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Today’s My Spiritual Birthday!

This day, 15 years ago, I came to Christ, confessed Him before men, and was baptized into The Body. So much has happened in all this time, both good and bad, but I have grown so much from it all. To celebrate, I made these images. I think they’re pretty cool 🙂

I made these using lyrics to some of my most favorite Christian songs of today. I’ve messed up countless times in my walk with Jesus. Thank God for this:

Psalm 103:11 “For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.

He’s been with me through it all.

 

 

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You Are Someone’s Miracle

We begin as blank slates, fresh from the womb, knowing nothing, spotless. Wherever we wind up after that and a bunch of psychology to boot determines how our personality, and the very perception of ourselves develop. There is so much information, theory etc… with that sort of thing. That’s not my point tonight, though. Even on my best day, at this point in my life I would be unable to really deliver a textbook explanation.

But you know, no matter what, we are absolutely 100% able to rise above and beyond our childhoods, troubling life lessons learned the hard way throughout the years like bullying or abuse. I’m not saying it will be just wiped away from our hurting minds and hearts. What I am saying is that though you may still carry the dark or troubling events & people that have hurt you, and the fact that even now, after all these years it still stings…You can rise above it all. The lingering pain can be healed. You can come to a true place of peace in your heart, despite all the memories. The thing is, we have to do some work to find that peace and carry on that work to maintain it.

Reaching out to others, trusted loved ones, friends, family, a significant other…and professional help. I am a living testimony that therapy does work. It will work for you-but you will only reap as much as effort you put in with your counselor. Developing insight is just huge. Sometimes meds can make a dramatic impact. It may take time with trial and error as we are all made differently, but if it works for you, it is worth it. *All credit goes to Jesus Christ, The Son of God. He is the Great Physician, and the one I choose to serve. The things He has done for me I could never count on this earth.* The healing of my weary soul has everything to do with this.

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No statistics, no linking of articles or anything tonight. I just want to offer hope. That is the blessing that I have as an overcomer. If you are struggling with anything that haunts you, interfering with your daily life, and leads you to believe a lie, do not give up. Miracles happen every day. There is light within you, whether you see it or not.

You have it in you, precious soul, to be someone else’s miracle.

God bless

Salvation is free

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Be Weird.

What makes us weird can be as beautiful as a Peacock’s feathers on display! No need to be a chameleon. Let your individuality shine! 🙂

Think about it, maybe? 😉

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In the Supreme Court of my bedroom, the Mirror is the highest Judge.

All my life I’ve struggled with anxiety, but particularly body focused anxiety.

In the Supreme Court of my bedroom, the Mirror is the highest Judge.

As I slipped on the cozy, black sweater I’d bought 2 years ago, I noticed how my arms fit so smoothly, so easily into the sleeves. I could feel the loosened mid-section as well. The weight I’ve lost since then made the sweater fit better, but still yet…not to my liking.

My eyes met my reflection in our bedroom mirror, and I was cool with it as I scanned downward… Instantly, as in days of old, the imperfections stood out, as if in bright lights. My mid section, and lower abdominal area did not look appropriate for wearing that shirt, or any shirt for that matter! I was appalled. But then I noticed, I remembered. A moment of clarity! Today I have moments of clarity because of all the spiritual growth and effort put into the recovery of years ago!

In the moment of clarity, I backed away from the mirror and I thought to myself…I thought about how many insults, and self-inflicted pains I’d put on my body in younger years, and how I’m nearing 30. I am not that girl. I am a woman now with eyes wide open. Just as the dynamics of relationships change over time, so does the relationship we have with ourselves. I was not about to attack my own ship today.

I recalled this pathetic and saddening article about how a bunch of artists in New York or someplace in our country had painted on a pair of pants on this young woman. The goal was to make it look like she was wearing the tightest set of blue leggings, clinging to her skin. Well, she was wearing a thong to cover a spec of herself. To see this on my main search engine was very discouraging. Discouraging for me…and so many others. I thought the struggle was bad when I was a teen, but it seems things are so much worse for today’s youth. The shock value gets yanked up higher and higher…Pretty soon we’re gonna be off scale…

So, in conclusion, I chose not to listen to the voices of society. In a world so full of pure lust, hatred, competition, and plain evil, there are still good people around. Remember, we are all just fine as we are. I ain’t taking no crap…no mo’

I am wonderfully and fearfully made by God almighty. The Father, The Creator who has made everything from trees, to rivers, stars and flowers…made me. God knows what He’s doing. This world obviously doesn’t. The message of God is love, while the message of the world is self-hatred…and for people to love money, and love themselves more than other people.

Yes, I brought my faith into this post-simply because everything roots back to our God. My point is, would God have told me I looked ugly or stupid in my sweater? I know the 18 year old me would have shouted it!

We must remember our standards are nothing like His…God sees perfection, and sometimes we see just see defect.

We are beautiful! Celebrate yourself. 🙂

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Wearing Your Love Glasses

Let’s let go of yesterday and enjoy today. Tomorrow is not promised. So, share your love. You are the rainbow in someone else’s cloud even if unaware! :0) You are an answered prayer waiting to be delivered. There is this blessing inside of you that only you and you alone are capable of sharing with the world! Unleash your spark!

