It’s like after 6 a.m. and I’m sitting here sippin on some Cappuccino. On the drive home from the gas station so many thoughts were running through my head. Many emotions too..I shed a few tears as I sang along to some Miranda Lambert and reminisced with some Taylor Swift on my Spotify app. Needless to say I took the long way home…
It’s not like me to revert back to my old ways and musical tastes like I did this morning, but after losing a major spiritual attack after waking up and feeling so defeated, I just didn’t care. I threw it all away. I didn’t know I would mess up today and so early, but God did. I got so much deliverance last night. I just knew that was it. I just knew that the molesting and raping demons were going down forever. I was so excited because the desire to masturbate from their stimulation would be gone completely forever! Not so…yet. Christians (and everybody else) do not engage in watching pornography not matter what. The cost is far too high-especially if you are a Christian, a Child of GOD seeking The Lord. There are demons that can attach themselves to your body and live inside of you. They can be so stubborn to get out as I am finding out. Doing this stuff is a WIDE OPEN DOOR FOR THE DARK SIDE! Not many want to talk about this but it needs to be addressed!
So today God has had mercy on me. Even after blowing it this morning, still yet I began burping and yawning and coughing. These are all manifestations of deliverance. God was delivering me and still kicking demons out despite my actions. I haven’t prayed since.
As I was listening to songs like I Knew You Were Trouble, Red, and Bad Blood, I thought about all of the rejection I experienced in romantic relationships growing up and in early adulthood. It didn’t matter how beautiful I was or how talented. I was always rejected by the men I so desired. Even in the relationships I was involved in, they never lasted too long. NOW it is SO clear to me WHY! Having received all of the revelation this year in my trials I see that we live in a spirit world and all is spiritual. I recognize the mishaps. Most people have heard that God has a plan for your life. Well, the truth is…Satan does too! The kingdom of darkness is always at work in your life as well carrying out assignments against you to suit their purposes and plans against God. Good news tho! That’s what spiritual warfare is for!
All of my romantic entanglements were a part of Satan’s plan against my life to destroy what God had for me/God’s purpose for my life. I believe the enemy can catch a glimpse of the future but only God knows everything. Satan can speculate, I mean, after all he’s been around for a very long time! Whatever happened, I know the enemy was at work. Maybe not in everything. We have been given free will, just know that the kingdom of darkness has plans for your life too. I tell you this in wisdom, not to scare you. I tell you this from experience. There were major assignments against me in my young life with the spirits of rejection, self-hatred, fear, and so much more.
So if you’re going through something like this (you can apply this to everything else too), just know that it’s nothing personal. Remember that these spirits operate in people to get to us…and we war not against flesh and blood. Man, what an awakening this year has been for me!
Seek The Lord in prayer and ask for wisdom. God bless!