lot to read, I know, but its important to me, as below I’ve counted many, many of my blessings in life. In doing so, I came up with more than I began with! I encourage you to do the same! Its a great way to feel and bring more gratitude into your life!

I am blessed in so many ways. I am fortunate enough to still have both of my parents around. Even though my dad is now a double amputee, and resides in a nursing home three hours from where I live, he is still alive, and somehow still has a nice sense of humor when I see him. I visit as often as I can. At first I deeply regretted moving up here. However, after thinking things over, carefully, I know I am right where I need to be in the moment. My mother is also three hours away and is still ever devoted to my father. She’s there for him, doing the best she can, as she too has a lot of health problems and was recently diagnosed with Diabetes. This March they will be married for 47 or 48 years, I think. That is also a blessing for my sister and I.

Along with these 2 loving parents of mine comes years of support. Dad always took care of his family during his years of good health. He was an excellent provider, loving husband to my mom, and friend to me. We have so many memories, both my sister and I! In a moment of madness, while in a manic state, my dad wrestled me with a knife in my hand on one occasion. I had begun to engage in self-harming activity after withdrawing from college. That time, he ultimately saved me. My mother dealt with a whole lot more because she was my primary caretaker, and I turned it all over to her, I was completely unstable for the longest time. She went through it all with me, as we experienced this Bipolar nightmare together. I will never know an embrace like hers. Its the most calming feeling in the world. Though life was worse than ‘horrible’ for a couple years, she did everything to make my life better. Looking back, I can honestly say, that some of the darkest times of my life, were also the most special. I cherish them! I leaned on my mommy, like never before. She held me steady in my world of chaos. It was then that upon waking up from a lifetime of being blinded with my disease that I realized just how important and strong our bond was. For that I am ever grateful. She’s my best friend. I have no idea how I am going to handle it when her time to go home to The Lord comes. At the very thought of it, I am immediately in tears. My mother has been and still is one of the most influential people in my life. She is my blessing.

My sister, my confidant is one heck of a best friend as well! I love her so much! She has always been there for me ‘through thick and thin’ as they say. I am 13 years younger than her, but now that I am a grown 28 year old woman, our bond is on fire, baby! lol. She made my childhood special though, as well, always making time for me in her busy college years, and working and all. She was like a second mom! Now and forever, I will always value her gifts of true companionship or friendship, an amazing, sisterly love, protection, and wisdom. I love you, sis! My sister is my blessing!!!

Of course, I’m going to include my husband! 5 years next month! Woot! Long, luuuuv story! Major blessing!

I have many other family members outside the core of just mom, dad and me and sis. I am ever grateful for them as well, as we all have unique and fun relationships! Family is my blessing.

I have made many friends over the years, being 28. I know I am still young and perhaps there will be many more? Who knows?!? I have even made some awesome friends on here! Love you guys! I have a few ‘friends’ in real life, and one, BFF or best friend. Her name is Nae Nae. We’ve known each other for 18 years, 19 this August. It all began in 5th grade when she asked me if I wanted to arm wrestle. lol. We’ve been through so much, and experienced so much in our developing years of life. I couldn’t have picked a better BFF than her. We bring out the best, and silliest parts of each other! Nae Nae is my blessing!

Not only family and friends have made my life what it is today. I must give credit to all of the special human beings who spoke vision into me and inspired my life. I will never forget my 10th grade history teacher saying “A good horse finishes the race strong!” Things like that stick with you, ya know? I must also thank other teachers like my high school band director, who opened my eyes by believing in me, so much, that I was chosen to lead the high school marching band for 3 years! Love him! I believe every human being is a teacher. We have something to learn from each other. Its part of our mission!

Not only special teachers, but my medical team/treatment team that saved my life, and my mind over this last decade. Therapists have changed a few times, but there was something to take from each of those helpful people. !I have been extremely blessed and fortunate to have been working with the same psychiatrist for the last decade! He is still monitoring me even now, and I am on meds, and as a Bipolar patient, I need maintenance until there’s a cure. I pray for one. My medical team is my blessing. All of the special human beings!

Things like being able to get my very much needed meds at the pharmacy, doctor visits, zero to no copays, a decent place to live…Major things like the fact that I’m mobile, I still have all my parts (except my gal bladder!) and I am healthy for the most part! I am so thankful! Wow! I had no clue I could go this long just listing SOME of my blessings! There’s no need for me to finish them here, as I have already wrote a book! lol…

The point I was trying to reach, but have just now gotten to, is that the biggest part of my blessings are people. I want to make a difference on this planet before I pass on to the next level of life, which I believe to be Heaven, upon living accordingly as Christians believe. Which reminds me to mention Jesus Christ as my biggest blessing. I want to be a blessing, myself. This is the latest concept that has been on my mind. I ponder all the good deeds I can do, who I can reach, what I am here for, my calling, so much! That being said, have you ever thought about becoming someone’s blessing? Maybe you already are! Maybe I already am! Its just a huge topic to think about. I just thought I’d touch on that tonight after the book I just wrote…

*Added 7/13/14

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This is your chance to help others, just like us!
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In addition to providing hope, participants should know that Healthline will donate $10 for every video created to the non-profit To Write Love on Her Arms
TWLOHA is a movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, and self-injury.

