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Lasting Investments

Growing up I was always looking for something bigger. A greater meaning. You know like they say, “More than this.”

But now at 30 years old I know why. I see clearly know why I have always longed for more, for something else.

This world is not my home. My body wasn’t created for the clothing of this planet or its ideal woman body type and swimsuit figure.

There’s music running through my veins, songs that I can’t sing here…because I don’t know all the words. Once a Christian is living in Heaven in the new incorruptible body, there’s no sin, nor any mortal limits. I have the dance inside of me, but I can’t perform it out in the mortal body I currently operate in.  My body is not me. The body does not reflect who I am. My spirit does. The way I treat other human beings, the way I spend my time, the words I choose when I speak. What’s actually in my heart.

Kindness trumps being a single digit jean size at every moment.

When I was a kid I always heard adults say that it’s what’s on the inside that counts. I thought they were out of their mind and just trying to make us all feel better. I was wrong. Friend, it really IS what’s on the inside that counts.

Because it’s what is inside of you that LIVES ON eternally.

Believe it or not, you are a spirit being. You just have a temporary, mortal body of flesh for now. There are 2 eternal worlds.

It seems like so many people live their lives on fast forward in today’s world. They work overtime to pay the bills, the rent/mortgage and try to do the best they can. Looking forward to the summer vacation (if they are financially able to do so), and counting on that 401K unawares to the future ahead.  And it is all temporal.

Houses break and need fixing. Vacations don’t last and neither do the souvenirs. Make memories… Invest in the lives of your children, families, or spouse.  Investments like those are everlasting. The good things we leave behind us when we go are later exchanged for Heavenly rewards and Crowns. We are saved by Grace through faith, but we can’t harbor hatred and ill feelings toward others inside. We are to love others and love God with all our hearts. The first time I heard that, I was like uh-oh!!! I had some envy and bitterness, a few grudges on my back. I believed in my heart there was NO WAY I could possibly love EVERY one! Later on as I walked with Jesus, I found that we must, and we can!

Ezekiel 36:26-27 (KJV)

26 A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.

27 And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them.


We just have to ask God The Father for the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, for Him to change us because we can’t do it ourselves. I have a new nature right now because of HIS work. I TRULY had stone in my heart! But Jesus made me new!!! If there’s something that you believe is just impossible to change or overcome, it is..without Jesus. Come to Christ today and find peace and healing. Find Salvation for eternity at The Cross 🙂


You are loved more than you could ever know by God and our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! The Rapture is about to happen any moment now. Jesus is taking His Church out before the 7 year Tribulation. We are at the end of the story of man.





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What Love Feels Like

He’s my Answer.  He’s the bear-hug I need after a horrible letdown. Though I can’t feel Him against my skin, I feel Him deep inside my soul. It’s a closeness that can’t be described-instead it must be felt first hand.

His love is unending and truly unconditional. He will never leave me or betray me. I am 100% guaranteed that He has my back 24/7 and I can call Him anytime of day or night without disturbing Him. In fact, He delights in hearing from me. He is jealous for me. He loves when I take time out of my day to spend even a few minutes with Him.

Nobody else in this world could ever understand me the way He does. He always knows exactly what I’m thinking and why I do the things I do. Even when I break His heart or fail Him, He loves me still. He is ever forgiving. I can’t count the times I’ve come back running into His arms.

He adores me. He would give His life for me.

In fact…He already did.

I am free from addiction, no longer a slave to it. I am no longer the rejected. My life has purpose and I have a true reason to live. Oh, at what a little faith can do… Only by His Blood was I set free…It all died with Him.

What if you cry out His Name?

I promise He will meet you right where you are.

 If life is too much and you can’t go on…Call upon the name of JESUS tonight in prayer! This is more than a single prayer. This is the beginning of a new walk and way of life. A walk with Jesus as your life’s focal point. You will find peace and healing, hope and forgiveness.
Then get into a Bible based Church and be water baptized as was Jesus for our example in the Gospel of Matthew.
Jesus is about to come back for His Church any moment now! Repent now! The 7 year Tribulation is about to happen after Jesus comes for His True Church, His Bride. This is why everything is going haywire on the global front with terrorism etc! Good is being called evil and evil is called good.
If you need to talk, I am here for you any time. Message me. God bless you.



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Never Will I Stop Singing.

Ever feel alone in your walk with The Lord in the physical sense among other human beings?

I have, and I do. So tonight I made this little poster. Image via Google & words by myself. Hope this inspires you. God bless everyone tonight.

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Today’s My Spiritual Birthday!

This day, 15 years ago, I came to Christ, confessed Him before men, and was baptized into The Body. So much has happened in all this time, both good and bad, but I have grown so much from it all. To celebrate, I made these images. I think they’re pretty cool 🙂

I made these using lyrics to some of my most favorite Christian songs of today. I’ve messed up countless times in my walk with Jesus. Thank God for this:

Psalm 103:11 “For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.

He’s been with me through it all.



