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A New Heart

The Power of God is beyond our understanding. The things He has in store for those that love Him and obey is mind-blowing. It’s out of this world. Literally…

No matter how much pain you are in, no matter how broken your life seems to be…God can restore you. He will.

Praise His Holy name…

I will never, ever be the same.

Motivational Monday!!!

Have a wonderful day, everyone!

*Images via Google



You Can Come Home

Some turn to a bottle
Some turn to a drug
Some turn to another’s arms
But it seems like it’s never enough…

Lyrics via Turn Around by Matt Maher

God is ever waiting with open arms, my friends. Call out, let your worries be made known. Give yourself to Him and He will give you Living Water…so that you never, ever thirst again…

Inside of a world at war with itself, amongst people at war with themselves, we can still yet have inner peace. Peace that surpasses understanding. A Part of The True Living God inside of us. That is beyond exciting! And motivating, and so encouraging… 🙂

*Image/lyrics combo via Christian singer/songwriter Matt Maher & the aid of Google.

Lookin’ For Love?

Its amazing. Its marvelous. Its life-changing. Once you experience it, you are never, ever the same.

Scientists say we have internal chemical reactions to hugs. If your hug is with a potential lover to your likings, you will feel butterflies as they say as well 😛 That kind of hug is a deep rush, I think. When you embrace your grandma, your mother, a best friend, or significant other, you feel this soothing connection between both your hearts.

The empathy your dog has for you. Over time he has picked up on your moods with your body language and observed behavior. Maybe you’re stressed or upset and you lie down or curl up on the couch, ball up full of stress and raw emotion. Your dog comes over to you and likely nudges your hand so you will pet him. Maybe he taps you with his paw. Whatever the case, he feels your pain. So much of the time when I am sad my dog will even whimper with me. We share the pain. And that feeling…to be understood. Its so comforting. The world can be falling apart, but if you have some sort of comfort like that you are somehow stronger.

The high school teacher, coach, or band director who went the extra mile, working after school. After hours. After hours to make you better. To make you who you are today. Some people have very little support at home. Sometimes the leadership acquired in after school groups and activities, or lessons learned from our educators light a fire inside our hearts. Maybe before you didn’t try as hard, you weren’t motivated enough to give it your all, make goals & strive to achieve them. But somebody believed in you. Another soul expressed concern for your life, assisted you on the stairway of your life at the time. There’s nothing like feeling that somebody cares about you.

This brings me to my point. Our Source.

Our Source is Love. These examples described above are all accounts of love expressed in different ways. But it gets deeper, you know.

Love = Our Source is our Creator, God AlmightyHe is Love itself, and everything good, everything of loving nature, stems from our Father in Heaven.

So, if you’re looking for love, if you feel hurt and broken, like nobody cares…maybe you would choose to turn to God. His love is unlike any other. The love of God is unconditional, bold and daring. Life changing and earth shaking. If you open up and let God do what He can and will with your life, I promise you will not be disappointed. He’s a sure shot! He always delivers. He proved it on The Cross when Jesus died for all of us. All of mankind. Its truly worth thinking about and looking into. Because if you look close enough and hard enough, you just might fall right back in love with God. There it begins. The beginning of that relationship. The beginning of knowing God. Knowing Him as your Father. As more than a word in a book. He is very real and He is waiting to put His mighty Hand on your life and do extraordinary things if you take that step.


The Power of Our Words & The Tongue.

Death & Life are in the power of the tongue… -Proverbs 18:21

I found this poster via Google. It’s song lyrics to Speak Life by Christian artist, Toby Mac.

I never stop and think about how powerful what we say with our tongues really is. Whether it be truth or lie, it spreads. People remember it. It leaves them feeling a certain way. Positive or negative, once you shout it into the universe, its there. Forever. You can’t take it back.

Words can be like bullets, piercing the tender hearts of our fellow human beings, scarring their insides, and creating deception.

However, words can also be like the sweetest, comforting embrace from your mother, or the mother you never had. Kind of like the warmest blanket, fresh from the dryer, wrapped all around you, after coming in from a terrible storm.

We can discourage or encourage one another.

We can curse, we can pray.

We can criticize, we can motivate.

We can Speak Life or speak death.

I choose life.

You are not alone. You are not over. You are just beginning. This is the first day of the rest of your life!

God bless everyone!

Amen! ❤


Why I read the Bible: How I see the Word of God Today

This dawned on me tonight, so I made a poster for it.

My attitude toward the Bible…the Word of God, has changed dramatically in the last year, more than ever. For many years I had the wrong attitude toward reading or studying the Bible. I sort of wrote it off as something I couldn’t understand without being at Church. It was just over my head, and the old English didn’t help. It wasn’t but a couple of years after my Baptism that my Bipolar disorder symptoms began to surface, and in that time I lost interest in things I cared for most.

I honestly disregarded the Psalms because I counted them as a bunch of poems or songs that really didn’t matter as much as the rest. I gave Proverbs the most credit as it seemed pretty easy for me to understand. But you know, you can open the Bible to a random spot and find yourself in the middle of the story of a particular person or leader, a battle, and all sorts of situations, including Jesus.  These people, stories, and situations have a background, and it is possible to figure ’em out! It can and will really make sense if you simply give it some of your time and dedication.

I was way off!!!

There is reiteration in this Holy Word, so if you pay attention, you can really see what God is telling us. Now I look at the Bible as The Official Guideline, and Only True Self Help Book (in my words) for living a full, happy life on earth, and especially into a Grand, Beautiful, Eternal One that we cannot comprehend in our mortal form. It is a handbook for anything and everything concerning all matters of this life, Salvation, and the next one.

