(This was actually like last week)
So, today I have a routine appointment with my gynecologist. I know that’s a very personal topic, but this is a personal journal-entry type blog post. I just want to give God The Glory.
The last time I was here, I was in a very dark place. I was in an abusive marriage that was so founded on lies and control that I could not see The Truth. I had no idea at the beginning of this year that God Almighty would open up the greatest of revelations in my 33 years of life. I was stuck and BOUND so tight.
I wanted to be pregnant. I wanted twins. I praise God with all my heart that He did not send them. There’s an entire story about The Lord speaking to me about babies. He was speaking loudly to me about my own story and testimony, but the enemy used it to deceive me. Like the serpent beguiled Eve, I was had so to speak. Familiar spirits and the occult. So very much has been given to me by The Lord God Almighty this year alone. No, I was not actually pregnant with human life. This was a Genesis in which my Creator was birthing something in me and in my life.
Glory to God! You see, so much pain and rage had been masked for years, for all my life. Things that were meant for me to never find out have surfaced at The Hands of my Messiah. The secular world masks what happened to me with potent psychiatric drugs. It’s the lies of man about things like getting enough sleep to prevent Bipolar Mania etc.
The sounds of squalling babies here in the clinic is a trigger.