Category Archives: Mental Illness

Is It All Getting to You?

Are you tired of the same old thing? Are you frustrated with your relationships, your job (or lack of)? Are you depressed and living in despair? All is bleak, you’re broken and worn. Can’t take it anymore… What’s the point of it all?


The world is hurting right now. So many people are currently facing these dead-end type of situations and obstacles in their lives. More people than you can imagine are at their wits end right now. These problems are just monumental! They are like giant walls. We cannot get around nor climb over.

It’s no coincidence. Everything has gone haywire, but the world is too busy and spinning so fast that nobody can see what’s happening before their very eyes and in their very lives. And face it. We are distracted on every side with the smart phones, tablets, all sorts of electronic gadgets. Social Media..keeping up with everyone…spending lots of time online…movies, T.V. and all…

The point is that most people don’t want to deal with it. The truth isn’t always friendly. We don’t like being told we’re wrong-at least I know I don’t. But I was wrong about it all. Then I woke up to reality and saw the world for what it really is.  And what a rude awakening is was when I realized how deep the pit was. The rut that I found myself in. I couldn’t cut it with today’s world and I was self medicating.

Making changes in our lives is quite uncomfortable. But one day I answered the door when The Lord Jesus Christ, The Son of The Living God Jehovah (The God of The Bible) came knocking. I could have ignored Him as many times before, but He came to me at a time when I just couldn’t make it anymore. I couldn’t do this thing called life. He set me free from the bondage of sin. The old me is gone forever and I’m forgiven, reconciled to God by the Blood our Lord Jesus shed on The Cross. He saved a wretch like me. If I can trust Jesus to get me out of the pit, you can too. It’s more than a decision. It’s a new way of life!

We come to God just as we are with our dirtiness and brokenness and open wounds. Then God makes us clean, BRAND NEW through Jesus Christ! You don’t come to God perfect. He accepts us as we are and erases the past!

Things are growing darker in this world today-and if you seek to know God through His Son Jesus, you will be able to see with spiritual eyes for yourself. Friend, things are only going to get worse and coming to Christ, belonging to God is the only way out. Jesus is going to come and take those that are His away from the looming 7 year Tribulation written of in the Bible, The Word of God.  The New World Order is complete but cannot be implemented until The true followers of Christ are taken out of the way. The new one-world government, currency, Mark of The Beast (in the right hand or forehead…see Revelation Chapter 13) and revealing of the Antichrist (most likely Barack Obama, see Bible Verses About The Antichrist),  Right now it’s considered “not cool” to stand for God through Jesus Christ, the ONLY WAY to God, unlike what Oprah and many other deceivers are teaching. It is considered hate speech to stand for an absolute right and believe in an absolute wrong.  Nobody wants to offend anyone…

The Time is NOW. We aren’t guaranteed another breath. Choose Jesus and eternity in Heaven this moment BEFORE The Rapture!

Those who are left behind after the Rapture of the Church (When we are caught up with Jesus) will be faced with an excruciating choice—accept the mark of the beast in order to survive or face starvation and horrific persecution by the Antichrist and his followers. But those who come to Christ during this time, those whose names are written in the Lamb’s book of life (Revelation 13:8), will choose to endure, even to martyrdom.




There’s Living Water at the Fountain of Christ for all!

No discrimination. Everyone’s welcome.

Awesome and inspiring video, listen to the song below.

*Magnified Monday*

Good morning everyone!

Everyday matters. Everyday is unique.

You woke up today, you can see, you can read.

So consider the good things as you breathe…

Let’s start our week out with some encouraging, inspiring and motivating posters. 🙂

#God #loves #you! Even if you are in the darkest hole and you think there is no way out remember this! <3

I Absolutely Love This Quote❤❤

God is our peace. Amen.

Psalm 43..."Send forth thy light and thy truth to guide me" 10X daily prayer.

Ezekiel 36:26  A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.

I Love YOU, more than the stars in the sky that I taught how to shine! You are Mine and You SHINE for Me too!

I love this verse!  What a comfort this is!  Thank you, God, for your goodness and grace!  Help me to be a better servant in 2013.

Hey, I found this really awesome Etsy listing at

And have a continuos relationship with him that changes your heart to reflect His, which transforms how you live Yes.

4,44,444? | Where Madness & Truth Collide.


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Is your life just too much, and all spiraling out of control? Mine sure was.

Lord Jesus, heal me. Heal in me whatever you see needs healing. Heal me of whatever might separate me from You. Heal my memory, heal my heart, heal my emotions, heal my spirit, heal my soul. Lay Your hands gently upon me and Heal me through Your love for me. Amen.

Do not pass by a man in need, for you may be the hand of God to him. -Proverbs 3:27

*For even better blessings and encouragement, check out the where I found my healing tab at the top of the home page here.

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Have a great week my friends!

God bless!

