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You Can Overcome Anything!

This is sure to boost your mood, no matter what troubles in life you are facing…

God bless you, dear ones!

It’s gonna be a great day. You can be happy, even now. Listen to the words in this song!

 

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Jealousy: A Poison to both Mind & Body

Recently, I began thinking about how much time I spent in my younger years of life (and even now) looking at the lives of others, seeing how green their grass was as opposed to mine…

Taking the time to open the eyes of my heart and  addressing the blessings of another creates an awareness of jealousy. I’ve found that once we analyze this we can easily see the humanness behind it all. We see our insecurities, fears, and the comparison of our lives to those of others (which is pointless and only encouraged by evil to ultimately destroy us with the hardening of the heart). The feelings of anger and frustration steal our joy. If this isn’t addressed to be taken care of, all of the potential inside of us, along with our very own gifts is waste.

The amount of energy put into the concern of some other person’s success, blessings, and the fruits of their labor could be used to accomplish things in our own lives.

So, be yourself, changing the world in the way that only you can!

I know that I need to be vocal and take action to express my delight in the success of others. I must keep my eyes fixed on my own homework, as copying leads to failure. I need to practice selflessness, thanking God for it all in praise and prayers of gratitude. In being observant of the needs of others, and not mine alone, I will live a far more fulfilling life. The peace is like nothing else.

God bless, dear friends.

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Pass Along…The Meagan Napier Foundation: Doing Something About Drunk Driving

The Meagan Napier Foundation

From the official website:

“The foundation is a 501(c)(3) non-profit organization dedicated to the memory of Meagan Napier and her friend Lisa Jo Dickson who were killed by drunk driver Eric Smallridge on May 11, 2002. We have formed this foundation to raise awareness of the dangers of driving under the influence of alcohol and to promote forgiveness and healing. Our families: the Napiers, the Dicksons, and the Smallridges believe it is extremely important to educate everyone about the horrible consequences of drinking and driving. Meagan and Lisa were loved so much and we miss them more than words can say. Their lives were taken in a senseless car crash that could have been avoided. One decision, one moment in time, and many lives were irreversibly changed!

Renee Napier, Meagan’s mom, has made it her mission in life to share this story with as many people as possible. She is passionate about saving lives! Since March 29, 2004 she has presented this story to over one hundred thousand people, young and old. In her presentation Renee tells the story, talks about the healing power of forgiveness, shows videos that feature Eric in prison and since April 22, 2010, she has been allowed to have Eric join her as an inmate, bound by shackles and handcuffs, to share his powerful testimony. They conclude with a compelling slide show featuring Meagan, Lisa and Eric. Afterwards, the audience is invited to go outside and take an up close look at Lisa’s mangled car… the car in which she and Meagan died.

It is our desire that all who visit this web site will be touched in a positive way. We hope you decide to make a difference in this world by choosing to: NEVER drink and drive, NEVER let your friends drink and drive and NEVER ride in a car with an intoxicated driver. We also hope you will encourage your family and friends to do the same. Make the DUI Promise: “I PROMISE TO NEVER DRIVE UNDER THE INFLUENCE”…Help us STOP DUI!!”


I first heard of this wonderful foundation from the song that it inspired by Matthew West called Forgiveness.

This is an awesome campaign to prevent all that can happen as a result of drunk driving. The truth of it all is amazing. I encourage you to listen by clicking  Forgiveness to hear how this inspiring story inspired the song.

“The Meagan Napier Foundation has been awarded a grant from the Florida Department Of Transportation (FDOT) for $25,000. We must have that amount of money in the bank in order to receive the funds. While we do have some funds in the bank, we don’t have $25,000. The funds we do have are being used in the mean time to help us travel so we can continue to raise awareness of the dangerous consequences of driving under the influence of alcohol and drugs and continue to promote forgiveness and healing. We need to raise $25,000 in October to receive the funds from the FDOT. We are a 501(c)(3) non-profit organization and your contribution is tax deductible. We appreciate your contribution! Thank You!”

Help The Meagan Napier Foundation Foundation Get The Grant Money

 

I really encourage you to share this link. I know that we are all living by our different means, some of us blessed with very much, a little more, enough, or less, poverty line. Regardless, even if you do not plan on donating for whatever reason, please share this. Right now the foundation has only raised 5,000 dollars–20,000 dollars behind the amount needed to be matched with the same by the Florida Department Of Transportation that would be granted. And even though it is October 24th, your help and the Will of God can make this happen. She only has until the end of this month.

