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Ever Wonder?

 

 

 

Inner peace. Rest. Healing. Comfort. Restoration. Transformation. All things are possible with God. Jesus can do it for you. This clip is of proof of His love and Power. Amen.

Come to the fountain of Living Water today and never thirst again.

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What Love Feels Like

He’s my Answer.  He’s the bear-hug I need after a horrible letdown. Though I can’t feel Him against my skin, I feel Him deep inside my soul. It’s a closeness that can’t be described-instead it must be felt first hand.

His love is unending and truly unconditional. He will never leave me or betray me. I am 100% guaranteed that He has my back 24/7 and I can call Him anytime of day or night without disturbing Him. In fact, He delights in hearing from me. He is jealous for me. He loves when I take time out of my day to spend even a few minutes with Him.

Nobody else in this world could ever understand me the way He does. He always knows exactly what I’m thinking and why I do the things I do. Even when I break His heart or fail Him, He loves me still. He is ever forgiving. I can’t count the times I’ve come back running into His arms.

He adores me. He would give His life for me.

In fact…He already did.

I am free from addiction, no longer a slave to it. I am no longer the rejected. My life has purpose and I have a true reason to live. Oh, at what a little faith can do… Only by His Blood was I set free…It all died with Him.

What if you cry out His Name?

I promise He will meet you right where you are.

 If life is too much and you can’t go on…Call upon the name of JESUS tonight in prayer! This is more than a single prayer. This is the beginning of a new walk and way of life. A walk with Jesus as your life’s focal point. You will find peace and healing, hope and forgiveness.
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Then get into a Bible based Church and be water baptized as was Jesus for our example in the Gospel of Matthew.
Jesus is about to come back for His Church any moment now! Repent now! The 7 year Tribulation is about to happen after Jesus comes for His True Church, His Bride. This is why everything is going haywire on the global front with terrorism etc! Good is being called evil and evil is called good.
If you need to talk, I am here for you any time. Message me. God bless you.

 

 

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For the brokenhearted, struggling woman

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I found all of these on Google and have no idea who made them. I adore them though! They are so encouraging. I hope they inspire and comfort anyone reading. Letters from Jesus…

God bless you, always.

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The New Route

 

Over this month of February, I have begun to really study the Bible. I have been looking through the Word of God concerning prophecy and the times that we are living in today (that’s not what this post is about). With the help of intelligent Bible teachers & like minded fellow Christians, I’m getting deeper into it all, more knowledgeable. I have become very passionate about what I am doing in all research, Biblical study, how history applies to what’s happening now in our world. Whenever I wake up, be from a nap or night’s sleep, I feel this great sense of excitement for another day. Another day to jump back into God’s Word. Into the Truth. Into Prophecy. Into how I should live my life.

My prayer life with God is growing. I can feel some of the doubt that the Enemy has put around me or in my ear, slowly melting away. The more time I spend with The Father, the closer we become. I keep praying to be consumed by Him, for understanding, remembrance, and His help in the application of His Word in my daily life.

I am just living in awe. The Bible has ‘come to life’ for me. There are so many things, parts, & verses that I have never seen. Then I have actually found many of the ones I’ve heard all my life in Church, and of course, highlighted them. My shiny, black Bible is no longer straight, rigid, and looking brand new. Even the outward look of my copy of The Word has been transformed. There are tabs within regarding different subjects. I’m now into highlighting as I mentioned. It is so helpful! Finally, I am actually writing tiny notes or things on the side or in convenient, blank places throughout the Scripture. This is so different…

I want more.

I have more joy tonight than ever. The Bipolar struggles, eating disorder, severe body focused anxiety (with closet phobia/getting dressed), Body Dysmorphic disorder, and the desire to just be accepted…along with Vanity, fueled by Satan himself are fading out. I am not perfect. I am not healed for life. Recovery and happiness must be tended to daily and for as long as we live. My college days were so empty as I tried to find meaning, a feeling of importance & acceptance in my life. Friendships were shady, romances collapsed, and the Bipolar disorder ripped me out of what I had known for 18 years to be my life. In case you haven’t read yet, I was hospitalized 4 times in 2004 for severe Manias.

