God speaks to us in dreams. It is true the devil and his camp interfere and mess with us in our dreams too of course, but God speaks and reveals things to us in our dreams. I have been struggling with demons in my body most of this year and am still seeking the great breakthrough in deliverance that I so desire.
The other night in my dream I was walking with my husband in our front yard. In front of me was an exact copy of me. Not a twin, but a counterfeit. I told my husband not to believe her and that it was not me! She and I were dressed the exact same with the same hairdo and all. The only difference was the style of her conversation and how she carried herself.
I see this to be God revealing to me a double-mindedness, identity, or personality struggle that is ongoing within me right now. I’ve been saying for a while that I want to be all in for Jesus. The demonic torment and my responses make it hard for a steady walk with The Lord. I believe this is what needs to be addressed now in my deliverance process. Perhaps this is what’s holding me back and hindering me from breaking free. This is all new to me. Major learning process.
Also, I have been having some very noticeable trouble with focusing, memory or recall. These things have been accompanied by sudden headaches, major fatigue and sleepiness. I prayed against witchcraft this evening and found relief. Man, we are living in a very dark time spiritually…praise God, He is The Light!
So this is my deliverance progress note for tonight. I just want to encourage everyone to hold onto Jesus. In deliverance, just like everything else, you have better and worse days. It’s such an amazing learning process and faith-builder. Praise God for every breath in Jesus Name!
It’s like after 6 a.m. and I’m sitting here sippin on some Cappuccino. On the drive home from the gas station so many thoughts were running through my head. Many emotions too..I shed a few tears as I sang along to some Miranda Lambert and reminisced with some Taylor Swift on my Spotify app. Needless to say I took the long way home…
It’s not like me to revert back to my old ways and musical tastes like I did this morning, but after losing a major spiritual attack after waking up and feeling so defeated, I just didn’t care. I threw it all away. I didn’t know I would mess up today and so early, but God did. I got so much deliverance last night. I just knew that was it. I just knew that the molesting and raping demons were going down forever. I was so excited because the desire to masturbate from their stimulation would be gone completely forever! Not so…yet. Christians (and everybody else) do not engage in watching pornography not matter what. The cost is far too high-especially if you are a Christian, a Child of GOD seeking The Lord. There are demons that can attach themselves to your body and live inside of you. They can be so stubborn to get out as I am finding out. Doing this stuff is a WIDE OPEN DOOR FOR THE DARK SIDE! Not many want to talk about this but it needs to be addressed!
So today God has had mercy on me. Even after blowing it this morning, still yet I began burping and yawning and coughing. These are all manifestations of deliverance. God was delivering me and still kicking demons out despite my actions. I haven’t prayed since.
As I was listening to songs like I Knew You Were Trouble, Red, and Bad Blood, I thought about all of the rejection I experienced in romantic relationships growing up and in early adulthood. It didn’t matter how beautiful I was or how talented. I was always rejected by the men I so desired. Even in the relationships I was involved in, they never lasted too long. NOW it is SO clear to me WHY! Having received all of the revelation this year in my trials I see that we live in a spirit world and all is spiritual. I recognize the mishaps. Most people have heard that God has a plan for your life. Well, the truth is…Satan does too! The kingdom of darkness is always at work in your life as well carrying out assignments against you to suit their purposes and plans against God. Good news tho! That’s what spiritual warfare is for!
All of my romantic entanglements were a part of Satan’s plan against my life to destroy what God had for me/God’s purpose for my life. I believe the enemy can catch a glimpse of the future but only God knows everything. Satan can speculate, I mean, after all he’s been around for a very long time! Whatever happened, I know the enemy was at work. Maybe not in everything. We have been given free will, just know that the kingdom of darkness has plans for your life too. I tell you this in wisdom, not to scare you. I tell you this from experience. There were major assignments against me in my young life with the spirits of rejection, self-hatred, fear, and so much more.
So if you’re going through something like this (you can apply this to everything else too), just know that it’s nothing personal. Remember that these spirits operate in people to get to us…and we war not against flesh and blood. Man, what an awakening this year has been for me!
Seek The Lord in prayer and ask for wisdom. God bless!
It’s 3 a.m. and I’m being delivered!!! The Holy Spirit is kicking the demons out of my body tonight from my stomach. I was wiping off my bathroom counter and I recalled some of my sin that brought me into this captivity but then The Mighty Holy Spirit of God spoke to me unexpectedly “As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us” (from Psalm 103:12).