I think that the main point I wanted to bring about is that I didn’t think I, personally, would ever be able to find help for what I called modern day problems here. The Truth is, over time, and with the more attention you give the Word of God, you see it differently.

There are all sorts of Bible study guides for people, like me, who need some help getting started. There are Bible dictionaries and References so that we can better understand. The study guide that I first picked up was Stuck by Jennie Allen.  I found it at a Christian bookstore…actually it found me, but that’s another post.

Bible study guides are awesome! Whether you’re a Christian or not, reading the Bible can become something extraordinary, and light up your life. You can pray for understanding and guidance, and the Holy Spirit is sure to follow. I just really wanted to share my former attitude toward the Word of God for what it was. Now, my Bible is no longer just a book on my shelf. It’s a part of my daily life. Out of Its case! …Unless for protection or travel 🙂

& If you don’t have a case, you’ve just got  faster and easier access! ❤

I hope you find this post encouraging and helpful. If so, perhaps you will share with another, the idea of how approaching and handling the Word differently changes things, forever.

God bless!

Just Can’t Take Anymore?

You are not over. You have work to do with that beating heart, and the very breath you breathe.


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You Are Someone’s Miracle

We begin as blank slates, fresh from the womb, knowing nothing, spotless. Wherever we wind up after that and a bunch of psychology to boot determines how our personality, and the very perception of ourselves develop. There is so much information, theory etc… with that sort of thing. That’s not my point tonight, though. Even on my best day, at this point in my life I would be unable to really deliver a textbook explanation.

But you know, no matter what, we are absolutely 100% able to rise above and beyond our childhoods, troubling life lessons learned the hard way throughout the years like bullying or abuse. I’m not saying it will be just wiped away from our hurting minds and hearts. What I am saying is that though you may still carry the dark or troubling events & people that have hurt you, and the fact that even now, after all these years it still stings…You can rise above it all. The lingering pain can be healed. You can come to a true place of peace in your heart, despite all the memories. The thing is, we have to do some work to find that peace and carry on that work to maintain it.

Reaching out to others, trusted loved ones, friends, family, a significant other…and professional help. I am a living testimony that therapy does work. It will work for you-but you will only reap as much as effort you put in with your counselor. Developing insight is just huge. Sometimes meds can make a dramatic impact. It may take time with trial and error as we are all made differently, but if it works for you, it is worth it. *All credit goes to Jesus Christ, The Son of God. He is the Great Physician, and the one I choose to serve. The things He has done for me I could never count on this earth.* The healing of my weary soul has everything to do with this.


No statistics, no linking of articles or anything tonight. I just want to offer hope. That is the blessing that I have as an overcomer. If you are struggling with anything that haunts you, interfering with your daily life, and leads you to believe a lie, do not give up. Miracles happen every day. There is light within you, whether you see it or not.

You have it in you, precious soul, to be someone else’s miracle.

God bless

Salvation is free


Misconceptions + Deception = Chaos

As followers of Christ, we’re struggling everywhere around the world. From the most life threatening struggles of physical persecution, to the ones that I know on a personal level (dealings with getting ready for Church). Clothes, my body, & presentation. My Bulimia acts are no longer around, but I am not healed. To live a happy life we must work on the quality of every day, from wake up, til going to sleep. There is no direct finish line to happy. It’s ongoing. We work daily on overcoming the evil one. Daily is the race to our desired Home with Jesus forever.

Driving along in the car tonight, I thought about some current situations in my life that need extra attention. These situations are part of not only my struggle, but part of the lives of others involved. The more I think of them, and then think of them in terms of being human and the trials of this life, it just all seemed silly. I was relieved I could finally smile about it! I see it for the learning experience that it really is. What can seem like the end to us can actually just be the deception of the Devil himself. In 2014, I have learned the following equation of the Soul.

Misconceptions + Deception = Chaos


No matter how dead you may feel inside with doubts, anxieties or fears that challenge your daily lives and your very faith, God is alive. When you suffer with Jesus, you suffer with purpose, because you are being unraveled and the goodness in you is slowly being revealed in a brighter way. If we really try our darnedest, no matter what, the carvings and thorns will all make us better for the Lord. A new creation. There is much to be done, much to sow, and the reaping is going to literally be out of this world!

Remember no matter what’s going on in your life, you are NOT over! You have much to live for right now! The power is in the present moment.

God bless everyone tonight!

Ready for Bed?

Lay down not only your body tonight, but all of your worries, doubts, & fears of anxiety as well. Spread out comfortably in bed and take a moment to ponder this night. All of today is now a memory and part of the past. If you see the dawn, you’ve received the gift of another day, another chance to do what it is you need to do, to make a difference in the lives of others, to share your story and inspire others. Tomorrow could be the best day of your life. That miracle you’ve been praying for could unravel this day.

Either way, my friend, remember that the absence of anxieties and fear is called faith. Where there is actual and 100% faith there is no doubt, fear, or worry. Faith is a growing thing. Over time and with practice and input it becomes greater, packing such a powerful punch. You know you’re gonna get knocked down from time to time. That’s life. But with faith…there is no doubt in all the fibers of your being on earth. You stand fearless, knowing there will be pain, which is unpleasant and uncomfortable…but you know in your heart…your SOUL. You know you can. You know who you are.

You know this because you know Him.

You know God.

He’s listening as you get into bed, and the rest of the time 24/7. Talking to Him can be as short and easy as “Help!” He knows what you need before you even ask.

The Creator of the Universe flung the shimmery stars into His velvety night sky, twinkling as diamonds. Like the moon, and the sun they testify to His great Power & Glory every moment in every day.

Close your eyes. No matter where you are. The eastern or western world. Persecuted, or tormented inside of yourself. God’s got this.


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Goodnight, everyone.

Sending love to all of you ❤

God bless