The beginning of my greatest victory came in the fall of 2012, 8 years later. I wasn’t very serious about it, (and in fact thought it to be funny) but I applied for a job at that same mental hospital . I had wrestled with PTSD from that place for years, and there I was sitting  at orientation with a bunch of other former psych majors/graduates. It was so surreal. Of course, things weren’t going as well for me in 2012 as they are now, so I left the same day that I received my key to the Adult Unit. Human Resources pleaded with me to stay, but I left. My self esteem was so low. It was like the latter part of college all over again. Plus, I hadn’t really interacted with society in a long time. So I really jumped in deep!

Regardless of how it all played out, to me I was victorious! I felt I had conquered the place that I feared for so long. The place where the darkest part of my life began. Still yet…the place that saved my life.

It was so crazy. It was like a dream…Technically, I didn’t “work there” as I didn’t stay. But the fact that I nailed both interviews, landed the job, and got hired meant so much to me.

My point:

Never sell yourself short. You don’t know what God has planned for you.

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When I Messed Up

I made a mistake tonight, nothing huge, but it really hurt. What I did really stole my joy within a couple of moments thereafter. And then it hit me. I had a very inspiring thought which was obviously from the Holy Spirit within me… I questioned my pain, unlike ever in my existence. I rationalized in Spirit that the hurt I was experiencing was nothing. Maybe some years back I would’ve remained devastated for a very long period of time, replaying it all in my mind. Not now. For it is now that I have an understanding that there is far more than this. The pain endured in this world while we are alive for an uncertain amount of years cannot be compared to the Glory that is to be revealed to us later. At this point in my life I’m able to let go of my mistakes more easily and sometimes more quickly. I see the suffering in the world. The depression, panic, anxieties, poverty, wars, persecution, evil…I wouldn’t trade this acquired wisdom for anything. Oh, how the world needs more love. More compassion and patience.

This past year, I have become so very much closer to my Maker, God Almighty, my first Love. This faith explosion in the deepest parts of my heart, in all of my innermost being has really changed my life. If you’re wondering how this happened, it all began in July 2014 when I went shopping for clothes. I found a few beautiful pieces on sale in a very popular clothing store, known for its quality and great deals. Anyway, after I’d been home for while, I realized that at the particular time I was living in, I didn’t need all 3. I felt like I could’ve used my money in a better way. My husband drove me back to the store, I ran inside and got a refund on 2 of the 3 pieces. It was difficult to let these go (especially because of the difficulty to find such great clothing actually in store and not online in a plus size.)

My husband suggested we go someplace different. We wound up at this huge retail park behind the city mall. I had no clue where to go until he was like “Why don’t you go into that Christian bookstore?” A light came on inside and the idea was very exciting.  So I went in. I came out with a Bible study workbook for women called Stuck, by Christian author Jennie Allen. It was the cover that sold me, and I was truly stuck at the time. It was the first actual way that I ever sought to study the Bible for myself, alone, outside of Church. Oh boy, this Study-book was the beginning of great things!

I began diving deeper into God’s Word. When I would share Scripture online on those cute, motivational posters, the times I looked things up that referenced to various verses & parts of the Bible, I looked for myself to verify it.

Following the birth of my first real journey in the Word, was the adding of more Christian songs to my Spotify playlists. I discovered all sorts of new music by artists I’d never heard of. God literally put a new song in my heart. Free-falling into a full-time Christian lifestyle was a gradual process. We are on this journey and forever growing closer to Him and learning. My hope, my faith, my determination…Everything grew.

I set out to create a post to encourage others tonight because the world is hurting right now.  We are all dealing with something…I see the search engine terms on my blog stats. Many people are searching with the word depression. I want you to know that I, and billions of others are suffering with you tonight. I hope these posters that I gathered online will offer some encouragement tonight.

God bless you, precious ones.

