The weight of a heavy heart can break a person down just as that of thick, iron chains made to bind someone to prison walls. Many people around the world are made prisoners to captors unseen. There’s a war going on inside of us, too. One put down, one insecurity, in a world where there is shown to be only one particular way to look to be beautiful, and one definition of success…
Father, We are crying out to you!
We are hurting so much down here with our families and friends in Israel, Iraq, Ukraine and other places, suffering beyond measure! They are running for their lives, just trying to survive, and facing torture and execution in the rawest forms. In this war-torn world full of evil, power hungry men, some hiding behind religion, there are also people fighting wars at home. Wars inside of them.
There are wars of the heart, and in the human mind. At home, someone is alone in their bedroom, isolating. In the bathroom, someone is loathing the person before their eyes, their reflection. People are destroying themselves in places where there is no war (at least not yet). It’s suicide. People become so overwhelmed and they hurt inside so strongly, believing they cannot go on at all. So many human beings have chosen and continue to choose to leave this world of hurt, and the exhausting, draining self hatred felt.
There are a million reasons why someone would take their own life.
Sometimes the pain stems from horrific childhood experiences, abuse, bullying and name calling, feeling unworthy, and not like the others. Painful trauma during the developmental years of adolescence is really difficult to let go of because its such a tender time period. We are trying to figure out who we are in high school, to fit in or be accepted, learning more about our sexuality, finding ourselves fitting into various circles of friends- larger circles, smaller, more intimate groups, or perhaps the loner life. The majority of us seem to experience our first taste of heartbreak (I know we break hearts, and our hearts get broken). We are rejected by that person that we adore, dream, or fantasize about. Then we further question ourselves. What is wrong with me? This of course also applies to group situations like the participation in extracurricular activities, clubs, and events of ‘cliques’ that we don’t quite make the cut for. Yeah, high school sucks… Well, not for everyone though.
The stress that comes along after graduating with going to college, finding a job (college or no of course), making a living and such, is yet another significant and trying time in the lives of adults. However, not everyone lives out the societal image of success, nor does the same things. I know I didn’t. The whole college, job, career, fancy car, happy marriage, nice house, healthy kids, and the white, picket fence to top if off is a fantasy. I’m guessing most of these people who are living the dream are also living with student loans out the butt, car payments, struggles in the home like everyone else (sometimes marriage counseling), a mortgage, and the major costs and cares of their offspring like insurance, college, and whatever else.
There are a billion other paths to take in the journey of life. Mine is nothing like the American Dream. That’s what it is nowadays. All of that stuff really is a dream now.
So yeah, life is a stressful thing. We all tolerate stress in our own way. I have a very short circuit myself. There are psychiatric disorders or mental illnesses that affect the lives of so many people worldwide. Many people suffer from depression, or like myself, Bipolar disorder (manic depression with extreme highs and then the darkest lows). All of these really mess with our minds, our lives, how we see things, and how we handle life. There are tons of physical illnesses alive in this world. I know people who battle cancer, diabetes, and a few other things. Both illnesses of the mind and the body can make us want to just escape our bodies, our minds, ourselves.
This world is hurting so bad right now. In some parts of the world we worry about our children getting beheaded or blown away, while in others we worry about shootings in schools, cyber bullying, and all sorts of other stuff. The kids that are blessed to still be living where the privilege of the internet and all other technologies are available, are in danger in yet another way. Online predators are after our kids. Also, these days we don’t have to pay for nasty television channels to be added to our cable. We get these horribly, nasty reality shows like the one recently added on VH1 that I will not mention. This is America? The President really needs to take a look at what he’s letting the little children, aka future leaders, have access to with the TV remote. YouTube is getting just as raunchy. I’m not even going to go there. It can be informative and helpful, but like anything else it can be used for the wrong things.
Our children are hurting one way or another, and from the lowest to the greatest and most horrific extremity, its just never been this evil…
People hate themselves because they do not measure up to the likes of stars in the lime light. Reality TV stars, thriving singers, actors, and many different celebrities are all over the place. They are on the magazine stands while we wait in line. We look down at those chocolate cakes in our shopping carts and then think twice… It’s not just weight. They are on our children’s smartphones and in their Beats By Dre headphones…(I’m not judging, I have a pair). We compare ourselves to things that aren’t real, and not always on a conscious level.
To sum all of this up, in my opinion, people are killing people, one way or another. People can be destroyed just as easily with the media, society, and what they are told they need to be or aren’t, just as sure as with an assault rifle or blade. They tell us what lives must consist of to be successful. As we know, in the suffering countries where war is everywhere, people are killing people in horrific manners, there is so much pain, and injustice. Its growing and growing. Its getting to be too much.
There is a battle for the spirit. Warriors in the Body of Christ its time we stand up for our fellow man. Let us come together and pray for those in these terrorist situations that are out of our hands. I get so frustrated and angry with the earth that we live on. This world is not fit for children like it used to be. I am not a pessimist, I am just speaking with my eyes wide open. I’m crying out to God. We are down here! I know He hasn’t given up on us. There is a reward for the faithful.
There is also a judgement of God awaiting those who kill. Those who are the opposite of love…
I am in no position to go any further.
Note: If you are suffering and feel it far too much to go on, considering suicide, or anything, please go
The website you will find here is for everyone around the world. So no matter where you are you will be able to find help when in crisis and get information. Your life is far more precious than you know. You have something this world needs or you would not have been sent here. You are breathing, your mission is incomplete. God bless you, dear one.