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Please share the news with as many as you can, and submit your own video if you are comfortable because it could really make a difference in the life of someone whose world has just been turned upside down.

-God bless

Personal Journey

How Healthy is Your Greek Yogurt &…Life?

How Healthy is Your Greek Yogurt &...Life?

I could be wrong, but after spending a lot of time in the yogurt isle at the local grocery this morning at 5 a.m. (to avoid the big snow everyone is freaking out over) I found the healthiest pick of the big names in Greek Yogurt, which I love, to be by Danon Light & Fit GREEK. I’m pretty sure Oikos has around 160 calories per bigger cup, and Chobani was at 120 calories I think. These numbers were stored in my brain while at the store so I could be wrong. However, I do have the Danon right in front of me, so I can tell you that it is just as tasty as the other 2 and has only 80 calories in the same sized cup! Plus, my friends, they are all 3 brands 1.00 each at Wal Mart, so the preference is entirely up to you!

I was so excited that I bought 4 cups (would’ve bought more, but funds are tight right now). I bought Strawberry/Banana, plain Strawberry, Peach, and a Pineapple one. I’m devouring the peach as we speak! I am so happy. Actually I am far happier now that I am taking better care of my body now, taking in a considerably less amount of calories as I am very out of shape for my height and stuff. I am not going to low on the cals, and I also don’t count them to be exactly right. I am a small portion kind of girl. I think somebody said that the portions should be the size of your palm? Not sure. I’ll have to Google it. I have had 2 different nutritionists in my life, and I loved them both, but since I’ve moved I have not found a new one yet. However, I am very seriously considering checking out local Overeaters Anonymous meetings in a close, nearby area as suggested by one of my favorite fellow bloggers. This year I am giving it my all, doing everything I can to make my dream a reality-ultimate fitness, acquired in a healthy manner! No more all or nothing thinking, or any of the other types of self defeating ways of thinking that I listed for us in a previous blog. This is OUR year, friends! 😉

An 80 calorie breakfast with 12 grams of Protein sounds great to me! Then again, its 6:30 a.m. with a lot of snow coming, so I will probably go back to bed, making for a possible brunch in my future later…it will have to be healthy though…just something to get down with morning meds.

I am extra tired from the 3 hour road trip that my husband and I took yesterday morning, and then rode back another 3 hours coming home, arriving at 9 p.m. My mother’s birthday is today and she lives 3 hours away, and since the bad weather was coming, we visited with her yesterday instead of going down today since its below freezing and all. My mom is now 67 years old. I cannot believe it! She had me at nearly 40, so I guess that makes sense. I can’t wait until she moves up here to our new hometown where she and I and all of our family can do things together before she gets to be too old and unable to. She’s my best friend. Everyone: Cherish your mother or your parents if you are fortunate to have them because as we are aging…so are they. Its a sad thought…but on a happy note, we had a super awesome time yesterday and she absolutely loved the gift I bought her from Uncommon Goods, a site that I really recommend for not typical, but unusual/special gifts. Its an awesome site: http://www.uncommongoods.com
You might like it! Its worth checking out, I think.

It is too early for me to be awake and doing the many chores and things I need to get done around our house for the day, especially when I turn in usually at 11 p.m. So, friends, I will leave on this note:

Cherish today, tomorrow isn’t promised. I never thought of this in my teens, or even early twenties. It is just now as I am nearing 30 that I have finally realized how short this life truly is. Lets all try to be happy and tell everyone we care about in our lives just how special they are and how much we love them. If you are reading this, you were blessed to wake up today, and as you and I are inhaling this breath, someone someplace else in the world is inhaling their last. I know we are mere mortals and things happen, we have words, we get angry. Just don’t let it linger; try to forgive quickly and let the positives outweigh the negatives in your life. And to the youth reading this, those of you in your early twenties and below: You have your whole life ahead of you, but try and grasp this very principle now. Time is fleeting, and every day is going by, quickly, more so than you think. So…the earlier on in life you realize just how much every day with your family, friends, etc.. matter, the better. Don’t let little things get you down.

I need to lay down. lol. I love you guys!!! I hope everyone has a joyous Tuesday, wherever you may be, whatever you are doing. Remember, random acts of kindness or smile sharing throughout the day and in life will come back to you! I believe in karma 🙂
Thank you to all of my readers, followers, and those I am following. I enjoy your work, keep it up! We must inspire one another, and lift each other up! Oh yes, don’t forget to do your PLW today!!! Positive Life Work! (Blog about that coming later today when I get up). Things like affirmations, positive and encouraging self talk, etc.. more later on…

May this day bring you whatever it is you are seeking and you need in your life. God bless!

-sorry for any errors, my eyelids are getting heavier by the second, so no proofreading just yet, lol.
-Mandi