“You leave home, you move on and you do the best you can. I got lost in this whole world and forgot who I am.
I thought if I could touch this place or feel it, this brokenness inside me might start healing. Out here its like I’m someone else. I thought that maybe I could find myself. If I could walk around I swear I’ll leave. Won’t take nothing but a memory from the house that built me.” -Miranda Lambert
The above photo was taken today on the road to my old hometown on the Mountain Parkway in eastern Kentucky. Lots of Blake and Miranda one the way home, mixed in with some Florida Georgia Line, lol.
I took momma home today from where my husband and I live around 3 hours north west of here. I miss the country life. Lemonade on a front porch (not near as many front porches where I currently reside), the beauty of the God’s mountains that I took for granted for the majority of my life, and most of all my folks and other family here. I think this is where I want to remain.
“Every last one, route one, rural heart’s got a story to tell
Every grandma, in law, ex girlfriend
Maybe knows you just a little too well
Whether you’re late for church or you’re stuck in jail
Hey words gonna get around
Everybody dies famous in a small town!” -Miranda Lambert
I’ve lived in the city for nearly 2 years now and I am more than ready to come home. I feel these lyrics in my veins. Man, oh man am I ever so glad to be here in the mountains, my home. Inside my parents’ home, and my childhood home. This is the house that built me-so many memories and now with so many changes. Thank You Heavenly Father for this life, these precious people who mean so much to me, and above all Your Very Own Son, Jesus, our Savior. Happy Easter weekend everyone!
Consider this relevance. God is sending us messages from the Heavens. Are we getting them?
Find out what’s going on in today’s world in turmoil with war, dancing around with the ideas of war, and tragedies. Search around you. Open your eyes so that you may see the truth for yourself with your eyes alone, and then help another in sharing the gained knowledge.
Friends, I am seriously, and highly encouraging you to read up on John Hagee’s Work called The Four Blood Moons. Its a prophetic sermon and theory backed by NASA and The Word of God. If you haven’t yet, I urge you to check it out-I have several posts about this on my blog. This is the real deal this time, not something off the wall as we’ve heard so many times in the past.
The essence of it all is that this type of Lunar event-the blood moon tetrad in this perfect sequence has only occured 3 times in the last 500 years. What’s the big deal then? Each time that these tetrads happened in space something huge was happening with Israel and the Jewish people of this earth. Look at the dates of 1492, 1948, and 1967. I go into further detail in other posts about the Blood Moons. By the way, the dates on this chart by Pastor Hagee are always in accordance with Jewish holidays.
Here’s where the book of Ezekiel in the Bible comes in with this in chapter 38:
King James Version (KJV)
38 And the word of the Lord came unto me, saying,
2 Son of man, set thy face against Gog, the land of Magog, the chief prince of Meshech and Tubal, and prophesy against him,
3 And say, Thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I am against thee, O Gog, the chief prince of Meshech and Tubal:
4 And I will turn thee back, and put hooks into thy jaws, and I will bring thee forth, and all thine army, horses and horsemen, all of them clothed with all sorts of armour, even a great company with bucklers and shields, all of them handling swords:
5 Persia, Ethiopia, and Libya with them; all of them with shield and helmet:
6 Gomer, and all his bands; the house of Togarmah of the north quarters, and all his bands: and many people with thee.
(These nations that will be joining Russia have translations which you can hear about in the videos on this matter of the Blood Moons that I have shared in previous blog posts-for example, the nation mentioned as Gomer is today’s Germany, and Persia as Iran).
The very profound Verse 23 says this: 23 Thus will I magnify myself, and sanctify myself; and I will be known in the eyes of many nations, and they shall know that I am the Lord.
God makes His presence known all of the time-in his works in nature, His healing, His miracles, so much. However, we ain’t seen nothing yet, as they say…Especially those who dare set foot on the soil of Israel with evil and intent of harm. Get ready world, and all who are against God’s Nation of Israel! Jesus could return at any time though, as far as that goes. However, all of this is predicted in the Good Book!
And now here we go. I am not surprised. This Ukraine that Russia is trying to eat alive is facing a negative treatment of the Jewish Ukrainians…They are asking the Jewish people there to “register”.
“Just in the last couple of days, notices were sent to Jews in one city indicating that they have to identify themselves as Jews,” he said. “In the year 2014, after all of the miles traveled and all of the journey of history, this is not just intolerable — it’s grotesque. It is beyond unacceptable.” -Secretary of State for The United States, John Kerry.
Another excerpt “demanding that Jews register — as well as provide a list of property they own — or else face deportation and revocation of citizenship. Pro-Russian activists have asserted partial control over some government buildings in that city.”
It’s all falling into place, just as told of in Hagee’s presentation of this: Russia is going to become a very significant part along with a a handful of other countries and with the help of Iran, attempt to destroy Israel. What they don’t know is that the Keeper of Israel neither sleeps nor slumbers. That Keeper is God, and as Pastor Hagee says “There’s a spy in the sky, and He’s Jewish.”
