“Waiting, for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
Still awaiting, I.” -Disturbed
So, I’m still here…and I’m still going through it. After about a week of easier living, less torment in the sexual manner from the harassing demons (I believed they were losing their strength but turns out they were hiding somewhere else in me) they showed me they were back yesterday afternoon. I was in my prayer closet praying to The Lord when all of a sudden I noticed that my mouth was gaped open for no reason, then I realized I was being raped again by unseen forces…in the spirit. This is insane and I cannot believe I am still here.
I have heard of other Christians going through this right now and this is just terrible! The devil is sending out his wicked forces to attack some of God’s Children with sexual temptation and demonic arousal. Some call them spirit husbands or spirit wives. There’s Incubus and Succubus. Usually the latter two are said to attack in dreams and at night while I believe the spirit spouses attack any time 24/7. I’m not exactly sure how this perverted demon(s) became tied to me. At first I thought maybe it had to do something with my dad being a Freemason when he was alive.
*NOTE: DON’T sign up to be a FREEMASON, you are screwing your family over with curses, blood pacts or whatever else. Think about it! Not to mention you are WORSHIPING LUCIFER! AKA SATAN!
A new day…for so long I have been waking up and thinking to myself, Maybe today will be the day I will be set free… but not yet. I barely get any sleep anymore. Especially the past month. The demons (all of the kinds) attack most and heaviest at bedtime and like midnight through the dawn. They attack the most when human beings are tired and weary, sleepy and annoyed. So, for awhile I have been taking evening naps to be awake for the nighttime attacks and just odd hours. Not much sleep.
I was really picking up speed and felt a fresh anointing of boldness from The Lord in witnessing and beginning to get out of bed in the morning and exercise-seemingly signs of breakthrough. Temporarily. I’ve even been sharing praise reports. People, do NOT be deceived. The enemy is cunning and wants only to rob you, kill you, destroy you! I have read that these sex demons can cause serious gynecological problems. I believe I have been experiencing attacks of that sort as well. Not going into detail on that one.
This stuff is embarrassing, but it’s my hope that someone will find it all helpful and comforting, bringing God the Glory. He did not do this to me, I brought it upon myself when Jesus delivered me in January from a similar attack, much heavier in nature. I just bowed my head and prayed. When I lifted my head I was free. Well, I did not read the part in the Bible where Jesus says to sin no more lest something worse would come over you:
John 5:14 (KJV)
“Afterward Jesus findeth him in the temple, and said unto him, Behold, thou art made whole: sin no more, lest a worse thing come unto thee.”
And I did. Then just as it is written, this happened to me. I am living every moment of my life awake and sleeping (dreams are now only nightmares) with the rapist demons tormenting and harassing me. Heavy attacks, because I did not know the Word and I sinned against God. The wages of sin truly is DEATH.
Romans 6:23 (KJV)
For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
This stuff does NOT want to LOOSE ME and LET ME GO! I am going to get some Brothers and Sisters to pray for me because I am having trouble fasting and I am pretty sure these demons qualify for the category where Jesus said:
Mark 9:29 (KJV)
And he said unto them, This kind can come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting.
On a good note, God has used this mess to reveal an amazing Truth to me. I grew up in a very religious church that didn’t teach the full Gospel. No casting out devils or healing and tongues. God has introduced me to Deliverance Ministry, I am astonished at the truth! I am really not “Bipolar.” Mental illness, physical illnesses like Bipolar or cancer etc are just symptoms of demons that can be cast out in Jesus Name! It is far more simple if you cancel the legal rights and close all open doors. Sometimes you encounter some super strong and stubborn ones like I am dealing with, but this is FREEDOM in JESUS’ NAME! He came to set the captives free! This is BIBLICAL! Research this for yourself if you don’t know, God does not want you to suffer!
Anyways, I will keep you posted. If you would, please send up a prayer for me. Let us all remember no matter what…we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE! God has NOT forsaken YOU! JESUS LOVES YOU! PRAY PRAY PRAY.
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