These Are The Days that I Will Remember When My Name is Called on The Roll

A thought came to me unexpectedly as I sat in the midst of all my twisted troubles tonight.

Don’t get caught up in all of these things. This is all temporary. Do not be distracted, or be consumed by your emotions. It’s almost reaping time. You’re going home.

The longer time goes on the more I realize that this world is not my home.

Basically this means that I am not settled in here, comfortably embracing it all. Looking forward to what the next ten years hold, the purchase of our new home, or even this spring’s landscaping…I’m just beside myself. I woke up. I chose to take Jesus’ hand and come out of my lukewarm Christian state. So, as I slowly began giving it my all, to apply my faith and walk with Jesus full time…the eyes of my heart were opened. My plans are irrelevant.  With eyes wide open, I’m watching for Jesus now.

Regardless of your religious or spiritual stance, have you really taken a look at what’s going on in our world lately? Mainstream media, non-mainstream, magazines…countless sources, but are you getting the news? Even if you are blessed to live in a quiet, little town someplace, there’s so much chaotic activity under the sun right now. If you’ve followed my blog for a while, you know that I am a very positive-natured person. I’m not pushing negativity.


All sets of ears hear the news differently. What may be devastating and awful to one set, may still  be of dark matters to another, but yet hopeful in signs of deliverance. We’re watching and waiting for Jesus. Keeping up with current world events has made me more aware of the hour I’m living in. The Truth doesn’t appeal to everyone, but it will set you free.

Back to tonight…my weary spirit was collecting anxiety over life-stuff happening in my personal world right now.

The Holy Spirit gently reminded me to not be discouraged or distracted…

I don’t have to sit in my despair anymore. I have a HUGE reason to live. Amen ❤

I was miraculously healed of a strong gambling addiction, God saved my very life in some pretty dangerous Manic states, and I’ve experienced so many great things and dear blessings along the way. He is truly LOVE. Because our Creator is LOVE itself, we are able to love.

Hallelujah 🙂

Glory to the Lamb of God

God bless everyone tonight!

And It’s Okay Now…

Child of God, are you growing weary?

Are Spiritual attacks growing in frequency and intensity like never before?

Personally, I am weary. I feel the pressure of the enemy against me more than ever.

The worse the earth does wax, the closer to the end, the tougher the journey, right?

Putting my own flesh to death in order to live and walk by the Spirit completely is very agonizing. Stepping out of years of Lukewarmness and choosing to take Jesus’ hand means surrendering everything. Giving God 100% and not 25%. This past year I finally got it. My life isn’t for me. This thing is not about me. I was created by the Lord and for Him. Everyone has a unique purpose in life given by God, and I am not ugly because my midsection is not flat. I finally accept myself for who I have become… For the things I didn’t finish. For failures. For my struggles with Bipolar disorder and Bulimia. I finally accept the truth that we all function at different levels with our mental illnesses and whatever else we are battling.

I am so relieved to say that by the end of my twenties (I turn 30 in May) I’ve finally stopped trying to be the person I planned to be, and have offered myself to God completely. May He refine me, mold me, sculpt me, and let me work for Him. I have become ready to be the person God has called me to be. The woman I was designed to be. His personal creation.

And it’s okay now.

*Image via Google, lyrics by Matt Maher (Everything and Nothing) added

More Than

This is for you tonight.

Think about it…as you scan these words.

There’s a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she’s wandered
And the shame she can’t hide

She says, “How did I get here?
I’m not who I once was.
And I’m crippled by the fear
That I’ve fallen too far to love”

But don’t you know who you are,
What’s been done for you?
Yeah don’t you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she’s been given new life
But she can’t shake the feeling
That it’s not true tonight

She knows all the answers
And she’s rehearsed all the lines
And so she’ll try to do better
But then she’s too weak to try

But don’t you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

‘Cause this is not about what you’ve done,
But what’s been done for you.
This is not about where you’ve been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

You’ve been remade
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade.

God bless you, precious one
Song lyrics by group Tenth Avenue North
*Image via Google

Ponder this

Think on this, dear one!

God bless

What I Found in the Dark.

I spent most of my childhood, teen years, and early twenties hating my body. It was never good enough. The one year that I was able to get into a single digit two-piece swimsuit, I still didn’t look like page 23 in that month’s issue of Seventeen!!!

Discrepancy is defined as… a conflict or variation, as between facts, figures, or claims

The ideal-me I dreamed up, founded on the looks of pop stars and celebrities of my time didn’t ever match up with who I really was, nor does it now…with my current appearance and who I have become. It’s so strange to now actually be okay with who I am. I have a lot of weight to lose. I can definitely relate to Kelly Clarkson right now, currently a plus sized beauty, dealing with public fat shaming. Who are these people to tell us what is beautiful and acceptable? If the fields of the earth were covered in Lilies alone, wouldn’t it be boring? Sunflowers, Daisies, Roses, Marigolds, and all the rest makeup the perfect mix the Lord created!

