Adult, Christianity, Personal Journey

How Much More?….

*PG-13 Content*

“Waiting, for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
Still awaiting, I.”  -Disturbed


So, I’m still here…and I’m still going through it. After about a week of easier living, less torment in the sexual manner from the harassing demons (I believed they were losing their strength but turns out they were hiding somewhere else in me) they showed me they were back yesterday afternoon. I was in my prayer closet praying to The Lord when all of a sudden I noticed that my mouth was gaped open for no reason, then I realized I was being raped again by unseen forces…in the spirit. This is insane and I cannot believe I am still here.

I have heard of other Christians going through this right now and this is just terrible! The devil is sending out his wicked forces to attack some of God’s Children with sexual temptation and demonic arousal. Some call them spirit husbands or spirit wives. There’s Incubus and Succubus. Usually the latter two are said to attack in dreams and at night while I believe the spirit spouses attack any time 24/7. I’m not exactly sure how this perverted demon(s) became tied to me. At first I thought maybe it had to do something with my dad being a Freemason when he was alive.

*NOTE: DON’T sign up to be a FREEMASON, you are screwing your family over with curses, blood pacts or whatever else. Think about it! Not to mention you are WORSHIPING LUCIFER! AKA SATAN!

A new day…for so long I have been waking up and thinking to myself, Maybe today will be the day I will be set free… but not yet. I barely get any sleep anymore. Especially the past month. The demons (all of the kinds) attack most and heaviest at bedtime and like midnight through the dawn. They attack the most when human beings are tired and weary, sleepy and annoyed. So, for awhile I have been taking evening naps to be awake for the nighttime attacks and just odd hours. Not much sleep.

I was really picking up speed and felt a fresh anointing of boldness from The Lord in witnessing and beginning to get out of bed in the morning and exercise-seemingly signs of breakthrough. Temporarily. I’ve even been sharing praise reports. People, do NOT be deceived. The enemy is cunning and wants only to rob you, kill you, destroy you! I have read that these sex demons can cause serious gynecological problems. I believe I have been experiencing attacks of that sort as well. Not going into detail on that one.

This stuff is embarrassing, but it’s my hope that someone will find it all helpful and comforting, bringing God the Glory. He did not do this to me, I brought it upon myself when Jesus delivered me in January from a similar attack, much heavier in nature. I just bowed my head and prayed. When I lifted my head I was free. Well, I did not read the part in the Bible where Jesus  says to sin no more lest something worse would come over you:

John 5:14 (KJV)

“Afterward Jesus findeth him in the temple, and said unto him, Behold, thou art made whole: sin no more, lest a worse thing come unto thee.”

And I did. Then just as it is written, this happened to me. I am living every moment of my life awake and sleeping (dreams are now only nightmares) with the rapist demons tormenting and harassing me. Heavy attacks, because I did not know the Word and I sinned against God. The wages of sin truly is DEATH.

Romans 6:23 (KJV)

For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

This stuff does NOT want to LOOSE ME and LET ME GO! I am going to get some Brothers and Sisters to pray for me because I am having trouble fasting and I am pretty sure these demons qualify for the category where Jesus said:

Mark 9:29 (KJV)

And he said unto them, This kind can come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting.

On a good note, God has used this mess to reveal an amazing Truth to me. I grew up in a very religious church that didn’t teach the full Gospel. No casting out devils or healing and tongues. God has introduced me to Deliverance Ministry, I am astonished at the truth! I am really not “Bipolar.” Mental illness, physical illnesses like Bipolar or cancer etc are just symptoms of demons that can be cast out in Jesus Name! It is far more simple if you cancel the legal rights and close all open doors. Sometimes you encounter some super strong and stubborn ones like I am dealing with, but this is FREEDOM in JESUS’ NAME! He came to set the captives free! This is BIBLICAL! Research this for yourself if you don’t know, God does not want you to suffer!

Anyways, I will keep you posted.  If you would, please send up a prayer for me. Let us all remember no matter what…we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us.


Check out this awesome Deliverance Website Keys to The Kingdom HERE!

Personal Journey

XXX Sex with Demons XXX

Yep. You read the title! Definitely not gonna hear about this in church…

Sex with demons is real. People of the world, or people that are not Christians actually try to summon demons to have sex with them and practice this nasty stuff. Then you have Christians like myself who are being raped or molested by these unseen forces of darkness. Some people talk about it happening in dreams or at night and refer to those beings as Incubus and Succubus.