Actual Photos from the website.

Thanks for reading 🙂

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Wearing Your Love Glasses

Let’s let go of yesterday and enjoy today. Tomorrow is not promised. So, share your love. You are the rainbow in someone else’s cloud even if unaware! :0) You are an answered prayer waiting to be delivered. There is this blessing inside of you that only you and you alone are capable of sharing with the world! Unleash your spark!

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The Spiritual Toolbox.

I sat pondering life in general the other day, and It dawned on me that I have a spiritual toolbox. I have a spiritual toolbox where I’ve stored tools and concrete plans for human life on earth that one cannot see with  eyes. Inside of this awesome and vital life accessory, you will find my prayers, my soul guidelines: my life’s lessons learned, morals and beliefs according to The Word of God in the Bible-the ideas that govern the way I choose to live my life. The instruction Manual for Salvation…Eternal Life! 🙂

Along with these, there’s record of my baptism to remind me of who I became in 1999. Of course The Word of God is at the heart of this box. I am not very knowledgeable in the Word as I could be now, but I am growing and pursuing the closest relationship with Jesus that I could ever know nowadays.

I recently read in a bible study guide (by Jennie Allen, an awesome Christian author whose work I am really beginning to admire) about how we as human beings have ideas of what we feel are our rights, and we feel strongly about our rights. Jennie wasn’t just talking about as a citizen of a nation, or in a world sense, but on a personal-living scale.

*By the way, I have come to find that for me, using a study-workbook to aid in my understanding of the Bible on a private, at home level is simply awesome! I am finding out more and more about God, growing closer to Him as He draws closer to me, and even learning about myself as a Christian because the questions and prompts in these study books really bring it out of ya.

When on the page in my study workbook asked me what I believe my rights are, a light came on.

Vanity. The quality of people who have too much pride in their own appearance, abilities, achievements, etc. : the quality of being vain.

Wow. This is the core of all of my problems. The sorrow that I’ve been reveling for the longest time (as you can even see in many of my blog posts) lies in this sin, this concept that was put in me at a very young age and I kept for the rest of my life. My priorities haven’t been straight! I’ve wanted to be somebody, when really, the somebody that i need to be is the character that I am currently developing. I have evolved as a Christian and individual this past year more than ever.

All things of this world will surely pass away.

I think that true wealth in the human sense is health. If we are achieving and maintaining health at its optimum level while living on earth, we are rich (aside from things like meaningful relationships-love and stuff). I mean, we take nothing with us in a physical sense when we pass away. All that is left here on this planet are the things we owned/possessed (Maybe things that we were once so eager to buy, or were blessed to have). Those that survive us divide those things and the circle of life continues without us.

The way we treated others, the extra mile we went for the sake of right, the energy and time we devoted to reaching out to our fellow human beings and bringing glory to God, helping each other… Deeds are the makeups of Heaven! The more work we put into love down here, the more work we will find we have put into our Heavenly home!

See Matthew 6:19-21

19“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20“But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal; 21for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

We are born here and we die here.

Contentment and Faith in my life…

Before, if I wanted something so bad which meant very much to me, In fear, I would instantly begin crossing my fingers, wishing and praying it would not slip away, and still be available when I could get it.

Worry. to think about problems or fears : to feel or show fear and concern because you think that something bad has happened or could happen.

Now at 29 I know in my heart that if there is something I am supposed to have on this earth there is no need to fear or worry over it because everything is in God’s hands. In the Bible there are verses about how God takes care of the birds of the air. They do not have to worry about what they will eat for He sees after them. Also,  the Lilies of the field are clothed so beautifully…So how much more will He do for you and I? (See Matthew 6:26-28)

Faith. strong belief or trust in someone or something. (In this case, God.)

I am in the very midst of a spiritual awakening in this moment.

Things.

Distractions and reactions.

Let us think on our own personal, unique, and Divine soul purpose.

Building things like projects, houses, or machines, vs. adding equity into my eternal home where I hope to reside forever with The Father. Love. The Trinity; Father, Son, Holy Spirit. All of God’s children will live a life that never ends, without broken hearts or bodies that break.