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Service dog helps treat mental illness

Article & image via International Bipolar Foundation

by Emily McConville

“Junior Ellen Chaleff’s dog, a Dachshund/rat terrier mix named Fred, is there when she wakes up in the morning. He’s there, wearing an NYPD coat, when she walks between classes. He’s there when she sits in class, when she eats at the dining hall, when she’s at Ultimate Frisbee practice and when she goes to bed at night.

And if Chaleff has a panic attack, he’s also there, curled up on her lap until it passes.

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The first service dog for mental illness on campus, Fred has been at Notre Dame with Chaleff since last Halloween. Chaleff, who began showing symptoms of bipolar disorder in high school, said she found out about him after he was rescued from an abusive home. He already had training as an emotional support dog, making him easier to train further as a service animal. Professionals trained him to help with bipolar disorder, and Chaleff said she did the rest…”

To read the rest, CLICK HERE

Check out Ellen Chaleff’s blog HERE


 

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Service Dog Central is a community of service dog partners and trainers working together to bring you our combined knowledge about service dogs. Our goal is to bring you the latest, most accurate, most useful information about service dogs available anywhere.

Whether you are a person with a disability wanting to meet other service dog handlers or a fourth grader working on a school project, we want to make exploring the world of service dogs inviting and easy.

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3 Things I Wish I’d Known When I Was Single

"Loneliness isn't fixed by surrounding yourself with more people." Lysa TerKeurst // www.incourage.me

Here I have shared the image & exact article by author Lysa TerKeurst via her blog. I only copied and pasted because I know that not everyone clicks on these links, and I really think you just might find this beneficial…comforting…enlightening!

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So here we go…


I remember the hardest day of the week for me when I was single was Sunday. Specifically Sunday right after church.

Many of my other single friends would have plans with their families that day, but not me. My family lived 9 hours away.

So, I’d walk through the parking lot watching young moms ooh and ahh over Sunday school artwork and I’d think, “Their lives seem so blissfully full.

I’d walk past an older couple holding hands and think, “They are so lucky to have such an easy, breezy life.

I’d walk past a gal walking arm in arm with her boyfriend and think, “She is so fortunate to feel loved.

And then I’d get in my car and decide happiness, fulfillment, and contentment were something to hope for in the future, when I found the life I desperately wanted.

Boy, do I wish I could go sit in that car beside my single self and tell her some life-giving truths I now know.

1. Loneliness isn’t fixed by surrounding yourself with more people.

Sure, having people to go grab lunch with after church is great. And having the built-in companionship of your own family is wonderful. But it hasn’t fixed my struggles with loneliness like I thought it would.

Some of the loneliest women I know wear wedding rings.

I had to learn to enjoy life without being dependent on someone else to create the fun for me. That way I could bring the fun. I could bring the interesting conversation starters. And I could start to better discern the kinds of people who would get me.

What are those things you truly love spending time doing, creating, or researching? Invest your lonely moments there. Create life-giving experiences around your unique passions. After all, people are attracted to others who are full of life.

2. Learn from the pitfalls in friendships.

If only I would have dared to really look, I could have seen patterns of pitfalls in my relationships. Some of the same relationship struggles I had in my single friendships quickly popped up in my marriage.

Being a little more self-aware of how I contributed to frustrations in friendships would have helped me work on having a healthier marriage even before I met my husband.

I could have learned valuable self-improvements like taming my spontaneity a tad, remembering that not everyone likes to talk before the sun comes up, and working to not interpret everything with way more emotion than necessary. Just to name a few.

I absolutely would have encouraged my single self to make good use of those hard friendship moments by learning — really learning — from them.

3. Stop expecting perfection.

All those people I was watching those Sunday afternoons weren’t living perfect lives. They were having a moment of perfection in the midst of very imperfect relationships.

None of those moms were perfect moms. None of those couples were perfect couples. None of those families were perfect families.

I obviously know this with my head. But sometimes my heart gets tripped up looking for perfection and missing what’s really good.

Single self, realize perfection doesn’t exist on this side of eternity, and it’s exhausting to chase something that doesn’t exist.