Credit to The Four Blood Moons by Pastor Hagee
It’s just after midnight and I’m winding down, same time as yesterday. Today was amazing just like I declared it would be yesterday! I laid all of my pain at God’s feet. He blew it away into the wind, never to be, ever again. I just wanted to share this post of praise with you guys as part of my very own living testimony that our God does hear, and He does see. We are human, we are mortal, and we need Him in every way. Prayer is far more powerful than so many of us understand or give it credit for (myself included). I have found that when I stay in a state of awareness and remain in prayer, throughout the day…don’t have to sit and do it for hours. I walk and talk with God.
I’m working on my growth as a Christian. I was baptized at a young age, and a few years later I lost my mind to the wicked disease of Bipolar disorder. So, you see, I am still what they call a ‘babe in Christ’. There is so much for me to learn. I understand that we are all human and can’t even learn it all in our lifetime. My growth was just stunted because of the winding, dangerous road I trod. He never left me and I was most definitely not forsaken. I have been protected with angels before and behind me, keeping me in all my ways.
My major point for us all tonight is this:
Do NOT give up.
There is hope, as long as you are breathing with a heartbeat. You are NOT OVER!!! Remember that, and please, for the help of another, remind them also.
God bless you all tonight, and always!!!
As implied in my title, I’ve dealt with some strong issues the first half of this month. I’ve been bitter, angry, full of pain and upset. I saw my pdoc today and am having a Lithium level drawn in the a.m. Fasting begins in 15 minutes ;) I am getting a lot of blood work done tomorrow, to see how my vitamins like Iron etc.. and parts of me like my Thyroid check out as well.
I made the choice though. Like Eve, I did eat. I consumed the forbidden sweet that makes me crazy, multiple times. I almost went blonde, I almost bought a huge White, Great Pyrenees dog that weighed tons compared to my under 10lbs 2 female Chihuahuas. All of my logic and almost my husband, sort of went out the door. :P
I’ve stumbled a bit. Well, actually, I stumbled at the end of March and have rolled down the hill to my current position, in the sand. In my palm I hold all kinds of grains of opportunity, hope, inner peace, and happiness on God’s beach. If I hadn’t fell down the mountain, I would not have rolled all month into the sand where I am. Sometimes we need a wake up call. Looking back in my journal and re-evaluating my life for the past 3 weeks, I can clearly see now that trouble was brewing.
I was drenched in pain, but that’s okay. They make spiritual beach towels for that.
This is my life! I cannot let the enemy steer my boat, only to sink me! I choose to win! God and I are going sailing tomorrow. It’s going to be a bright and wonderful day no matter what the weather of the earth, and the tides of my life will be turned by the hand of the one who holds my heart. I cannot carry these burdens alone, so I am finally surrendering, waving the white flag at myself. This war ends, now. Tonight in this moment. I will trust God to guide me. I was so sure I had conquered it all, and that just because it had been a decade since my Bipolar diagnosis that I was invincible. I neglected myself in not doing some things with my health for the good, and then doing some that were not healthy for me. It stops here.
Things have to change. As humans we often make the same mistake many times. I know I have. I think a lot of it had to do with the fact that I had this “I conquered it all” attitude because I had finally found the ever so sought after even line that we who manage Bipolar seek. There is no winning this game. Its not a game. Its life! A journey, not a destination as we say. Its not about finding the even line. Its about acquiring what it takes for that line and remaining by consistent daily effort to the best of our abilities…and God.
I hope this will inspire you in some way. We all have something going on in our lives that has the potential to drive us mad. Just know you’re not alone. God bless you, precious friends, always!
If you are feeling beyond healing, and like its over, nothing but darkness…and if you are considering doing something horrible about it, please, please, I encourage you to call this number:
anytime at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
Suicide solves nothing. Problems can be worked through. As long as you are still breathing with a beating heart, we can turn this around. I am sending you love this morning.
*image via, National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Playing some W.O.W (World of Warcraft) tonight. I haven’t really and truly played or been into the game in 4 years. My greatest accomplishment was learning to raid, and eventually downing the Lich King on my Mage, lol. I took a lot of smack talk, and whined like a baby behind the screen, but I eventually toughened up and now I can give it all right back to ‘em! Like anything else, there’s going to be stupid people who troll and try to annoy you.However, I know several people who have developed actual friendships and even relationships via this online game.
There is so much to do with this online game (In case you didn’t know, it never ends, nobody ever ultimately wins as an ending). There are some in game purchases that can be made like a character name change, appearance, race or class change, and even some pets or mounts that can be used on your account amongst all your characters. The monthly fee to keep Warcraft up & running on your computer is $15.00. You do not have to have a credit card. You may use a game-time card which you can buy at gaming stores or even places like Wal Mart and scratch off a code to enter and redeem your time-You could even use a debit card if you prefer.
So lets see how my new character as a female Goblin, Death Knight goes. I named her “the acute side” (all one word though) because miss new booty and ohnoshedidnt were taken!
If you are interested and would like to check out World of Warcraft for yourself, I reccommend you visit this website:
Beware of other websites that proclaim to be affiliated with WOW, because there are so many hackers and phishing scams out there because there is money invested in this game.
Get out there and enjoy!