Category Archives: Body Dysmorphic Disorder


Post by Lynn Cowell

The gate called Beautiful might be the scale we hope will tell us the right number, the gym we join to become the right size or the mall we cruise through looking for the right outfit.

We go to the gate Beautiful and there we beg for what we need for that day: acceptance, approval and affirmation. It’s not enough to sustain us, though. Tomorrow, searching again, we’ll return.

With the power of the Holy Spirit we can say: “No more!” No more will we beg when Christ died to give us the acceptance we need. Let’s take His hand and look to Him each day for strength and approval.

You are perfect just the way God made you. That’s enough. You’re enough, precious one.



There’s Living Water at the Fountain of Christ for all!

No discrimination. Everyone’s welcome.

Awesome and inspiring video, listen to the song below.

And It’s Okay Now…

Child of God, are you growing weary?

Are Spiritual attacks growing in frequency and intensity like never before?

Personally, I am weary. I feel the pressure of the enemy against me more than ever.

The worse the earth does wax, the closer to the end, the tougher the journey, right?

Putting my own flesh to death in order to live and walk by the Spirit completely is very agonizing. Stepping out of years of Lukewarmness and choosing to take Jesus’ hand means surrendering everything. Giving God 100% and not 25%. This past year I finally got it. My life isn’t for me. This thing is not about me. I was created by the Lord and for Him. Everyone has a unique purpose in life given by God, and I am not ugly because my midsection is not flat. I finally accept myself for who I have become… For the things I didn’t finish. For failures. For my struggles with Bipolar disorder and Bulimia. I finally accept the truth that we all function at different levels with our mental illnesses and whatever else we are battling.

I am so relieved to say that by the end of my twenties (I turn 30 in May) I’ve finally stopped trying to be the person I planned to be, and have offered myself to God completely. May He refine me, mold me, sculpt me, and let me work for Him. I have become ready to be the person God has called me to be. The woman I was designed to be. His personal creation.

And it’s okay now.

*Image via Google, lyrics by Matt Maher (Everything and Nothing) added

More Than

This is for you tonight.

Think about it…as you scan these words.

There’s a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she’s wandered
And the shame she can’t hide

She says, “How did I get here?
I’m not who I once was.
And I’m crippled by the fear
That I’ve fallen too far to love”

But don’t you know who you are,
What’s been done for you?
Yeah don’t you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she’s been given new life
But she can’t shake the feeling
That it’s not true tonight

She knows all the answers
And she’s rehearsed all the lines
And so she’ll try to do better
But then she’s too weak to try

But don’t you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

‘Cause this is not about what you’ve done,
But what’s been done for you.
This is not about where you’ve been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.

You’ve been remade
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade.

God bless you, precious one
Song lyrics by group Tenth Avenue North
*Image via Google

Ponder this

Think on this, dear one!

God bless

What I Found in the Dark.

I spent most of my childhood, teen years, and early twenties hating my body. It was never good enough. The one year that I was able to get into a single digit two-piece swimsuit, I still didn’t look like page 23 in that month’s issue of Seventeen!!!

Discrepancy is defined as… a conflict or variation, as between facts, figures, or claims

The ideal-me I dreamed up, founded on the looks of pop stars and celebrities of my time didn’t ever match up with who I really was, nor does it now…with my current appearance and who I have become. It’s so strange to now actually be okay with who I am. I have a lot of weight to lose. I can definitely relate to Kelly Clarkson right now, currently a plus sized beauty, dealing with public fat shaming. Who are these people to tell us what is beautiful and acceptable? If the fields of the earth were covered in Lilies alone, wouldn’t it be boring? Sunflowers, Daisies, Roses, Marigolds, and all the rest makeup the perfect mix the Lord created!

I didn’t get here on my own. Being above a particular weight was NOT AN OPTION at age 16 for example. Now, I’m relaxed but putting forth the effort to achieve a healthier weight. My eating disorder and body image struggles no longer govern my life. Freedom, peace…I’ve been liberated!

You might ask how?

I sought treatment of course in both private and group therapy with the aid of medication as well. Those were essential and definitely set me on the right course, but…

The keystone element, the stream in my desert that freed me from myself…was God!

In the darkest of days, it was difficult to entertain thoughts of Divine comfort and healing from God and Jesus Christ…but it did happen. Treatment for our greatest struggles in life is such a blessing, but can you imagine how much more powerful, how better an outcome there is…when the Creator of the Universe is behind it all!?!

When I let go and let God in on my treatment, things got better. Not overnight, or even in a few months. Its different for everyone, but when I began actually trying to have a relationship with Him on my end of the line, praying and seeking His Truth…My wounds began to slowly close up-and over time, no more “Band-aids.” Patience. I was restless and ready to move on with my life. So tired of devoting so much time and effort into therapy and learning to love myself. But, you know, it paid off.