So, look at relationships through the lens of grace. Instead of asking, “Is this the perfect relationship I’ve dreamed about?” ask, “Is this a person with whom I can both give and receive grace?”

Sundays are no longer the hardest days of the week for me. But it wasn’t because I got married and had kids.

It’s because I finally learned how to bring the joy I wanted to experience, became a healthier version of me, and stopped chasing perfection.


Hope this article leaves you with some insight.

Remember, you are not alone this Valentine’s Day…God bless.

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Church

creatordoctorGodChurch is not only a building and the House of God, the House of Worship, but Church is also a spiritual hospital.

When I go to Church I go not just to Church, but to the House of the One that provides Living Water so we will never thirst again.

Just as our bodies need checkups and maintenance, so do our innermost selves. Church is where you can find your deepest healing.  Medicine is within The Bible. That’s nourishment for the spirits of men until Jesus comes back for His Bride.  Famine in the Word of God will starve a soul, like a famine in the flesh can starve us to death in that manner.

A Church isn’t a Church without the Body of Christ inside of the building. When you gather among your brothers and sisters, the ember within you that is nearly gone out is then ignited with the Fire of Love. God is Love.

It is so easy to act out of anger, and to lie down in our sadness. But when we seek Jesus, walking with Him, following the Truth…it gets easier taming the flesh that we’re in. No matter how bad it hurts, you can get back up. Not because of your own unseen inner strength, but by the Great loving mercy of God Almighty.  God can do more for a soul in one day than any human being can in an entire lifetime.

He’s a refuge in a world gone bonkers. He’s the steady hand and a warm embrace in the midst of global warfare.

God bless everyone, have a great weekend!

 

*Images via Google

 

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Game Over

 

Game vs. Journey

According to Webster, a game is a physical or mental activity or contest that has rules and that people do for pleasure. 

According to Webster, a journey is an act of traveling from one place to another.

  • It is truth that life is a journey, not a game.
  • Life in this realm is a one time shot. There are no extra lives or bonuses. Game Over is permanent.
  • Like in games, you can quit…but the consequences are not worth it… After all, you cannot see for yourself waiting for what’s around the corner. I know first hand how major depression & Bipolar depression can darken our minds to such a degree where hope seems dead. Truth is, it’s not. No matter what somebody did to you, said to you, or who it was…you were made for more.
  • We all know that in games there are winners, and there are losers.
  • You only lose if you accept defeat. It is really & truly possible to rise above your past, overcome your deepest pain or great obstacles, if you desire…with all of your heart. The path has been laid before you.

 

Where are you going?

Jesus heals all the brokenness inside.  Check out my story.

Peace, healing, deliverance, and Salvation are free…in Jesus Christ, The Son of God. The only way to God, The Father. You don’t have to be perfect to come to Him. We come to Him and He cleans us up. Empty is made whole in Jesus.

 

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If Bipolar Is personal for you, this Hits Home! Let’s do something about it!

See where it happened here on Fox News, & listen to the phone call between Host Tom Sullivan and a successful woman who actually is living her life while managing Bipolar disorder.

Sullivan states in the call that Bipolar disorder is “something made up by the mental health business” and just “the latest fad.”  He then suggested that perhaps “”maybe somebody’s talked you into feeling and thinking this way.”

The caller later challenged Sullivan over his remarks, saying she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder thirteen years ago and mental health treatment allowed her to graduate from college and obtain a full-time job. The caller, who now volunteers with Stop Stigma Sacramento, noted that bipolar disorder isn’t a made up illness and is biological.

The rest of the dialogue is just unbelievable.

See & hear the rest below:

http://mediamatters.org/blog/2015/01/30/fox-host-tells-caller-her-bipolar-disorder-is-m/202349

There’s currently a petition ongoing about all this:

Ignorant FOX Host Says Bipolar Disorder is “Made Up” – Demand an Apology and Retraction

You can check it out and sign at http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/423/911/836/

 

Let’s kick the stigma!

God bless!