Forever in Paradise vs. the eternal Hell

I don’t know about you, but 99% of the time when I think of the afterlife of an eternity, I ponder on Heaven and not Hell. I grew up in a non-denominational Church of Christ where I was educated about both places in Sunday school. However, it wasn’t up until now that I’ve really give anything at all this much thought.

God has shown me this year that all I need is simply God! His Grace is sufficient for me…

2 Corinthians 12:9

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

 

I can tell when the hunger in my belly is satisfied and all that’s left is simply spiritual hunger. Its odd that they can feel the same and be so different, right? There has been a long and terrible famine of God’s Word in my life for years. I am getting back into the Bible now and in doing so I have begun to figure myself out! I did not expect it to transform me in such a huge manner because for the longest time my faith was very weak.

The Bible is not just a boring book full of ancient facts and stuff we have heard over and over and we already know (as I honestly used to think…). Once you really apply yourself and get into things, you will become enlightened in so many ways.

God bless ❤

besaved

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Little to Say…

I have little to say lately, but I would like to share this with you.

 

beautiful.

Someone loves you… Whether you know it or not.

Someone needs something you have to offer this world whether you recognize it or not.

You are here for a reason, whether you’ve found your purpose or not.

Plant seeds of hope in the heart of another and watch them grow. Grow far beyond their limits.

-Amanda-

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Who are you? Have you discovered your essence?

I am a writer.

Me.

It’s not all about grammar, the length of the article or post, or the greatness of response received from it. It’s about content too. Its about my message, what I have to say and want to tell the world. Its in the heart of me. I may not be the best writer, but I am my kind of writer.

Who are you? Have you discovered your essence?

Perhaps there’s a song inside of you. It needs to come out. You may not be the best singer, but your heart has something to say. Maybe you are one of the best. Either way, you have a blessing to share!

No matter what you have to share, It’s not about the degree of our talent, but about the importance of getting the message out to the world, ultimately carrying out our mission for the Lord during our stay here on earth. There is something inside of you waiting to be let loose, out of your heart and into the mind of others. You can plant seeds of hope, inspiration and encouragement in other people.

All human beings are unique to the world. Our own unique fingerprints, talents, personalities, and even the way we laugh make up our individuality. There’s something you are called to do, a place in God’s plan reserved for you alone. Its a position that only you can fulfill.

Embrace it. Trust Him.

God bless you, dear ones!

-Amanda ❤

 

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I Like The Way I Look, but I LOVE The Way I Feel!

 

My 40 + pound weight loss this year has been a true experience in itself. My current goal is to get to the “3/4 loss point” by the end of the year, and then finish ‘er up by my big 30th birthday next year at the end of May. From then on out its a healthy lifestyle! Diets do not work. For example, many times in the past, I tried popular diets like that shake for breakfast and lunch and sensible dinner type one, only to finish with a huge binge and come out worse than I went in!

I am a recovered Bulimic, and the word ‘Diet’ appalls me. What I’m following now is what I’ve found for myself and am still learning! Inner peace, and just knowing who I am.

Portion watch (not control, i hate that word), enough Protein and nutrients, and fruits and veggies from God are wonderful. Vitamins are blessings, as they fill in and make up where we lack as best they can! I am not taking in extra or unnecessary sugar for great health, weight loss, and because I am trying to be the exception in a family of Diabetics. I am very active as well in my exercise endeavors! In January, after a total 5 year exercise hiatus, I began doing 10 minutes of walking on a treadmill 3 days a week. It evolved over time, and has now turned into a handful of 4 mile walks throughout the week, and toning etc on days off of that walk. I am proud of my accomplishments!

Stretching is fun now! Clothes are falling down, and new ones await, right there with the rest of my life. For the longest time my weight loss was stunted by a major emotional road block (which is actually the inspiration behind an upcoming blog). Now that I have accepted my dad’s passing, and have freed myself as well, with God’s help, Its coming off. Excess weight is actually emotional pain in another form…

This is just an update on where I am with the weight loss project of 2014. You guys stay motivated! No matter what your goal and what you are working on, do not give up! This is STILL OUR YEAR!

+Amanda+

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Can’t Sleep. Life Evaluation.

