I just want to break loose from this flesh and its sin nature. I want to be forever free from the weight of the devil’s condemnation. I don’t really quote Scripture, while The Bible is The Sword of The Spirit. God’s Word is our Sure Weapon in this daily spiritual warfare we wage.
I’ve got so many songs to sing. I think I have some bitterness still locked up within me. Daily my mind is assaulted with the lies of the enemy. Much of the time these untruths get to me, deep and far under my skin. Oh, Lord Jesus, how long?
It’s becoming more and more difficult to be separate in this world. Living faithful is an ongoing battle between the spirit and the flesh. I know in the depths of my heart, Father God, it is my greatest desire to please you and to give thanks as much as I can express for all that you have done for me. Thank you for Jesus Christ, Your only Begotten Son. My Savior. My Blessed Hope. I know He keeps His promise and that my God is the only Rock of solidarity, reliable to cling to under the sun. The Holy Bible and Word of God is the only Truth. I woke up and found out it was all a lie…like the wars and world wars I studied in High School History classes and into College. Turns out Satan really is at the top of it all. There is a systematic order of powers that be. And we are at the bottom my friends.
Jesus is coming for me. Though I feel so inadequate and that I am finishing this face poorly…I know that His Blood covers every sin. I surrendered my heart, myself to Him many years ago in my youth. I lost my mind and drifted from the fold. After living recklessly, disillusioned by the chemical imbalance and caffeine all though my twenties…at 30 I realized this is what I was created for. Not for a private practice. But for sharing the Love that has been shared with me by my Maker. My God. So you see, I do have a purpose. I have had a purpose all along. My whole 30 years of life has been lived out according to His plan. What Satan intends for harm, our Father in Heaven works out to the good for us. Nothing is wasted when you are a Child of God.
Now I have peace that I cannot explain. I still have the memories and scars from my roller-coaster of a past. The flashbacks are unpleasant but I choose freedom in Jesus. I still feel unworthy sometimes. But…Truth is…none of us are worthy. That’s why Jesus died for all of mankind.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
Our Salvation is not how we are feeling. Our Salvation is in Christ. Once you give your heart to Jesus, you surrender. You ask Him into your heart, acknowledging Him to be the Son of God who died for your sins on the Cross and rose again. You choose to repent or make changes in your life to live faithful to The Lord the rest of your life. Here is an example of a prayer you can pray to receive Him right now. If your really desire to change things and experience true joy and the many blessings as His son or daughter then the time is now. However, you just can’t call upon Jesus to become a son or daughter of The Lord God Almighty in your prayer and then go about your life living for the pleasures of this world. Following Christ is not going to Church on Sundays and partying the other 6 days of the week.
Salvation is free for all. Right now you could be set free…
Also, see Romans 10:9 and Acts 2:38 King James Version.
It can really be okay. No matter what.