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The Spiritual Toolbox.

I sat pondering life in general the other day, and It dawned on me that I have a spiritual toolbox. I have a spiritual toolbox where I’ve stored tools and concrete plans for human life on earth that one cannot see with  eyes. Inside of this awesome and vital life accessory, you will find my prayers, my soul guidelines: my life’s lessons learned, morals and beliefs according to The Word of God in the Bible-the ideas that govern the way I choose to live my life. The instruction Manual for Salvation…Eternal Life! 🙂

Along with these, there’s record of my baptism to remind me of who I became in 1999. Of course The Word of God is at the heart of this box. I am not very knowledgeable in the Word as I could be now, but I am growing and pursuing the closest relationship with Jesus that I could ever know nowadays.

I recently read in a bible study guide (by Jennie Allen, an awesome Christian author whose work I am really beginning to admire) about how we as human beings have ideas of what we feel are our rights, and we feel strongly about our rights. Jennie wasn’t just talking about as a citizen of a nation, or in a world sense, but on a personal-living scale.

*By the way, I have come to find that for me, using a study-workbook to aid in my understanding of the Bible on a private, at home level is simply awesome! I am finding out more and more about God, growing closer to Him as He draws closer to me, and even learning about myself as a Christian because the questions and prompts in these study books really bring it out of ya.

When on the page in my study workbook asked me what I believe my rights are, a light came on.

Vanity. The quality of people who have too much pride in their own appearance, abilities, achievements, etc. : the quality of being vain.

Wow. This is the core of all of my problems. The sorrow that I’ve been reveling for the longest time (as you can even see in many of my blog posts) lies in this sin, this concept that was put in me at a very young age and I kept for the rest of my life. My priorities haven’t been straight! I’ve wanted to be somebody, when really, the somebody that i need to be is the character that I am currently developing. I have evolved as a Christian and individual this past year more than ever.

All things of this world will surely pass away.

I think that true wealth in the human sense is health. If we are achieving and maintaining health at its optimum level while living on earth, we are rich (aside from things like meaningful relationships-love and stuff). I mean, we take nothing with us in a physical sense when we pass away. All that is left here on this planet are the things we owned/possessed (Maybe things that we were once so eager to buy, or were blessed to have). Those that survive us divide those things and the circle of life continues without us.

The way we treated others, the extra mile we went for the sake of right, the energy and time we devoted to reaching out to our fellow human beings and bringing glory to God, helping each other… Deeds are the makeups of Heaven! The more work we put into love down here, the more work we will find we have put into our Heavenly home!

See Matthew 6:19-21

19“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20“But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal; 21for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

We are born here and we die here.

Contentment and Faith in my life…

Before, if I wanted something so bad which meant very much to me, In fear, I would instantly begin crossing my fingers, wishing and praying it would not slip away, and still be available when I could get it.

Worry. to think about problems or fears : to feel or show fear and concern because you think that something bad has happened or could happen.

Now at 29 I know in my heart that if there is something I am supposed to have on this earth there is no need to fear or worry over it because everything is in God’s hands. In the Bible there are verses about how God takes care of the birds of the air. They do not have to worry about what they will eat for He sees after them. Also,  the Lilies of the field are clothed so beautifully…So how much more will He do for you and I? (See Matthew 6:26-28)

Faith. strong belief or trust in someone or something. (In this case, God.)

I am in the very midst of a spiritual awakening in this moment.

Things.

Distractions and reactions.

Let us think on our own personal, unique, and Divine soul purpose.

Building things like projects, houses, or machines, vs. adding equity into my eternal home where I hope to reside forever with The Father. Love. The Trinity; Father, Son, Holy Spirit. All of God’s children will live a life that never ends, without broken hearts or bodies that break.

Forever in Paradise vs. the eternal Hell

I don’t know about you, but 99% of the time when I think of the afterlife of an eternity, I ponder on Heaven and not Hell. I grew up in a non-denominational Church of Christ where I was educated about both places in Sunday school. However, it wasn’t up until now that I’ve really give anything at all this much thought.

God has shown me this year that all I need is simply God! His Grace is sufficient for me…

2 Corinthians 12:9

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

 

I can tell when the hunger in my belly is satisfied and all that’s left is simply spiritual hunger. Its odd that they can feel the same and be so different, right? There has been a long and terrible famine of God’s Word in my life for years. I am getting back into the Bible now and in doing so I have begun to figure myself out! I did not expect it to transform me in such a huge manner because for the longest time my faith was very weak.

The Bible is not just a boring book full of ancient facts and stuff we have heard over and over and we already know (as I honestly used to think…). Once you really apply yourself and get into things, you will become enlightened in so many ways.

God bless ❤

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It’s an Inside Battle…

Saw this image in my Facebook Feed and had to share for those of you going through what I did. We can overcome the insecurities, the pain. We must just keep getting back up.

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You Are Not Beyond Hope! :)

You are not over. Do not give up or give in to the negative thoughts and struggles in this life! You can get back up. It may take a day or two, a couple of weeks, or however long-but anything is possible with God. You got this! Have a great day today, my friends!

Sending love and hugs 🙂

Amanda

 

*Image via Facebook News Feed.