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My Thanksgiving Day 2014

Surrounded by those I love, with an awesome dinner. Life is about spending time with your family, or those you hold dear. They’re all you have when its said and done. Jesus said for us to Love one another. I’m so blessed for this crew! I thank God for the wonderful dinner, and our wellness etc.. but most that we are together, and able to share and experience love.

In all honesty…

Facing the closet brought about a strong episode of Body focused anxiety. I looked great, the khaki pants matched the beautiful quarter-sleeved, navy blouse…but I felt restricted in those pants (even though they were bigger than 3 weeks ago). So…I uttered a few nasty words, screamed while alone in our bedroom getting dressed. It never fails. I am not giving up. I am no slave to food or anything. I am a child of God, and NO weapon formed against me shall prosper. I am making a way for the treadmill this weekend as the snow is getting ready to set in!

So.. Here we are!

My hubby took this pic. I have a few more, but I like the way this one turned out. This year’s crowd here was very small, but the atmosphere was beyond great in measure of love!

Left to right: My Aunt B, her son and my 1st cuz Mark, my momma, and then me. In the front is our leader. My Happy Grandma! That woman is the sunshine in the family! She turns 90 next year! 🙂 I am very thankful that I shared this year’s dinner with her! It is great to be home!

I’m blessed abundantly in matters of basic, human needs like a good place to live/shelter, a means of transportation, physically, other than the weight drama, I am alright. I have the meds I need to live a stable life, and because of my faith, because of Jesus, I am not only living a stable life, but far more a fulfilling one. Praise God for the goodness he provides and all His Mercy.

I am most rich in love, and things invisible. People matter most to me. So do my dogs, which are living beings-not accessories! 🙂 I believe they have souls as well-their own something. I know love. I have always known love. I know freedom, and I have always been free.  I am doing pretty good right now in matters of the mind. I have insecurities, but I am thankful for my insurance that makes a way for me to get to therapy and see my doctors. Healthcare is a blessing. My very own health is a blessing.

My prayers are with all of my family in Christ in the east, the Jewish people, and everyone being persecuted. You are not forgotten. We pray for you continually, and send love with our prayers. I realize I am blessed in such great ways that I cannot even understand. I love all of you.

I am thankful for my fellow Bloggers! You guys are awesome! Enjoy your weekend!



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The President & The Bible. Really?

In the Immigration speech to America, why is President Obama quoting the Hebrew Bible, with “Scripture tells us we shall not oppress a stranger for we know the heart of a stranger — we were strangers once, too.” (Exodus 23:9)?

Remember back when…

“One of the great strengths of the United States is … we have a very large Christian population — we do not consider ourselves a Christian nation or a Jewish nation or a Muslim nation. We consider ourselves a nation of citizens who are bound by ideals and a set of values.”

So, in a nation where Christians are getting in trouble with the law for prayer, discrimination, pro-life/anti-abortion stances etc…why did Obama quote a verse from the  Bible? Why is this significant enough for him to add or use now?
I believe we are to respect our leaders, but this is just a point that I find irritating.


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10 Reasons People Don’t Go to Church

Check this out…


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A Heart Like Mine…

So many times in life I have felt misunderstood. For a very long time I felt I wasn’t good enough-I let other people, particularly teenage boys, tell me my worth. I felt fat and hideous. In reality, I was very, very beautiful- and radiant. I watched a couple of home videos the other night, dreading the on-screen-me. It was as plain as day in my mind the chubby teen I would see. Upon watching these clips I sat in shock. I had no idea I looked like this! I was far smaller than I imagined. I most definitely have been dealing with true Body Dysmorphic Disorder all my life. If only I could go back and live it over, knowing everything I had going for me… But I choose to focus on the road ahead now. I’ve been changed.

Adolescence was so difficult. Looking back, of course I now know that I was undiagnosed with Bipolar disorder. Even as far as 3rd grade I can recall being very depressed. In the midst of all of that I had no clue there was a far brighter future for me. I am sure if that truth existed then it does even now. There is more. I am sure of it.

So… In case you haven’t read yet…

There’s this song by country singer Miranda Lambert called “Heart Like Mine” in which she sings about being far from perfect but having confidence that Jesus understands. I suppose it can be taken in different ways, but for me this song is not about saying its okay to drink a lot or whatever. This song is how I feel. Liberated. Somebody finally gets me! Jesus once walked this earth in human form.

Watch Miranda share her take on the song and perform it in a private acoustic session.

Lyrics below.

“Heart Like Mine”

I ain’t the kind you take home to mama
I ain’t the kind to wear no ring
Somehow I always get stronger
When I’m on my second drinkEven though I hate to admit it
Sometimes I smoke cigarettes
The Christian folks say I should quit it
And I just smile and say “God Bless”Cause I heard Jesus He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand a heart like mineDaddy cried when he saw my tattoo
But said he loved me anyway
My brother got the brains of the family
So I thought I’d learn to singCause I heard Jesus He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand a heart like mine

I’ll fly away from it all one day
And I’ll fly away
These are the days that I will remember
When my names called on a roll
He’ll meet me with two long-stemmed glasses
And make a toast to me coming home

Cause I heard Jesus He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand
Understand a heart like mine
Oh yes He would