I didn’t get here on my own. Being above a particular weight was NOT AN OPTION at age 16 for example. Now, I’m relaxed but putting forth the effort to achieve a healthier weight. My eating disorder and body image struggles no longer govern my life. Freedom, peace…I’ve been liberated!

You might ask how?

I sought treatment of course in both private and group therapy with the aid of medication as well. Those were essential and definitely set me on the right course, but…

The keystone element, the stream in my desert that freed me from myself…was God!

In the darkest of days, it was difficult to entertain thoughts of Divine comfort and healing from God and Jesus Christ…but it did happen. Treatment for our greatest struggles in life is such a blessing, but can you imagine how much more powerful, how better an outcome there is…when the Creator of the Universe is behind it all!?!

When I let go and let God in on my treatment, things got better. Not overnight, or even in a few months. Its different for everyone, but when I began actually trying to have a relationship with Him on my end of the line, praying and seeking His Truth…My wounds began to slowly close up-and over time, no more “Band-aids.” Patience. I was restless and ready to move on with my life. So tired of devoting so much time and effort into therapy and learning to love myself. But, you know, it paid off.

Along the road to Recovery, as I walked with God I became enlightened. One night when I had my Bible out I stumbled upon this verse that changed me forever.

Psalm 139:14…


God is the Great Physician, the Greatest Artist..a Father to the fatherless, a husband to the husband-less. The Lord God Almighty fills in those holes you and I know all too well. I spent so much time searching for something to complete me, to make me acceptable. I had no clue that It was there all along.

Just thought I’d share this as a little encouragement to everyone tonight. My prayer is that you will step back and consider your worth, your beauty.

God bless always


When I Messed Up

I made a mistake tonight, nothing huge, but it really hurt. What I did really stole my joy within a couple of moments thereafter. And then it hit me. I had a very inspiring thought which was obviously from the Holy Spirit within me… I questioned my pain, unlike ever in my existence. I rationalized in Spirit that the hurt I was experiencing was nothing. Maybe some years back I would’ve remained devastated for a very long period of time, replaying it all in my mind. Not now. For it is now that I have an understanding that there is far more than this. The pain endured in this world while we are alive for an uncertain amount of years cannot be compared to the Glory that is to be revealed to us later. At this point in my life I’m able to let go of my mistakes more easily and sometimes more quickly. I see the suffering in the world. The depression, panic, anxieties, poverty, wars, persecution, evil…I wouldn’t trade this acquired wisdom for anything. Oh, how the world needs more love. More compassion and patience.

This past year, I have become so very much closer to my Maker, God Almighty, my first Love. This faith explosion in the deepest parts of my heart, in all of my innermost being has really changed my life. If you’re wondering how this happened, it all began in July 2014 when I went shopping for clothes. I found a few beautiful pieces on sale in a very popular clothing store, known for its quality and great deals. Anyway, after I’d been home for while, I realized that at the particular time I was living in, I didn’t need all 3. I felt like I could’ve used my money in a better way. My husband drove me back to the store, I ran inside and got a refund on 2 of the 3 pieces. It was difficult to let these go (especially because of the difficulty to find such great clothing actually in store and not online in a plus size.)

My husband suggested we go someplace different. We wound up at this huge retail park behind the city mall. I had no clue where to go until he was like “Why don’t you go into that Christian bookstore?” A light came on inside and the idea was very exciting.  So I went in. I came out with a Bible study workbook for women called Stuck, by Christian author Jennie Allen. It was the cover that sold me, and I was truly stuck at the time. It was the first actual way that I ever sought to study the Bible for myself, alone, outside of Church. Oh boy, this Study-book was the beginning of great things!

I began diving deeper into God’s Word. When I would share Scripture online on those cute, motivational posters, the times I looked things up that referenced to various verses & parts of the Bible, I looked for myself to verify it.

Following the birth of my first real journey in the Word, was the adding of more Christian songs to my Spotify playlists. I discovered all sorts of new music by artists I’d never heard of. God literally put a new song in my heart. Free-falling into a full-time Christian lifestyle was a gradual process. We are on this journey and forever growing closer to Him and learning. My hope, my faith, my determination…Everything grew.

I set out to create a post to encourage others tonight because the world is hurting right now.  We are all dealing with something…I see the search engine terms on my blog stats. Many people are searching with the word depression. I want you to know that I, and billions of others are suffering with you tonight. I hope these posters that I gathered online will offer some encouragement tonight.

God bless you, precious ones.













Your Valentine’s Day 2015

“There’s something I can’t see
There’s something different in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And there’s nothing I can say
’cause I’m never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide”

Behind Those Eyes lyrics, 3 Doors Down

It’s 12:33 a.m. and Valentine’s Day has come to a close for 2015. So, whether yours was typical/idealistic, maybe still happening..haha…or sucky and depressing…Remember this:

Though the truth can hurt…it is also liberating.

Think about it.

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