Oh MY GOD!!! I KNOW MY Redeemer LIVES! This verse is my treasure and my diamond! I am finally receiving my breakthrough! God is moving in my heart, in my soul and in my belly! Oh, praises to The King!!!!!! This is a short post but I just had to share my blessing! I don’t know what the future holds but I KNOW WHO holds the future!
Leviathan, Arrested Development, Double-Mindedness, Vashti, Jezebel, all the Spirit Husbands, and my rock hardened heart… Must be like billions of demons eh? They don’t operate alone. It is my understanding that they operate in groups. I’m not an expert yet, but you think I would be by now! I have no idea how the networking of demons is orchestrated inside of me. Sometimes I get mad because I see other Christians walking through life just fine…they have demons too. It’s just their demons aren’t exposed. Once you ruffle their feathers, the whole bunch acts up. My demons were uncovered this year as a result of sin. Oh what a learning experience…
It’s amazing how sin really hardens our hearts. Not only sin, but the defense mechanisms we put up when the warning lights come on that something potentially hurtful lurks ahead. Like this summer for me. My 92 year old Grandma moved hundreds of miles away and I knew I wouldn’t see her as much… The walls went up. I felt nothing. Two days before her flight I actually felt like I was in another zone in my body. Weird.
Trauma. How much trauma have you experienced in your life? For me, it began with my birth as my Mother had a Cesarean. Then the house fire at age 2 where I watched everything we had burn to the ground in the family van. The frightening nightmares that I had as a result of watching the movie Child’s Play with my teenage sister were rough… I mean, Kid Sister was tossed out in no time. I tried to give my dolls away because I just knew they were plotting against me, or just plain wicked. What a mind warping experience. Major spirits of fear and phobias.
I also experienced a lot of rejection by the opposite sex in dating/having relationships. I would fall for the wrong guy (at the time I didn’t know it was a spiritual set up against me by the enemy). At the end of junior high I pushed myself to lose so much weight. I did that and I was still not accepted the way I desired. It didn’t matter how beautiful I was, or how talented…there was an assignment against me in the spirit realm. You see, everyone hears that God has a plan for their life. I’m here to tell you that the devil has a plan for your life too. Ask God to open your eyes and reveal things to you. Only God knows the future but Satan can sniff out or sort of catch a glimpse of the blessings God has for us around the corner. This enrages him. Satan and the kingdom of darkness hate human beings because we are all created in the image of God-whether we are living for Him or not. Lately I’m beginning to see how my heart has been hardened over the years. Many experiences brought different types of pain, and with the pain emotional wounds. Only The Holy Spirit can heal your deep wounds, the ones in your very soul. It’s called Inner Healing. Google it. He’s beginning a new work in me right now, healing me up, taking down the walls ever so gently.
Being able to cry is a blessing, don’t take it for granted. One thing you can do if you’re struggling with feeling numb and the hard heart, as a Born-Again Believer you can just ask The Holy Spirit to break your heart and He will help you feel again, give you the ability to cry. The Holy Spirit bringing you to tears is freedom, Hallelujah!
No matter how many demons, It’s gonna be okay.
Falling apart is okay cuz God puts us together in new ways xoxo
So, BIG REVELATION!
After weeks of seeking deliverance and self deliverance, research, studying, and pretty much making this thing my idol (being freed from the molesting and raping demons) I think I finally got the point. All of this time God has been waiting on me to simply surrender to Him as He watched me from above as I scurried and hurried around trying to take control and do things my way. I have not fully surrendered. Jesus wants ALL of us, not 75% or however much we are willing to give Him.
I have not totally died to self and I have been reacting to God like He wanted to take my favorite toy when that’s certainly not the case. Jesus gave His ALL for me on the CROSS so I shouldn’t give Him any less than all of me. The love of GOD is amazing! I am just now beginning to understand the nature of my Father and how He is so kind and merciful. He is LOVE itself! I grew up in a pretty religious background and I had no idea what GRACE was…so far, I am drowning in the BLISS of my SAVIOR! We have to realize that we can stoop pretty low in this world. We can find ourselves doing things we never thought we would do and in places we said we would never go…The wages of sin is really…DEATH! The BIBLE is TRUE! The ONLY TRUTH under the sun!
God wants us to trust Him. I have not done that, but I am starting to. Today when the demonic attacks came upon me, I just ask Jesus to help me and take away the pain that feels like pinches and biting or the molesting. The tiny annoying torments cease instantly and the sexual attacks are becoming so much more bearable as He is removing them in His perfect way and time. I have actually moved to the backseat and let God have the steering wheel (I thought I did). It has only been one day, but I have seen my FATHER show up in such a MIGHTY and direct way…it blows my mind! He is growing my faith. I am so grateful, I don’t give thanks much at all but I am a work in progress 🙂
God is moving in my life in ways I’ve never imagined. I told Him I wasn’t testing Him but trusting Him to fight for me like in Exodus 14:14. He understands our hearts before we ever pray. He takes care of it all every time! He is soooo faithful! So this is what surrender feels like… This is peace. Thank YOU JESUS!