Its nearly 1 a.m. and I cannot sleep. I have this weird feeling like I need to throw up, sneeze, and cry all at the same time! Not sure why…

Then again, I was thinking about the last time I spoke with my dad before his passing a while ago. My sleep aid is only working half its strength because of my large Caffeine consumption these past two days. I have been a bad girl. Its like I set goals and then freaked out and ran over them all, ahh! 😛

My stomach hurts because of the timing of my dinner and when I took my p.m. meds. I am most definitely getting back on track tomorrow.

Its like I’ve just had far too many deep, deep thoughts about life, how short it is, what things mean to me, and God and Heaven. The Plan for Salvation. This world is getting crazier all of the time, religion or no. Violence is rampant. War is breaking out here and there, now and then. Things aren’t always viral, and widespread. Regardless, the turmoil is real. I feel that these are the latter days. The world is becoming so unfit for children now. Celebrities are baring more and more on the red carpet, like Rhianna’s little sheer get up that was on Yahoo.com which I would have otherwise never seen. Pretty soon there will be no need for nude beaches, or so it seems.

I don’t mean to be negative-just realistic tonight in the quiet.

I’ve noticed that I have been dwelling on my future a lot lately, especially the one on earth-the rest of my human existence. Wondering if I will ever get that job, that degree, make a difference? Just how prosperous is my stay on this planet going to be?

I think the answer is not in the form of paper pay-off. I know that the fruits or prosperity of my life here are the good deeds I take with me when I pass on. People will remember me by the greatness of the legacy of how I lived my life, and how I treated them. Not for my mansion, new car, record deal, or business. More importantly, God, Himself, will recognize me by my actions in this life. It is so hard to realize how short this life is compared to an eternity. I respect all people, but I don’t think I could go on without my faith in God through Christ, and the Gift of the Holy Spirit that I received upon baptism. I have faced a lot of pain because of undiagnosed and untreated mental health issues in my young life. Much happened that could have been prevented had we known. I know everything happens for a reason. The symptoms that really began to show after graduating high school at age 19 led to the office which led to the Diagnosis. A successful honor roll, straight A student, member of the National Honor Society, Drum Major of the marching band and so on and so on… I was destined for success and major achievements. Not necessarily so predictable. We aren’t all the same.

Finally, after all these years, it just dawned on me. Not everyone has to have a job or a 9 to 5, kids, and a stereotypical American-Dream-Type-Life to be natural and to be real! The many, many attempts I’ve made to change myself, alter the path of my life, going against the grain of God’s plan, and what would come in Divine time, were an uphill battle without resolution. My purpose in life just happens to be nothing like what I set out for it to be 11 years ago is all. Its not about a PhD, creating treatment plans, lectures, or even a private practice. I have come to terms with the fact that I am not a psychologist. I am a former psychology major whose path changed direction.

I am not going to settle for some type of technical training and the student loan debt that comes along with it just to have a job in this world (so I can feel normal). That is completely fine and great if that works for you though. I just know now, after fighting it for years, that my calling lies outside the school building and typical workplace. I am not sure what the future holds, but I know God holds the future. I have no idea where I will be financially etc.. in 5 years or what not. What I do know is that my marriage is stable, and Fireproof (see the movie). I found my soul mate and have known true love now for over 5 years. The other 2 certainties in my life are: I will always give my all to take care of my family, for us to remain a strong unit. Secondly, I will always have a family, even if I lose all flesh and blood, because of Jesus. The welcoming and loving embrace of a brother or sister in Christ can really heal a broken heart and bring comfort in the darkest of times.

I love writing. I love blogging-doing this. WordPress is very powerful as with it we have the world at our fingertips and can reach so, so many people in so many different places. It is truly a blessing for me. A release, a catharsis.

I am okay where I am now. We all are. We don’t have to be particular somebodies. We must take what we have and try hardest to give the world the best we have to offer. I believe you can make just as great of a difference in this world without a PhD as with one. Its all in how we carry ourselves.

Number one! Love. Share it-for in doing so you will never have too much!

Part of love is to Forgive. You will be set free and get the most out of life. Resentment is poison to the soul.

In a loving manner, with a cheerful heart, reach out to help others, lift them up. We are all brought down enough by the news, the media, and our own self doubt.

Love is the true currency of life, of wealth! I would say that about Judgement Day as well. We will leave this world with as rich of a reward as the love we held in our hearts and shared.

I am working on myself. We are all works in progress, and its not over until that last breath.

Goodnight everyone, and God bless 🙂

-Amanda