In my case, and for many others, the spirit rape happens anytime 24/7. Perhaps it is what is called a spirit husband or spirit wife. You may never see your spiritual attacker, but you will definitely feel them if you are a victim of their sexual onslaughts. Having very vivid nightmares comes along with these situations as well.

I have just heard and began to learn about these things this year as they have happened to me. Mind-blowing I know, right? This is happening all over the world and in fact, I’ve heard some say it is a sign of the times likening these occurrences to the Bible verses here:


Genesis 6:1-4  (KJV)

And it came to pass, when men began to multiply on the face of the earth, and daughters were born unto them,

That the sons of God saw the daughters of men that they were fair; and they took them wives of all which they chose.

And the Lord said, My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: yet his days shall be an hundred and twenty years.

There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown.


Matthew 24:37 (KJV)

But as the days of Noah were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.


Here is some very cool information from an article on Linkedin by SAM UDOUBAK:


Spiritual husband and wife is a very deep spiritual issues that are kept away from millions of Christian today. They are specially commissioned by Satan to molest trouble and scatter good and godly homes, relationships and life in general.

 I pray that the almighty God will open your understanding on this matter, in Jesus name.

They are spiritual enemies living and sleeping with one. They are very stubborn, aggressive and dangerous. They are terrible enemies with killer motives to kill your joy, peace, health, brain, calling, virtue, marriage. Often times they do not need permission as they violate the right of their victims, molest their victims with sex in the dream. They are desperate and very wicked.

They can enter and start manifesting in one’s life through various means which includes:
1.   Immorality.
2.   Pornography.
3.   Spirit wife/husband can be inherited.
4.   Evil dedication of individual.
6.   Underwear manipulation.
7.   Through tattooing and incision.


  1. Sexual relationships in dreams
  2. Hatred of marriage
  3. Being jilted by serious partners
  4. Missing one’s menstrual period in the dream
  5. Pregnancy in the dream
  6. Breast-feeding a baby in the dream
  7. Having a family in the dream
  8. Shopping with a man/ woman in the dream
  9. Seeing a man sleeping by one’s side in the dream
  10. Sudden Hatred by earthly spouse
  11. Serious gynaecological problems
  12. Having a miscarriage after sexual dreams
  13. Dream marriages
  14. Constant wet dreams
  15. Late marriage or no marriage at all


  1. My body is the temple of God therefore no spirit have control over my body
  2. Spirit husband/spirit wife; release me now, in the name of Jesus.
  3. Every spirit husband/wife, I divorce you by the blood of Jesus.
  4. Every spirit wife/every spirit husband, die, in the name of Jesus.
  5. Everything you have deposited in my life, come out by fire, in the name of Jesus.
  6. Every power that is working against my marriage, fall down and die, in the name of Jesus.
  7. I divorce and renounce my marriage with the spirit husband or wife, in the name of Jesus.
  8. I break all covenants entered into with the spirit husband or wife, in the name of Jesus.
  9. I command the thunder fire of God to burn to ashes the wedding gown, ring, photographs and all other materials used for the marriage, in Jesus’ name.
  10. I send the fire of God to burn to ashes the marriage certificate, in the name of Jesus.
  11. I break every blood and soul-tie covenants with the spirit husband or wife, in the name of Jesus.
  12. I reject the children born to the marriage, in Jesus’ name.
  13. I withdraw my blood, sperm or any other part of my body deposited on the altar of the spirit husband or wife, in Jesus name.
  14. You spirit husband or wife tormenting my life and earthly marriage I bind you with hot chains and fetters of God and cast you out of my life into the deep pit, and I command you not to ever come into my life again, in the name of Jesus.
  15. I return to you, every property of yours in my possession in the spirit world, including the dowry and whatsoever was used for the marriage and covenants, in the name of Jesus.
  16. I drain myself of all evil materials deposited in my body as a result of our sexual relation, in Jesus’ name.
  17. Lord, send Holy Ghost fire into my root and burn out all unclean things deposited in it by the spirit husband or wife, in the name of Jesus.

Always take everything you read to Scripture and to God first. Then do your own research. I am new to all of this too, but there is hope in The Power of The Name of Jesus in Deliverance ministry. (See Mark 16:17-18). All demons are subject to The Name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, however sometimes they are stubborn and do not have to leave if they have a legal right. Be sure and check out this link about LEGAL RIGHTS for demons HERE.

The worst thing is unforgiveness. Unforgiveness with completely hinder your deliverance as we must forgive to be forgiven.

I pray this encourages someone. Remember, Jesus loves you no matter what and no matter how bad it feels. I am going through it too. One day at a time. We are leaning.