Lying in bed last night as I was thinking about how terrible this demonic torment has been for months, it came to me: Look at Apostle Paul! Look at all he went through for the sake of Jesus and The Cross! He ENDURED so much! What patience and perseverance this Brother had in The LORD! After so many pity parties and begging God to take this thing away…how much am I willing to go through for Jesus and for The Cross? How much does He matter to me? Am I going to serve Him through the dark times also as I have so boldly proclaimed many times before all this happened? It’s so much easier to boast about my dedication for Christ than for me to walk it out with Him in patience when things get so tough.
All my life I’ve been quick to give up when things don’t go my way easily and quickly. I haven’t had much patience in all my 32 years on this planet.
Check out what Apostle Paul went through for Jesus’ sake.
2 Corinthians 11:16-33 (KJV)
16 I say again, let no man think me a fool; if otherwise, yet as a fool receive me, that I may boast myself a little.
17 That which I speak, I speak it not after the Lord, but as it were foolishly, in this confidence of boasting.
18 Seeing that many glory after the flesh, I will glory also.
19 For ye suffer fools gladly, seeing ye yourselves are wise.
20 For ye suffer, if a man bring you into bondage, if a man devour you, if a man take of you, if a man exalt himself, if a man smite you on the face.
21 I speak as concerning reproach, as though we had been weak. Howbeit whereinsoever any is bold, (I speak foolishly,) I am bold also.
22 Are they Hebrews? so am I. Are they Israelites? so am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? so am I.
23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft.
24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one.
25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;
26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;
27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.
28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.
29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not?
30 If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities.
31 The God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which is blessed for evermore, knoweth that I lie not.
32 In Damascus the governor under Aretas the king kept the city of the damascenes with a garrison, desirous to apprehend me:
33 And through a window in a basket was I let down by the wall, and escaped his hands.
Trusting in Him and submitting to Him. Surrendering to The LORD… This video really speaks to me right now.
One day at a time. I believe God is cleansing me and purging me of the world and my carnal desires for the things of this world, known or unknown. I have fasted and done many deliverance. The demons are coming out but at a slow pace. The sexual demons are still violating me anytime 24/7 and I’m still having nightmares and annoying physical torment, but you know what… This morning I actually thank Him for what He is doing in me. I am not fully submitted to God. I am not fully dead to self. I am not truly surrendered to Him. I plan on seeking surrender to Jesus now more than ever. One day at a time. I must get into prayer alone with my Father in the quiet. It’s so easy to get caught up in this world as we are living in the technological age with so many distractions. Impatience is hard to shed when everything comes so instantly in this period of humanity. I confess I am impatient and need to surrender to God.
James 1:2-4 (KJV)
2 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
3 Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
4 But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
So, God bless you all. I hope this helps someone. Glory to God! He revealed this to me last night before falling asleep. Praise His Holy Name! He has NEVER given up on me! He will NOT give up on YOU either!
This “spirit husband” is so stubborn to let me go. If I’m not awake being raped and molested inside, then I am living in the devil’s nightmares as I sleep. So, I can’t just take a bunch of sleeping medicine cuz that would just screw me over, I’d end up stuck in the demonic nightmares for hours.
I guess I’ve sinned worse than I know… with what’s got hold of me. The way things are, you’d think I’d had sex with the devil himself. I just want them to leave. Or I want to leave if they won’t. Ah, this sucks! Days of torment.
The wages of sin is death. Don’t do it. If you are delivered from an unclean spirit (Jesus Himself delivered me from a terrible spirit after I prayed months ago) and you return to your sin, like The Bible says, something worse will come. Sin no more. I have been living with my something worse since March and I am seriously ready to move on.
There’s more to the world than what the cotton-candy Christianity preachers around the world are teaching right now. They’re tickling peoples ears with promises that if they just sign up they will win an all expenses paid trip to Heaven, no pain or suffering involved. New car, new house, better looking body and blah blah. It’s about who YOU are and what YOU want and what God will do for YOU. Hate to break it to all of the followers of the prosperity Gospel preachers, but…God is not a genie. We don’t just order what we want like at a drive thru either. It’s a relationship. This world is a mess right now with stuff like this going on. Stuff like what’s going on inside of me and is going on with many believers right now. I thank God for connecting me with people who I can relate to in this time of darkness. It is super dark in the spiritual realm down here on planet earth. It’s only going to get darker. The Bible is without error and all is coming to pass right now.
