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When I Messed Up

I made a mistake tonight, nothing huge, but it really hurt. What I did really stole my joy within a couple of moments thereafter. And then it hit me. I had a very inspiring thought which was obviously from the Holy Spirit within me… I questioned my pain, unlike ever in my existence. I rationalized in Spirit that the hurt I was experiencing was nothing. Maybe some years back I would’ve remained devastated for a very long period of time, replaying it all in my mind. Not now. For it is now that I have an understanding that there is far more than this. The pain endured in this world while we are alive for an uncertain amount of years cannot be compared to the Glory that is to be revealed to us later. At this point in my life I’m able to let go of my mistakes more easily and sometimes more quickly. I see the suffering in the world. The depression, panic, anxieties, poverty, wars, persecution, evil…I wouldn’t trade this acquired wisdom for anything. Oh, how the world needs more love. More compassion and patience.

This past year, I have become so very much closer to my Maker, God Almighty, my first Love. This faith explosion in the deepest parts of my heart, in all of my innermost being has really changed my life. If you’re wondering how this happened, it all began in July 2014 when I went shopping for clothes. I found a few beautiful pieces on sale in a very popular clothing store, known for its quality and great deals. Anyway, after I’d been home for while, I realized that at the particular time I was living in, I didn’t need all 3. I felt like I could’ve used my money in a better way. My husband drove me back to the store, I ran inside and got a refund on 2 of the 3 pieces. It was difficult to let these go (especially because of the difficulty to find such great clothing actually in store and not online in a plus size.)

My husband suggested we go someplace different. We wound up at this huge retail park behind the city mall. I had no clue where to go until he was like “Why don’t you go into that Christian bookstore?” A light came on inside and the idea was very exciting.  So I went in. I came out with a Bible study workbook for women called Stuck, by Christian author Jennie Allen. It was the cover that sold me, and I was truly stuck at the time. It was the first actual way that I ever sought to study the Bible for myself, alone, outside of Church. Oh boy, this Study-book was the beginning of great things!

I began diving deeper into God’s Word. When I would share Scripture online on those cute, motivational posters, the times I looked things up that referenced to various verses & parts of the Bible, I looked for myself to verify it.

Following the birth of my first real journey in the Word, was the adding of more Christian songs to my Spotify playlists. I discovered all sorts of new music by artists I’d never heard of. God literally put a new song in my heart. Free-falling into a full-time Christian lifestyle was a gradual process. We are on this journey and forever growing closer to Him and learning. My hope, my faith, my determination…Everything grew.

I set out to create a post to encourage others tonight because the world is hurting right now.  We are all dealing with something…I see the search engine terms on my blog stats. Many people are searching with the word depression. I want you to know that I, and billions of others are suffering with you tonight. I hope these posters that I gathered online will offer some encouragement tonight.

God bless you, precious ones.

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My Scars Show Me that God Will Never Leave

Image via Google. I dunno if it’s song lyrics or what… but I can literally relate…

Hope this inspires you in some way.

God bless.

 

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Ready for Bed?

Lay down not only your body tonight, but all of your worries, doubts, & fears of anxiety as well. Spread out comfortably in bed and take a moment to ponder this night. All of today is now a memory and part of the past. If you see the dawn, you’ve received the gift of another day, another chance to do what it is you need to do, to make a difference in the lives of others, to share your story and inspire others. Tomorrow could be the best day of your life. That miracle you’ve been praying for could unravel this day.

Either way, my friend, remember that the absence of anxieties and fear is called faith. Where there is actual and 100% faith there is no doubt, fear, or worry. Faith is a growing thing. Over time and with practice and input it becomes greater, packing such a powerful punch. You know you’re gonna get knocked down from time to time. That’s life. But with faith…there is no doubt in all the fibers of your being on earth. You stand fearless, knowing there will be pain, which is unpleasant and uncomfortable…but you know in your heart…your SOUL. You know you can. You know who you are.

You know this because you know Him.

You know God.

He’s listening as you get into bed, and the rest of the time 24/7. Talking to Him can be as short and easy as “Help!” He knows what you need before you even ask.

The Creator of the Universe flung the shimmery stars into His velvety night sky, twinkling as diamonds. Like the moon, and the sun they testify to His great Power & Glory every moment in every day.

Close your eyes. No matter where you are. The eastern or western world. Persecuted, or tormented inside of yourself. God’s got this.

 

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Goodnight, everyone.

Sending love to all of you ❤

God bless

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The 2 Great Things I Learned in 2014

This year I have learned 2 major lessons to life.

No matter who you are, where you are. This applies.

  1.  There is one Universal Answer to every question we have or will ever have. It is “God’s grace is enough.” (2 Corinthians 12:9) So all of the things that come up in my life, that confuse me, cause me pain, and I want them gone…God does not have to take them away because His power that rests on me is enough. God doesn’t have to move the mountain, He may simply give me the strength I need to climb my way to the top.

No one Else’s prayer is any better than yours. It doesn’t take a long line of intellectual dialogue to communicate with God. He is listening for words from your heart. Cry out and tell Him what hurts. Tell Him what you need. Tell Him how thankful you are for the very breath you breathe.

2. My life was dramatically, forever changed when I not only spoke to the Lord, but I started listening. Signs began showing up in my life. I received hints from Heaven.

You might ask, How does one listen to God?

Of course I agree with my brothers and sisters in Christ that we hear by the Word. The Truth of The Bible is how God speaks. It’s also…in being open for these great signs, blessings, and miracles. Let your faith be wide open, like the sky. When you are open to God you are able to understand, to hear Him…and receive all of these things.

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You Are Not Beyond Hope! :)

You are not over. Do not give up or give in to the negative thoughts and struggles in this life! You can get back up. It may take a day or two, a couple of weeks, or however long-but anything is possible with God. You got this! Have a great day today, my friends!

Sending love and hugs 🙂

Amanda

 

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