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My Mom, God, and Bipolar Disorder.

Tomorrow morning at 8 a.m. my momma is having a biopsy procedure done to detect what exactly is going on with her left eye that became completely blind out of the blue two weeks ago. We have to be there at 6 a.m. though for registration and prepping. She is getting up at 4 a.m. today. I know she’s worried and anxious. I’ve prayed so hard daily since this happened. First she was declared the victim of a stroke, but later at a different hospital, 127 miles away here where my husband and I live, there was talk of inflammation disease due to her Rheumatoid Arthritis, and with that came the possibility of potential sight restoration.

So, here I am now. Its all in God’s hands, but I know that the power of prayer is unimaginable as well. It’s going to be okay. It always turns out okay. I think that’s the answer to what Atheists (and even Christians, and those of other beliefs as well) seek when they question Christianity or God, you know…asking

“Why did your God let this happen?”

Is this.

From all that I’ve experienced and learned along the way, my response would be that first of all in The Bible there’s scripture stating that “It rains on the just and the unjust.” This means that the sicknesses, pain, and tragedies of the world have happened, are happening and will happen to everyone. People of all faiths, ethnicity, diverse cultures and backgrounds. Its just part of being human. So, ultimately I do not see the bad in life as a punishment or payback. There is both good and evil under the sun. We don’t seem to be as full of doubt in the good times.

I am in no way a professional Theologian, Pastor, or like the great apostle Paul in the Bible. I haven’t been to Seminary, however, I am a Christian. I did obey the Gospel of Jesus Christ, the good news of salvation and hope of eternal life. I do know that God loves everyone and wants no man to perish. God is love. I have experienced great healing and protection in my life with dark moments and when I was unaware of being in danger. God does not discriminate. He loves everyone equally. It’s just that if you try and get to know God and learn what’s significant in this life, believing for a next one that never ends, you will never be the same.

When someone turns to God and obeys the Gospel completely, he or she is forever changed. A new person! You are ‘washed in the blood of the lamb’ (as some call it), your name is added to the Book of Life. Our days are numbered, but whenever your time’s up, God will see His Son next to your name in that book-that you’ve come to Him and joined The Body of Christ. We are even given our own personal guardian angel! These are not my ideas. Its all in the Bible. Seek and you shall find! Check it out for yourself. Don’t let another person tell you what the truth of it is.

I go into all of this in a better way in the link on the main page here, called “Where I Found My Healing”

I didn’t sit down to write about my faith but some how it just all poured out of me as I stared at my screen. Sometimes when I write, I am overcome with so much to say, so many ideas, that I just keep going and going. Writing for me is therapy.

I’ve been following my psychiatrist’s instructions entirely, taking my medications on time and correctly, I’ve been getting great sleep, making structure, avoiding drugs and alcohol, which I don’t use anyway…but you see, not complying to all of these things results in manic relapse. At 19, I first heard the word mania and learned what it really meant. I learned it during my 4 or 5 hospitalizations in 2004.

Anyways, if you have read all of this, I thank you! I appreciate you so much. In conclusion, I guess I could just say that stress can lead to Bipolar symptoms or behaviors as well. I’ve found myself very stressed lately and a little irritable. I’m working on it. I’m coping.

God bless ❤

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