Jesus is the only way to make it right now and certainly to make it to Heaven. He is coming soon. Hold on people, it may feel like hell to us right now but we are way wrong. This is not hell. If we are suffering like this now, I cannot imagine how people will be attacked in the coming 7 year Tribulation, and unimaginably Hell itself. Repent! We aren’t guaranteed anymore time anyway of life. God bless.
Prayer of Release from the Stronghold of the Baphomet (Freemasonry, the Occult, the New Age, Sexual Sin, Rape, etc)
“Waiting, for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
Still awaiting, I.” -Disturbed
So, I’m still here…and I’m still going through it. After about a week of easier living, less torment in the sexual manner from the harassing demons (I believed they were losing their strength but turns out they were hiding somewhere else in me) they showed me they were back yesterday afternoon. I was in my prayer closet praying to The Lord when all of a sudden I noticed that my mouth was gaped open for no reason, then I realized I was being raped again by unseen forces…in the spirit. This is insane and I cannot believe I am still here.
I have heard of other Christians going through this right now and this is just terrible! The devil is sending out his wicked forces to attack some of God’s Children with sexual temptation and demonic arousal. Some call them spirit husbands or spirit wives. There’s Incubus and Succubus. Usually the latter two are said to attack in dreams and at night while I believe the spirit spouses attack any time 24/7. I’m not exactly sure how this perverted demon(s) became tied to me. At first I thought maybe it had to do something with my dad being a Freemason when he was alive.
*NOTE: DON’T sign up to be a FREEMASON, you are screwing your family over with curses, blood pacts or whatever else. Think about it! Not to mention you are WORSHIPING LUCIFER! AKA SATAN!
A new day…for so long I have been waking up and thinking to myself, Maybe today will be the day I will be set free… but not yet. I barely get any sleep anymore. Especially the past month. The demons (all of the kinds) attack most and heaviest at bedtime and like midnight through the dawn. They attack the most when human beings are tired and weary, sleepy and annoyed. So, for awhile I have been taking evening naps to be awake for the nighttime attacks and just odd hours. Not much sleep.
I was really picking up speed and felt a fresh anointing of boldness from The Lord in witnessing and beginning to get out of bed in the morning and exercise-seemingly signs of breakthrough. Temporarily. I’ve even been sharing praise reports. People, do NOT be deceived. The enemy is cunning and wants only to rob you, kill you, destroy you! I have read that these sex demons can cause serious gynecological problems. I believe I have been experiencing attacks of that sort as well. Not going into detail on that one.
This stuff is embarrassing, but it’s my hope that someone will find it all helpful and comforting, bringing God the Glory. He did not do this to me, I brought it upon myself when Jesus delivered me in January from a similar attack, much heavier in nature. I just bowed my head and prayed. When I lifted my head I was free. Well, I did not read the part in the Bible where Jesus says to sin no more lest something worse would come over you:
John 5:14 (KJV)
“Afterward Jesus findeth him in the temple, and said unto him, Behold, thou art made whole: sin no more, lest a worse thing come unto thee.”
And I did. Then just as it is written, this happened to me. I am living every moment of my life awake and sleeping (dreams are now only nightmares) with the rapist demons tormenting and harassing me. Heavy attacks, because I did not know the Word and I sinned against God. The wages of sin truly is DEATH.
Romans 6:23 (KJV)
For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
This stuff does NOT want to LOOSE ME and LET ME GO! I am going to get some Brothers and Sisters to pray for me because I am having trouble fasting and I am pretty sure these demons qualify for the category where Jesus said:
Mark 9:29 (KJV)
And he said unto them, This kind can come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting.
On a good note, God has used this mess to reveal an amazing Truth to me. I grew up in a very religious church that didn’t teach the full Gospel. No casting out devils or healing and tongues. God has introduced me to Deliverance Ministry, I am astonished at the truth! I am really not “Bipolar.” Mental illness, physical illnesses like Bipolar or cancer etc are just symptoms of demons that can be cast out in Jesus Name! It is far more simple if you cancel the legal rights and close all open doors. Sometimes you encounter some super strong and stubborn ones like I am dealing with, but this is FREEDOM in JESUS’ NAME! He came to set the captives free! This is BIBLICAL! Research this for yourself if you don’t know, God does not want you to suffer!
Anyways, I will keep you posted. If you would, please send up a prayer for me. Let us all remember no matter what…we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE! God has NOT forsaken YOU! JESUS LOVES YOU! PRAY PRAY PRAY.
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