Along the road to Recovery, as I walked with God I became enlightened. One night when I had my Bible out I stumbled upon this verse that changed me forever.

Psalm 139:14…


God is the Great Physician, the Greatest Artist..a Father to the fatherless, a husband to the husband-less. The Lord God Almighty fills in those holes you and I know all too well. I spent so much time searching for something to complete me, to make me acceptable. I had no clue that It was there all along.

Just thought I’d share this as a little encouragement to everyone tonight. My prayer is that you will step back and consider your worth, your beauty.

God bless always


Satisfying Your Deepest Desire With God, Not Food…

“Sweet friend, I know how it feels to want to completely shut down when life gets challenging and things happen that we don’t understand. But if we pull away from praying, reading our Bible and going to church in hard times – we just suffer. If we stay committed to doing those things that keep us connected with God, we will experience an intimacy and power in the midst of our suffering we can’t get any other way.”

Lysa TerKeurst

I love this woman! I feel like somebody I’ve never met, completely gets me!

I found Recovery from Bulimia at 22, I’m almost 30. I purchased the book below in an attempt to find some extra Divine Inspiration in the struggling going on in my life…and boy, was this book from God!!!

Here’s the book & description from the website

Made To Crave (Book)

$16.99 USD

Craving isn’t a bad thing.
Has food become more about frustration than fulfillment? Made To Crave is the missing link between a woman’s desire to be healthy and the spiritual empowerment necessary to make that happen. Author, Lysa TerKeurst, personally understands the battle that women face. In Made To Crave, she will help you:
  • Break the cycle of “I’ll start again on Monday,” and feel good about yourself today.
  • Stop agonizing over numbers on the scale and make peace with your body.
  • Replace rationalization that lead to diet failure with wisdom that leads to victory.
  • Reach your healthy goals and grow closer to God through the process.

This book is not a how-to manual or the latest, greatest dieting plan, Made To Crave is a helpful companion to use alongside whatever healthy eating approach you choose-a book and Bible study to help you find the “want to” in how to make healthy lifestyle changes.

Join Lysa and experience all that you were made to crave!

Check the other Made To Crave products: DVD and Participant’s Guide

Yes! Why didn’t I think of that? haha

I CAN satisfy my deepest desire with God and not food!

The world may tell us we don’t measure up, but God says we are fearfully and wonderfully made. It’s taken me from adolescence up until now to realize that the people who we idolize and set the bar for beauty in women, the standard and sex appeal…are NOT the kind of people we should really be taking advice from. Some of them don’t seem to be the kind of friend I would even want to have. Ever think of that?

You are priceless, dear one.

For the brokenhearted, struggling woman

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I found all of these on Google and have no idea who made them. I adore them though! They are so encouraging. I hope they inspire and comfort anyone reading. Letters from Jesus…

God bless you, always.

Go Get My Children…

Brothers & Sisters, do not grow weary. We must keep fighting the good fight until He returns. Jesus, coming in the clouds will be a terrifying shock for some, and a long awaited, sigh of relief for God’s children. So much hate, evil, and war in this world… It can’t be very long now, but only God knows the hour…Lets thank Him for blessing our country with the freedoms that we have, and pray that our nation will not fall—that He won’t give up on America, though it seems to really be giving up on Him. God bless everyone today.


creatordoctorGodChurch is not only a building and the House of God, the House of Worship, but Church is also a spiritual hospital.

When I go to Church I go not just to Church, but to the House of the One that provides Living Water so we will never thirst again.

Just as our bodies need checkups and maintenance, so do our innermost selves. Church is where you can find your deepest healing.  Medicine is within The Bible. That’s nourishment for the spirits of men until Jesus comes back for His Bride.  Famine in the Word of God will starve a soul, like a famine in the flesh can starve us to death in that manner.

A Church isn’t a Church without the Body of Christ inside of the building. When you gather among your brothers and sisters, the ember within you that is nearly gone out is then ignited with the Fire of Love. God is Love.

It is so easy to act out of anger, and to lie down in our sadness. But when we seek Jesus, walking with Him, following the Truth…it gets easier taming the flesh that we’re in. No matter how bad it hurts, you can get back up. Not because of your own unseen inner strength, but by the Great loving mercy of God Almighty.  God can do more for a soul in one day than any human being can in an entire lifetime.

He’s a refuge in a world gone bonkers. He’s the steady hand and a warm embrace in the midst of global warfare.

God bless everyone, have a great weekend!


*Images via Google